Don't Panic!

please-let-me-be-lucky

Oh October, your poor friend! I've lost 4 babies throughout 3 pregnancies and it's all just awful. However, I equally know of as many women who have got dates wrong and babies have grown between scans etc, so please try to remain positive for your friend. Keep going with the plans on what to wear Friday, just incase, as you never know how she will react whatever the news, but don't be surprised if she doesn't want to go out even if the news is good. It's a funny old thing and people cope differently.

Wear the same dress as last time if you do go out, maybe with different accessories if it makes you happier. I hardly ever go out, but I honestly can't remember what my friends wore the last time (which was just last month!), so hopefully your friends won't bat an eyelid at your dress (other than to say you look lovely!!) Xx

liltdiddylilt

Love you Lucky... xx

October_Starter

I'm so sorry Lilt . What a terrible experience. I'm sorry to you too Lucky. I can't imagine the pain you'd go through losing a child. I'm not showing my friend a single ounce of doubt. I told her 100% that it will be ok. I also know that if it's not then I will be right by her side crying with her but doing whatever she needs.

I would love a baby or two but OH and I are so far from that. I wouldnt be upset if it did happen but I know OH would be gone in a flash if I ended up pregnant. I'm hoping with time he will change his mind.

You ladies are amazing and my inspiration. I hope one day I can repay you for your support xxx

October xx

please-let-me-be-lucky

I love you too Lilt. Bless you going through all that with your angel baby, must have been horrific Xx

October, you already do 'repay' us with your support, but it's unconditional anyway. I'm sorry to hear you think your OH would run if a baby happened, maybe he will change his mind in due course? Xx

Calling14

Fingers and toes crossed for your friend October.

Think losing a child must be one of the hardest things and something you never recover from. Hugs Lilt and Lucky. xxx

October_Starter

Hello Lovelies!

:j It's Thursday and that means just today and tomorrow to get through and then the weekend off! And boy do I need it! I am SHATTERED. I used a sleeping app on my iphone last night and OH and I got 4hrs 22mins sleep!! I would have had longer, had it not been for OH waking me up at 5:30 as he missed his bus again.. :mad:

I got home and fell asleep for a bit but then it was so much worse. I felt like I was drugged, I could not make myself wake up. I was sooo tired. I just about managed to get to work on time but I look scary! OH bought me a maccy's brekky to say ty. That was sweet of him.

I am hoping that today will be an NSD, probably the last of the month. As I got paid yesterday, I am now using my new budgeting spreadsheet so recording EVERYTHING. I noticed Mr A is having a clothes sale... I am going to have a little look at their under £6 rails and if there is something I like for tomorrow night, I might get it and then see if I can recover the cost with e of bay sales.

I need to wrap my besties' bday pressy. I got it for her at comic con. Basically it is a nail kit where you use metal plates as a kind of stencil and then press the colour onto the nail. I think she will really like it as she loves having her nails done and it costs her a small fortune. Kinda hoping she will do mine too . Still got my fingers and toes crossed that everything will be ok with her baby.

Lucky, OH is just not ready yet. I think his experience of family isn't that great and he doesn't have confidence in himself. He is only 29 and we have only been together 9 months so I am not counting it out. I think we need to get a little more established and out of debt too. Like every journey it is little steps. I also would like to lose a considerable amount of weight before I consider a baby. Definitely thinking that I should change the name to February Starter :rotfl:.

Going to explore the diaries. Lots of newcomers at the moment. Probably the new year makes you take stock of things.

Have a lovely day everyone!

October xx

please-let-me-be-lucky

Thank you for the hugs Calling, much appreciated. The 3 losses were hard, particularly the twin pregnancy, but I am lucky enough to have 2 wonderful boys and that's 2 more than some people have Xx

[STRIKE]October[/STRIKE] February, sounds like you have the makings of a plan there! At least if you concentrate on losing weight while you wait for OH to be more open to the idea, then when he is good to go so will you be!

Hope you found a bargain at Mr A's Xx

AleMrsT

Ah October I know how you feel, you've read my diary, and I'm trying not to think about it too much.

liltdiddylilt

October I have warning bells ringing in my head about your OH. I would love another but Him is adamant no more for at least 10 years which is a get out of jail free card because by then I will be way too old to contemplate it! Him's mum has serious bitterness issues with his dad as Him was an only child and she wanted more but he refused and she kept hanging on thinking things would change and then it was too late... Him is a relative child compared to your OH. He was 21 when Jelly came along... he is nearly 5 years younger than me (10 in gaming years!). At some point you need to really think about yourself and what you want...

It is something that bugs me a lot and especially having lost one; like Lucky says... you try to be grateful, and I truly am, but a part of me still wants more..

Thanks for all of the support ladies. October you are truly welcome and the support is unconditional, but you pay it back tenfold!!

Big hugs to all.. xx

October_Starter

Hello Lovelies!!!

OMG.. *jumping around everywhere*

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Today is an awesome day! Here's why...

1. It's Friday and I have the weekend off.

2. My Bestie came into work to see me... EVERYTHING IS OK WITH LITTLE BIT!!! I am soooo happy for her that I kept hugging her and totally forgot to tell her happy birthday!!

3. I spoke to my DM and was telling her my plight of not having anything nice to wear tonight and that I was going to try and make do. I also mentioned about the skirt I had resisted buying no so long ago and how it wasn't in the Mr A sale so I still wasn't going to buy it. She is buying it for me as an Easter pressy!! :j She doesn't buy Ester eggs as she thinks it is a waste of money so she has always got me a gift at Easter to make up for it

4. I am very lucky. I have good friends, an OH who buys me breakfast and cares about me (even if we have our ups and downs!), a support network of people here, caring and supportive family and the list goes on. I am so grateful for days like these.

There has only been two small blips in my happy day. Today we got an email from the guy who made us all redundant. He has now put the date back almost 2 weeks. My friend and colleague has emailed him with her complaint as this is the second time it has been changed and we are constantly feeling uncertain and unable to plan. I agree with her as I don't want to work into March as it means my last pay and likely my holiday and redundancy money will not be paid to me until the end of March. It throws out my budget and adds to the stress.

The blip is that I had a customer complaint over something that really shouldn't be our fault but the company deem it as our responsibility. It was one of my staff so having to deal with that is a bit unpleasant.

Off out tonight though for a nice time with my Bestie for her birthday. So happy. Have a lovely day everyone!

October xx