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Pyxis

tea_lover wrote: »

Have just had a lovely lunch (and my soon to be ex boss paid, bonus ) Now I have to pretend to work for another hour or so when really I could do with a nap.

You need a pair of those glasses that have open eyes painted on them, then you can shut your own eyes behind them!:rotfl:



This sort of thing! (Only in a lady's style!)

codemonkey

Ahem. I've found if you have long hair, you can put a folder on your desk, prop your head on your hand and have a nap. Not that I'd do it you understand.

heartbreak_star

I realised I needed to do something about my eternal tiredness a few years back when I fell asleep on a microscope...

HBS x

tea_lover

codemonkey wrote: »

Ahem. I've found if you have long hair, you can put a folder on your desk, prop your head on your hand and have a nap. Not that I'd do it you understand.

Knew I shouldn't have tied my hair up today...

whitewing

How to get rid of earworms (works for some people)

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Georgiegirl256

tea_lover wrote: »

I'm the other way with TV emotions :rotfl:. I can cope with quite a lot in real life with a stiff upper lip and a bar of chocolate (and a good whinge on here). But show me a kitten or a little old man on the TV and I'm a blubbering wreck.

Have just had a lovely lunch (and my soon to be ex boss paid, bonus ) Now I have to pretend to work for another hour or so when really I could do with a nap.

Tea, I'm totally the same. That little Geordie pensioner that got mugged (Alan Barnes?) had me in tears everytime he was on TV. Just reading yesterday how he can't settle in his new home.

What you need for work related naps is one of these, http://www.ostrichpillow.com ....won't attractant attention whatsoever!

whitewing

Those ostrich pillows look great fun but I always have really bad dreams when my head gets too hot.

codemonkey

whitewing wrote: »

Those ostrich pillows look great fun but I always have really bad dreams when my head gets too hot.

Oh my word! Me too!

Edit: While I'm ok with gore and death etc on TV, it's a different story if an animal dies. I cannot watch Marley & Me or the Supervet without bawling my eyes out. I also cry uncontrollably at the opening scenes of Up.

Pyxis

codemonkey wrote: »

Oh my word! Me too!

Edit: While I'm ok with gore and death etc on TV, it's a different story if an animal dies. I cannot watch Marley & Me or the Supervet without bawling my eyes out. I also cry uncontrollably at the opening scenes of Up.

Oh God! Me too! And it's getting worse with each passing year! It's why I can't watch wildlife programmes, because I can't bear to see one animal being the prey of another, even though I'm well aware it has to happen for survival. And if it's a baby animal or an old or injured one...........no hope for me!
I can watch programmes about plants, though! Or spiders! Luckily, insects have such a different nervous system from mammals, that it's highly unlikely that they feel fear. So I can watch them.


Now folks, I need a hug.
I've been feeling absolutely awful for the past three weeks, steadily worsening and culminating in horrendous depression this week, the like of which I've not had for a very long time. Due to quite ghastly family stuff which I cannot tell you about, I'm sorry. It has eclipsed the Big Worry that started a few weeks back, you may remember. That seems quite puny now, in comparison to this.
Well, if that weren't enough, I've just had a big bust-up with a small spin-off group of the Am-Dram thing I go to. Again, it's difficult to explain for fear of being identified, but to say I feel betrayed is not too strong a word. I was so astounded by what they'd done behind my back, while I was unable to practice recently due to being unwell, that I blew up. I don't usually explode when angry; usually I shrink into a shell and it manifests as depression and a huge loss of self-esteem. This time, it was such a shock that I could be treated so badly that I exploded. And shouted. Eventually I decided I was too upset to carry on this evening, and decided to go home. I did not flounce out, I just decided I was too upset to do any meaningful Am-Dram with this small group tonight, and so would go home, and said as much, and went.

So now I am feeling extremely alone, totally misunderstood, as usual(!), an outsider, an oddity, unloved, unappreciated and unwanted by family or anyone else. Things like this keep reinforcing the feeling that I must be soooo different from the norm. That my behaviour must be sooo peculiar. And yet all I want to do is get on with people, be kind to people, help people out if I can, be understanding . I hate upsetting anyone, so I would never have done to them what they did to me.

Of course, my reaction had been made worse by coming on top of the huge family thing that's upsetting me dreadfully. I probably wouldn't have reacted quite so badly were it not for the family thing. Maybe, though, it's healthier that I did blow up, and not bury it as usual, and it, like the Big Worry, is a puny thing in comparison.

I'd forgotten what such a deep depression was like. I'd forgotten how ghastly it is. It's due to a condition I have, not, confusingly, a mental health condition, plus the fact that I've been trying to get along without the medication for it, plus reactive depression due to the family thing.

I think I'll stop rambling now.

System

Really sorry you're having such a horrible time Pyxis *bigs hugss*. I very rarely get angry myself, like you i seem to turn it inwards and it leads more to depression and low self esteem. I think i worry if i end up getting angry, i'm losing control and thats not a nice feeling. I don;t know what happened at AmDram, but they shouldn't be talking or doing things behind your back, that's not on. Are the people involved people you usually get along with? Are there any you could approach when you're feeling calmer and talk to about what happened? If you're having to deal with this on top of The Big Worry then it's not surprising you're feeling like you are.

Try and take the evening to relax, is there anything you can do whihc will make you feel like you can wind down? Something to treat yourself, even if its a little thing. I find when i'm in a deep depression it's hard to motivate yourself to do anything, but when i do manage to do something, even if its just get up and run a bath, i feel like i;ve done something positive