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Pyxis

Flybaby wrote: »

Elsien - later start might help - just having the assurance that if they are up to half an hour late than the usual starting time - it's ok. Might help relieve stress related to not sleeping well and getting to work on time. Possibly same on lunchtime - if they had an hour and a half at lunch and a space to have a snooze, this might really help them to cope with a full day back at work. The extra half hours could be clocked up and either taken off pay, saved for future "overtime" work or taken off holiday days when tallied up, or if a really nice employer - given for free to assist the person back into work. When suggesting things like this I always try and give management a financial view to get them on board if there is resistance e.g. What is the real cost to the employer of 2.5 hours a week for 12 weeks vs the cost of recruiting (And training) a replacement if a valued member of the team has to leave?

Flybaby, have I told you you're awesome?

Wellyboots6

Reduced hours and flexible start/finish times helped me in my last job. Also having a weekly meeting with someone who knew my story who I could offload to each week helped. I could also go to them if I needed in between times.

Waves_and_Smiles

Thank you so much everyone. I know I am being stupid and I feel like I have such a cheek because there are so many people with real daily struggles and I am panicking over camera's and listening devices which I know don't really exist, I just feel like they do. I feel so guilty that I worry over these things when people have so much else to worry about, honestly it makes me feel pathetic.

It's odd because I know my thoughts are distorted but it doesn't stop me being terrified. The healthy part of my brain is saying forget about it, the other half is saying but what if you are right and you ignore this? Suppose someone is crouched outside my door and listening to me, waiting to break in when I sleep? One of the hardest parts of psychotic thoughts for me is I actually know that my thoughts are strange. It makes me loathe myself for being an idiot but at the same time I can't shake them off. So I end up trapped between being scared and wanting to slap myself for being an idiot. Poor WaSp has to put up with being shushed too, I won't even let him make any noise in case people hear. I am driving myself insane right now...

Plus I had a budget panic and spent every spare penny I had and then some on ridiculous things like 7 tubes of toothpaste and 4 toothbrushes in case my benefit was stopped. Now the rest of month is going to involve living off of the bare minimum and be very tight indeed just to buy food and pay direct debits. I do have pasta! For some stupid reason I bought 20 packets! It wasn't until it turned up that I thought why on earth did I do that? Shopping when I am ill isn't a good idea. More reason to feel like an idiot...

/end whine

calleyw

Waves_and_Smiles wrote: »

Thank you so much everyone. I know I am being stupid and I feel like I have such a cheek because there are so many people with real daily struggles and I am panicking over camera's and listening devices which I know don't really exist, I just feel like they do. I feel so guilty that I worry over these things when people have so much else to worry about, honestly it makes me feel pathetic......

Please don't feel like that. As I said I feel like a fraud as my problems are nothing compared to someone like yourself.

But they are issues that effect you. No matter how silly they seem. They are real and effect you. And only you know how it effects you.

I know its easy for me to say. But cut yourself some slack. And try and take it as easy as you can.

Yours

Calley

Wellyboots6

Well Little Sod is now covered in green paint. He looks like an odd coloured zebra.

Would anyone like to hazard a guess as to what colour we have been using in the nursery today?!

Oh and he tried to hump my birthing ball and wasn't happy it kept rolling away.

Babies have got to be easier than energetic rescue dogs with issues, surely?!!

mellymoo74

Have updated my thread with meeting stuff.
Not been able to eat today and had lots of tramadol so need to sleep.

Solarjunkie

Pasta with toothpaste sauce care of WaS everyone? :rotfl:

calleyw

Solarjunkie wrote: »

Pasta with toothpaste sauce care of WaS everyone? :rotfl:

Yum minty bolognese :rotfl:

Yours

Calley

Pyxis

WaS, do you know why my house is such a mess? Because for some weird reason, I am scared of it all.

It's thoroughly stupid to be scared of it, and there's no reason for that.
I feel thoroughly stupid for being so scared of it when there's no reason to be scared if it, yet scared of it I still am.

Your demons are no less valid than my demons. They may be irrational, but they scare us, and because they scare us, we need understanding.

Luckily, on this thread, and thanks to you, understanding is what we both get.

Fears are fears, and if they are understood by others as well as by ourselves, hopefully they will shrink a bit.

Rest assured that we are here for you, and no strange voices are going to get you, 'cos we won't let them! So there!

Flybaby

Pyxis - not as awesome as you are!
And most certainly not as awesome as WaS.
(((hugs)))