Here we can all be heard for a little while

whitewing

I raised £50 for the colour run, so I was pleased with that. When I phoned to make the payment, the lady sounded genuinely delighted at the amount so that made me feel chuffed.

I just watched the programme about autistic girls, and I slightly cried. I cried at OCD cleaners yesterday when it turned out that the posh chap's older brother had been killed.

I am forcing myself to do my exercise.

My throat is sore when I swallow. My period has come on very early - probably for the first time in my life that it is early, and it seems bizarre as I am on the coil.

There is a lot of external hassle going on for extended family.

I have taken part in some autism research questionnaires lately for a different university.

I also had the DNA collecting kit come through today for more autism research.

I am struggling to know if I feel low because it would be natural to feel low, or if I am causing myself to spiral.

DH went to bed partway through the programme. He wants me to take one of my antidepressants tonight. He says he is noticing some changes.
(I have been completely off them for a number of weeks - the planned decline actually went cold turkey without problems). I am worried about taking them - one - in case they make me feel sick.

I am also staying up later so tiredness is having an impact.

(I am still a huge amount better than I have ever been. Just noticing the worthless thoughts drifting in and getting more frequent).

I have been enjoying the thread and sending silent welcomes to the newbies, even though I haven't been posting. I have had plenty to stay but when it comes to actually posting I have lost interest. I was interested in the programme about selective mutism. I had problems as a teenager when I got to the point that I could only talk if someone asked me a question and initiated the conversation. I sort of wonder if I have started to get selective textism.

I am a bit dwelling on the fact that I get absolutely no buzz out of interacting with other people. Intellectually, I find it quite sad. It's a family occasion coming up and DH has been speaking to his mum about a get together. They have suggested a date and DH said, it will just be family. Now, it was said reassuringly as though I may not go if otherwise. MIL is very sociable and quite often has friends to BBQ. I'd quite happily sit and watch the world go by, but I have no urge to speak. And I think the friends are finding it slightly odd, especially the friends who are foreign and who would probably like the opportunity to practise their language. But even then, I don't actually care enough to make the effort, although I like to think that I am friendly enough.

Lol, I should probably stop thinking........

geminilady

Whitewing
Well done on raising the £50 pounds! sorry you are feeling low,did your doctor suggest you came off the anti d's? you could be feeling low because because is your time of the month or maybe you came off the ant d's too early if your dh has noticed a difference.I would not have thought just taking one tablet would make a difference as they take a while to get in your system.If your mood does not improve I would suggest you see your gp

calleyw

Morning My Lovelies,

I know its early.

Ohh forget to say I did not get the job. Someone else had more product knowledge.

But they want to keep my details on file as he liked me :rotfl:

Yours

Calley

Flybaby

Morning.......**waves at Calley through the fort window**
Excellent news on having a good interview experience.


I enjoyed watching the Nasa press conference last night to see the first data back from Pluto. I love Pyxis' explanation.


((((squishes to whitewing and all others who are having cruddy time)))))


KAty - how did it go at work? HOw is escapee?

Pyxis

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Eeeeeeee LARP weekend tomorrow! I am SO excited!

Going to see the doctor today though. Bit nervous, as I have to discuss my implant and try to persuade them to give me an IUS back...

HBS x

Wellyboots6

£50 is a lot whitewing! Hubby is raising sponsorship at the moment and is struggling to get past £17 so you have done very well!

Well done Calley, it shows you are good at interviews, so the next one should be a doddle

Morning Flybaby, work did not quite go according to plan and neither did the health visitor visit, so I went in to hibernation yesterday to forget about it!

Had spent ages training Little Sod to go in his box when visitors come, and usually he is fine. However, when the health visitor came he decided to bark, throw himself at the bars etc and generally look scary. She kept asking how he would be with baby and I tried to assure her he would be fine. We decided to let him out in the hope he would calm and she would see he is actually quite nice... So he tried to steal her handbag and wiped snot all over her leg. Other than that the visit went well

Work was silly busy, so I didn't get a break at all. When my boss came in I gave him my note and told him I will not be working a shift like that again. He said I could sit in the cooler room in the back doing odd jobs for my shifts, but he wouldn't get cover in to help the others out, so that is not a practical solution. He then said I needed to decide if I was in the business to work, or just sit around! I told him I would happily work, just not put me or baby at risk, and if he couldn't reduce the risks I wouldn't be working. He said I had to work as he couldn't get cover for me and he couldn't mentally or physically cope with covering my shifts... We have agreed another meeting on Friday to discuss options.

I feel awful getting cross at him saying he couldn't cover me as he couldn't cope, as maybe he has issues which genuinely mean he couldn't cope. But if that is the case he should show more sympathy for others who are struggling!

Sneezed and wet myself this morning, oh its going to be a good day!!

Got the day off today so planning to do a few bits around the house. Hope everyone else has a good day

Pyxis

Well done, Calley! Every interview is an experience, so onward and upward! Maybe there'll be an even better option around the corner!


Katy....good on you for standing up to him! As you say, if he can't cope, how is he expecting you to?
If he genuinely can't get cover, he will have to accept lower productivity and that's that! You can't expect one horse to pull a load that only two horses can pull!

As for Little Sod, he hasn't been PMing Gitdog has he, and learning the "Gitdog Method of Treating Visitors"?

(Elsien, I love Gitdog really! )

mellymoo74

jade helm 15 anyone heard about this?

Penguin

Its linked to the info they have been collecting on us all for years. Apparently it removes all responsibility from humans meaning there will be no more war crime trials.
Is very very scary

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Wellyboots6

Oh goodness, I can imagine Gitdog and Little Sod would be best of friends!