Here we can all be heard for a little while. Part 2

calleyw

Morning my lovelies,

Well done Sue, Braver than me. I really am not keen on going to places I don't know and then to be on my own in a crowd. My idea of hell.

Pyxis, I don't like going out on my own for coffee or meals. I feel like a sad sack with no friends and that everyone is looking at me. hence why I tend not to do it.

Anyway last of the emulsion on the walls, Going to let that dry for a few hrs and then go and start scraping the stuck on underlay on the stairs.

Went for a walk this morning the first time in weeks and done some washing up.

I will chuck some jaffa cakes in to the fort and hugs, squishes and handshakes to all that need them.

Yours

calley

calleyw

Birdie85 wrote: »

Was the Maze Runner film good Calley? I'm currently reading that book so no spoilers please! I need to watch the first film too, although DH has watched it and said they don't speak in the film like they do in the book which is a shame. The books are really good if anyone is after something new to read.

I enjoyed it, Not read the books so can't comment on if its the same.

But films of the books are never the same, And sometimes they change stuff.

I might look and see if the books are in library next time I go.

Yours

Calley

Georgiegirl256

Can't stop crying (which is not like me), I keep on having flashbacks of things and it's making me feel quite down today tbh.

I think the lack of sleep lately isn't helping either, but I just can't seem to drop off lately.

whitewing

Crying is supposed to relieve the body of stress hormones, georgiegirl, so while I am sorry you feel so rotten, I hope it has some beneficial side effects.

I am already feeling 'lighter' now I am back on the anti-depressants. Definitely worth retaking them.

For any sci-fi fans out there, you will be interested in this:

http://edition.cnn.com/2015/10/07/living/amazon-best-100-science-fiction-fantasy-books-feat/index.html

Pyxis

(((((((~~~~~Georgie~~~~~)))))))
Have a good cry and let it out. :A


SingleSue.....what an incredible thing to do! I'd have been a complete wimp in that situation! How utterly horrible of your 'friend' to leave you stranded like that! :mad: Shudder!


Calley, I used to feel very self-conscious, eating on my own, etc. Then I started watching other people. I noticed that when women on their own took refuge in reading a book at the table, it made them look more alone and nobby-no-mates-ish. So I decided not to do that, but to spend the waiting time between being served looking around, watching people, or just losing myself in reverie. I'd chat to the waiter/waitress a bit, too, with lots of smiles. Basically, I was acting out being a very composed, self-assured woman, in charge of her own life, and not afraid of her own company or of being alone. Hahahahahahahahahahahahaha! It was all an act, but it worked! Sometimes I ended up believing it! :rotfl::rotfl:

There was even one occasion several years ago, in Norwich, when I was alone for an evening meal in the hotel, and I entered a very crowded hotel restaurant. Gulp gulp gulp!
No matter, I thought, brazen it out! So I asked the waiter for a table for one, etc, and people-watched, and acted like I was the most self-assured person in the room! :rotfl:
Anyway, I thought, I have a legitimate reason to be there, and if anyone is wondering why I'm there on my own, it's none of their business! So I deliberately took my time, ordering drinks between courses and coffee afterwards, and then nonchalantly and slowly, leaving the restaurant when I was good and ready to! And smiling at anyone who caught my eye.
When I got to my room, I mentally did that John Cleese thing of dissolving down into a ball and hopping about! :rotfl:
I was very proud of myself though!

codemonkey

Hugs Georgie. Have a good cry. Let it all out. You'll feel crap for a bit then better. Sometimes you just need to cry.

I may join you in the sobbing although I have no reason. Just feeling overwhelmed.

calleyw

just remembered this and thought this might make you smile.

Was sat in the cinema with my husband yesterday. And he has a man bag. Anyway his one is looking very tatty. So I mentioned that and then said to him don't buy another yet as you don't know what father christmas may bring you (I know its only october). I managed to get him a free bag from on-line.

My husband is 53 years old :rotfl:and even now he still gets a stocking and a chocolate advent calendar from me. I have reusable ones for us so buy a big tub of sweeties. And take them back after xmas so that he does lose them.

Stockings are filled with useful stuff like tooth brush, shaving gel, shower gels, styptic pencil, combs etc. Between £10-£15 spent. Sadly I have to buy the stuff to give to my husband to give to me as he is a bit carp. But have already started as got a camper van/beetle calendar from £land.

I will gloss over the bag of sweetener that he wrapped up and gave to me for Xmas :rotfl:


Yours

Calley

codemonkey

I'm so ashamed of myself. I have binged every single day for the past 3 days, today being the worst. I feel icky, I want to purge and I have the worst heartburn ever. I need to hide the evidence from DH. I was doing so well

calleyw

codemonkey wrote: »

I'm so ashamed of myself. I have binged every single day for the past 3 days, today being the worst. I feel icky,

You and me both.

I was doing well, but once I go off track one day I just think sod it



Yours

Calley

Georgiegirl256

codemonkey wrote: »

I may join you in the sobbing although I have no reason. Just feeling overwhelmed.

Me too code

Just so much going on in my head right now, and trying to get stuff sorted for going away next week.