Here we can all be heard for a little while. Part 3

Pyxis

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Do you subscribe to any sort of health plan that would enable you to see a consultant?
Failing that, could you afford a consultation, just to see what the current options might be?
If you could, it might be an idea to research the top bod for the condition and pay to see them, even if it means a trip to .........:eek:England!

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calleyw

Tea,

I mean this in a nice way if you get my drift. Glad to know its not just me that does silly things like that.

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Tea you need to give yourself a break you had a tough time recently.

On saturday mornings I weight myself and send myself a text so I have a record. About 3 years ago which was about 1 year after the break up. I had lost nearly 3 stone, sad to say nearly put back on 2 stone.

And as I said earlier my bank account is littered with visits to the local tesco express for junk food. About £5 a go at least 3/4 times a week. I am very uncomfortable admitting that. I am normally not hungry so no idea why I do it. And only do it when either lodger is not here or up in his room. And then I hide the evidence. As I would die if people could see what I shove down my neck.

I have lost weight before and stuck to it for a while. But my biggest down fall is going back to old ways.

My kelloggs fit band has arrived. Probably a lot of rubbish as only cost £6 in total. But will try it out and see what happens.

I did buy a load of ready meals from Lidl today. They were BOGOF. So at 99p yes I know full of rubbish. But at least I know how many calories I am eating. And a way to get me started.

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Any way everyone take it easy today and try not to be too hard on yourselves.

Yours

Calley

Lambyr

calleyw wrote: »

Lambyr yes it is nice that lego man is making time for me before my birthday. He is really sweet I am still struggling with it though. Its nice and easy and he thinks I am nice, confident person. Who is fun and happy to be with. I don't need to fight for his attention or cause an argument to get it. We are off to a farm cafe on wednesday. They make there own ice cream from their own cows milk. And you never know what flavors are going to made from day to day.

Aww, that sounds lovely!

I've read a few posts of yours about some of your insecurities. For what little it may be worth I kinda understand. My relationship with E is probably the first "proper" relationship I've ever had. 32 and it's taken me this long! I was with a guy for a few years but that wasn't a real relationship - he worked away most of the time so we didn't see each other much at all, and then when circumstances changed and he would be around more often we both kinda realised that it wasn't gonna work out.

I guess I went through life figuring relationships were things meant for other people, not me. That I was meant to be alone. I'm not really confident, I'm moody, I lack social skills, I've never been particularly good at subtlety and tact which makes it really easy for me to inadvertently offend someone... I'm a bit of a mess! I think that when you have a tendency to highlight your own negatives, it seems a little baffling when someone else is willing to overlook all these negative traits you see in yourself to be with you.

But when we are lacking in self-esteem it's quite easy for us to over-emphasise these negatives that we see. And now I'm actually in a proper relationship and trying to be all grown up, I've started to feel that at a certain point there's a sorta personal acceptance... like all these barriers of negativity start to melt away cos your mind focuses less on them and more on the fact that you're having fun with someone else. It's a lot harder to be negative about yourself when there's someone else making an effort to spend time with you. I still get the nagging sense of doubt, the thought that E could do a lot better than me but when she's actually here that nagging negative voice gets drowned out by a feeling of comfort and contentment instead. I even feel relaxed when I'm with her because I've started to feel that nagging voice with all its negativity that causes all this tension and stress is wrong, and that lifts some of that tension. It's like a mental and emotional massage!

tea_lover

Ooh I would like a mental massage!

Waves_and_Smiles

To sum up my life right now-Worse TOTM ever (sorry ono).

I'll be in the fort with a chocolate mountain.

Lambyr

Will this cheer you up, WaS?

Pyxis

Waves_and_Smiles wrote: »

To sum up my life right now-Worse TOTM ever (sorry ono).

I'll be in the fort with a chocolate mountain.

Poor WaS. I was just going to ask how you were.

Lambyr wrote: »

Will this cheer you up, WaS?

Eeeee!

I'm going to shamelessly filch that for the panda thread!,I think Colinw will like it!

Georgiegirl256

*hands WaS a fluffy hot water bottle* ((((WaS))))

I want one of those dogs....sorry Pandas!!

Lambyr

There's a panda thread?

Pyxis

Georgiegirl256 wrote: »

*hands WaS a fluffy hot water bottle* ((((WaS))))

I want one of those dogs....sorry Pandas!!

I think WaS once said that a HWB made her too hot.