We all need to be heard for a little while.

heartbreak_star

Congratulations tea! Awesome news!

Regarding the post about the FB selling page, I was the same about mine and my Etsy shop for a while, even though people like the stuff What are we like?!

HBS x

geminilady

Congratulations Tea:T Remember they picked you from all the people they interviewed so they think you are the right person for the job

tea_lover

geminilady wrote: »

Congratulations Tea:T Remember they picked you from all the people they interviewed so they think you are the right person for the job

Thank you (all ) I wish I shared your confidence lol! I feel so out of my depth already, will just have to keep telling myself that they think I can do the job and hope for the best.

Birdie85

Stoodles wrote: »

Hello Birdie, nice to meet you.

Have you praised yourself for how much you have done?

Along the lines of "I was brave enough to make the FB page. I've made things that people like and want to buy" Factual, positive statements. Go on - add one more.

Thanks! Erm... I am super proud that there are frames that I made on walls up and down the country as well as in Ireland, India and America and one will be going to Australia soon!

heartbreak_star wrote: »

Regarding the post about the FB selling page, I was the same about mine and my Etsy shop for a while, even though people like the stuff What are we like?!

I'm waaaaay too scared to open an Etsy shop! What do you make?

Super news about the job Tea! :j I had a feeling you'd get it! It is scary moving on to pastures new, but a good scary!

Stoodles

Go Birdie!

Waves_and_Smiles

Hello all and welcome hoipolloi!

Huge congratulations, tea! And it is totally natural to feel sad about OH, remember that you are grieving for the could have been's more than the reality of what you had. Have a hug.

With obsessive behaviour and dark thoughts they are often ways to try and grab control of our environment when we feel everything is out of control. I grew up in a very dysfunctional family and developed OCD at a very early age, although OCD symptoms do not mean it is full blown OCD at all. Everything felt out of control to me so I tried to control the small things in my world, even down to rituals before I turned off switches. It was a way to feel safe.

I have read all of the posts and sorry if I don't reply to everyone, I am cheering you all on! I had a very bad night with a dream I couldn't wake up from which lead to a psychotic episode. All better now but very shaky and in pain. There was no reason for it, it is just chemical blip. They happen sometimes.

For the new people I have Catatonic Schizophrenia which means the switch between my imagination and reality doesn't work properly. It also means I can get stuck in other worlds or dream states and I can't work out which is the real world. I become very still during these times and tense all my muscles which means it really hurts when it stops. During this time my eyes are open and staring straight ahead and it is very hard to move my arms and legs because all of my muscles are locked, this is the catatonia part. In my mind however, things are very active indeed. It is sort of like dreaming and being unable to wake up and/or being unsure if you are awake. The way to make these episodes stop is for someone to give me very small amounts of anti-psychotic medication every 20 minutes and keep reassuring me. The medication relaxes me and help correct the chemical imbalance and talking to me helps me figure out which is the real world.

I won't bore everyone by writing down the details of this episode (unless anyone wants me to) but there are several examples on the old thread of what I 'see' during them if you are interested. The scary thing is I know that they are happening but I can't 'wake up' so I will try to get back to the real world by hurting myself. I can also lash out if I happen to be imagining someone hurting me and someone tries to touch me. I need someone with me at these times because I really am not safe to be alone. The fact they happen randomly is one of the main reasons why social services insist I am checked on regularly.

Please ask me anything about them if you are curious, it doesn't upset me to talk about it anymore.

Pyxis

Hoipolloi wrote: »

I found and took the personality test a few pages back and I'll give you all the heads-up that I am an INFP-(t), not sure I understand the 't') bit, but anyhow, I'm a mediator apparantly. Sounds about right to me :beer:

T stands for turbulent (and A for assertive) but I can't find the page that explains them. I think turbulent just means changeable depending on the situation. I'm a turbulent too, and I did print out my page, so when I find it, I'll post more details.

tea_lover wrote: »

Thank you (all ) I wish I shared your confidence lol! I feel so out of my depth already, will just have to keep telling myself that they think I can do the job and hope for the best.

Sometimes a benefit of having two really scary situations on the go at one time is that one will be a bit scarier and so will eclipse the other; effectively, then, you'll only have one scary thing to cope with! Whereas if you had the two scary things in tandem, that'd be two lots of scariness to have to cope with!
That's what I find, anyway, and I know what I mean even if no-one else does! :rotfl:




Edit. Sorry you had a bad episode WaS. (((((((((WaS))))))))))

Waves_and_Smiles

I am an INFP (T) too, hoipolloi!

Thank you for the hug, Pyxis! All over now, just hurting a lot from the muscles contractions. Plus I am half asleep from the anti-psychotics.

Errata

tea_lover wrote: »

Thank you (all ) I wish I shared your confidence lol! I feel so out of my depth already, will just have to keep telling myself that they think I can do the job and hope for the best.

Fake it until you make it, that's what everyone else does!

Waves_and_Smiles

Hahahahaha! that made me laugh, Errata and I totally agree! I remember when I got my management job at 24 and I was so afraid I walked around the block crying before my first day. But I went in, I acted confidently and as if I had done this many times before and it somehow worked! Even if you are shaking wreck, look as if you are totally in control and people seem to believe it!