I WILL get there!!

Kitten868

Oh Kirsty I'm sorry. Plan out your questions for the consultant. I think we both know what he's going to say though. Lap and then try to concieve. That's what they always say. PCOS goes dormant (apparently) while pregnant and you certainly can't produce more cysts as you're not ovulating. It might actually give you a break?
It will be ok. And it explains how much pain you've been in. Xx

kirtsypoos

Thanks Bob - I tried to talk to my Mom on the phone last night but my sister was there and she is really suffering at the moment - she may have to go into hospital for fluids as she has hyperemesis gravidarum and so is vomiting constantly and can't even keep water down so I wanted Mom to make sure she was ok rather than worry about me - glossed over it quickly so I'll try and talk to her about it next time I see her.

I then had a bit of a breakdown on the phone to my Nan - she's amazing! She's harsh but fair and sometimes it's just what I need, other times not so much but you can't have it all :rotfl: it's one of my many aunties birthday parties next weekend so I'm hoping to be able to go to that and spend some time with the grandparents but it's in Liverpool and I haven't budgeted fuel for the trip....or for a present that I would need to buy if I go and it's a long trip there and back in one night. Then again I really feel like some time with my Nan would help my mental state at the moment. Will have to decide during the week when I know how much I can shave off the food budget for next week.

My Mom and Nan both had gynae issues but not the same ones - my nan had fibroids and they both had early hysterectomies. My nan also struggled to get pregnant - it took her 4 years to catch with my mom, another 3 for my uncle and then she wasn't able to have any more. My mom had no issues conceiving so I think it's hard for her to understand my worries, but she is lovely and tries her best.

Thanks Kitten - I'm resigned to that being the standard answer but I want to discuss the additional conception problems - and also see if there's anything they can give me in the meantime hormone wise as as the other symptoms are things which (vainly!) bother me daily like the excessive facial hair growth, it makes me feel like a man - I spend hours plucking my chin (sorry, that's a lot of unpleasant info!!)
I'm going to see if they will agree to ovarian drilling during my next lap so hopefully both sides will have a chance.

There's not much I can do about it - but I really can't fault the service so far - the ultrasound tech was amazing and my appointment with the consultant is on 23rd so not much waiting time really!

Thanks everyone xx

Kitten868

That is quick turnaround time that's a consolation. The only thing they offered me was a hormone suppressant and it sounded like more upheaval than it was worth. Also looked into laser hair removal and they said it wouldn't work on my hair/skin type. I don't know about ovarian drilling but it's definitely worth talking about. For me it was how long do I try naturally before I ask for help. Can you please cut out enough to give me a good shot.
So not only is she pregnant she's now thinner too? My hair dresser had that and looked her best ever through the pregnancy. I hope it settles soon though as morning sickness is horrific.
Go to your nans sounds good.
You haven't struggled to concieve yet, you could fall pregnant straight away. Don't forget that.
So pleased about the car and work for you xxx

Bobarella

I'd go and see your Nan if that's what you feel is right. Support is so important especially from people that can really understand. Sorry to hear about your sister that sounds really awful.

kirtsypoos

I spoke to OH last night about going to my Aunts party and we are going to go all being well. My parents may also be going so hopefully we will be able to hop in with them - that should save on fuel costs - will speak to them about it later today.

I'm going for a few drinks with my old school friends tonight, back in the town we went to school in which I haven't been out in in years - OH is dropping me off and picking me up so I can have a few tipples - not sure if it's a good idea given my emotional state at the moment, but I'm really looking forward to it, and have been saving for it since Jan so once again no CC spend

It's been 8 months on Monday since I spent on a CC - it's like AA! Admitting to and keeping track of my vices has really helped me though. I'm still cigarette free, although I expect to be really tempted tonight, being around people who smoke and drinking. Will do my best, but I won't be beating myself up if I slip - I'll just get right back on track.

Also spoke to OH about the scan and what the ultrasound tech showed me - I had asked him not to push me to talk about it until I could get my head around it but I spoke to him about the basics last night. I don't feel like I want to talk about it properly yet but at least he knows the basics.

Bobarella

I think you are right about the addiction bit. Overspending is a bit like binge eating or drinking. It all comes down to impulse control doesn't it.

kirtsypoos

I completely agree Bob, I find it difficult to control things like eating - since I had my LBM I've put a fair bit of weight on - it's like I can't quite keep a handle on everything all at once - I'm going all guns blazing at the debt but my eating has increased ten fold.

I had a brilliant night last night, it was so good catching up with my oldest friends! OH dropped me off and picked me up and I had a few drinks (and a cheeky couple of cigarettes )

My parents have agreed to travel together so will only have to pay half the fuel which is a bonus. The party is at a family members house too so no expensive bar

Had another ebay sale - a pair of shoes I've had sat in the box for years - put them on expecting 99p but they sold for £16!! Very happy with that, and now heading to my shoe collection to see what else I can sell!

kirtsypoos

I've got my hospital appointment tomorrow to have a tube put into my stomach to measure the acid - it has to stay in for 24 hours and is preceded by another test involving a tube in my stomach while I swallow water to see how effective my stomach muscle is - yuck! Was trying not to think about it, but now work is done I am having a bit of a stress about it.

On the upside I'm not in work until Wednesday afternoon at the earliest - and that is almost worth the poking and prodding!

I'm going to keep busy tonight, meeting a friend for coffee at her house and then going to do some cleaning. I'll be happy when it's over - I've been off my meds for a week now and I feel like I've only managed to get about 8 hours of sleep in total over that time. Being propped up with 4 pillows and drinking milk like it's going out of fashion hasn't been too much fun! Roll on Wednesday night when I can take my tablets and my beloved gaviscon again!

crazy_cat_lady

Hope all goes well - or as well as it can do at least.

kirtsypoos

Well I am now the proud owner of a temporary gastric tube. It's horrible - I can feel it move everytime I swallow/breathe/talk and I'm trying really hard not to heave as that will dislodge the tube and have an impact on the results of the test....It's in until tomorrow so I'm dreading having to try and sleep - they've said I can't have milk, and must sleep with only 1 pillow so god knows how little sleep I'll be able to get