Better half of 2014 - all about me

lulabelle

Finished at 830 last night and back in for 730, working through lunch and until late. I just don't want this for myself any more - what's the point?! What really grates is there is someone at my work who is paid 8k a year more than me and is in at 9 and leaves at 530. She doesn't run a department, doesn't go into court, doesn't bill as much as me and doesn't have the same level of stress. Doesn't seem fair. Whenever I've raised it with the powers that be I just get a fob off

catriona79

Hi Lula,

Have just read the last part of your adventures - psychology conversion sounds very good indeed. Have you tried doing your MBTI to check your personality fit for the career? It's an amazing line of work, I imagine it must be very fulfilling. What would you like to do? Research? Have you got a special interest? Good luck with it - life is too short to spend a lion share of it in a job you dislike.

Sending you good vibes re bf situation too! X

lulabelle

So. I was an idiot and went out last night. Why I do it I don't know. It's like I'm rebelling or something. Anyway, went out with the person from my work who earns more than me. Of course I was first to the bar as usual and she didn't even say thanks. She was talking about someone else in the office having just spent 15k on a boat and said "I haven't just got 15k to spend like that". My thought was I don't know how not cos you've got incredibly short arms and long pockets and you have no friends to go out with so what the heck do you spend your cash on?!!anyway, annoyed at self as spent 25.60 (we had food too) and didn't sleep well or do any work last night.

Thanks for words of encouragement catriona and I'll take that test. I'm not yet sure but I think I'd like to be either a consultant clinical psychologist or possibly even teach it. All I do know is that I don't want to be a lawyer anymore

lulabelle

So, I had a no spend day. Because of this trial we get lunch each day as there's no time to go out to get anything so work pays for sandwiches to be brought in. I toyed with idea of going to take out when I finally finished work at 830 (having been in since 8am) but stopped self so didn't spend anything

Having dinner with gay best mate tomorrow night, just the two of us and just quiet and early doors, no drinking as both of us are working Saturday. In fact I'll be working all weekend. Going to a housewarming sat night at my close friends new pad. It's just our close group of five so had better take something fizzy and non alcoholic wine for me but at least will be minimum spend. Should also be a minimum spend at supermarket this weekend since lunches all provided next week and just need something quick and easy for the evenings. Do need loo roll though - has anyone else noticed how expensive it is?!

I don't have training in the morning as my trainer away. I should go for a run but am shattered and back at work at 8am so would rather have the sleep

Have decided the masters at 30 hours per week is just not feasible with my job so am looking at other options

Buffythedebtslayer

Sleep is good, sleep will help you make decisions about what you do after you leave this job.


Hugs hon XXX

lulabelle

Thanks bufster. Another long day and was meant to be out to dinner but he let me down. So I've spent 10.50 on a takeaway (which is much less than I'd have spent out and will do 2 meals so ok). Other than that, nothing spent today as lunch provided.

Am on sofa with my darling cat watching a crappy chick movie (when I say that I mean it's quite good - guilty pleasure!) and going to get up in morning and go for run and do supermarket shop/pick up stuff from town early doors and then head to work around 10am for yet another full day

It is really getting me down though as am just exhausted!!!

ellesbellesxxx

*delurking from reading thread in one go*
Hi lulabelle, just reading through and was really excited to hear about your psychology plans - it absolutely sounds like too much to work full time alongside it though yes - however, would your work let you go part time?

lulabelle

Hi ellesbelles. Sadly not. I am going to be looking at doing something else but there are some part time online courses I can do but I need 60 university credits first so think I'm going to apply for that instead as should be much more manageable. Part of problem is I had to wait on an event happening before I could even think about leaving my job. That has now happened so can start looking for another job but course starts in sept and I'm going away in 2 weeks for 2 weeks - so realistically I won't be able to start this course this year (the conversion) but can do the 60 credits

I am also one of those who is a bit cautious about jacking everything in - if I sold my property in London or my one here I could afford not to work for a year and just do the course actually attending but having been in lots of debt when I was at uni and after I left (I was getting really upset last night at the thought of all the money I wasted back then) and now being pretty secure (in relative terms at least) I am rather cautious about doing anything to upset that balance

I think I'm also scared of jacking everything in and starting again as I am scared I'd be very lonely whereas here at least I have lovely friends

Wish I was 5 again and all I had to worry about was whether my friends are speaking to me! Was thinking last night about the first time I snogged a boy (I was 13) on a school trip (I had been in love with him for ages) and he told everyone I bit his lip! (I to this day maintain I did not!!) and that was devastating - the worst thing in the world. Boy, I'd give anything for that to be the worst thing to contend with these days!!!!

So, enough! Today I am off to supermarket. Didn't manage a run as the t*at above me was banging on ceiling last night so I didn't get as much sleep as id hoped despite early bed. Then need to pick up a dress which was being repaired and pop into hairdressers and book appointment for next week. Then will be working again

lulabelle

So, I worked from 1015 to 430 yesterday and then decided I was canning it. What annoys me is big boss man - have given him the info he needs about 10 times but he can't be bothered to apply it. Anyway, have done what I can for him re witness statements (bar one which will do today) and now I have to start pulling info together for closing speeches. Problem is: went to my friends new house last night and drank loads and horribly hungover!!!!

Am currently sat with a coffee to try to get self sorted as do actually have to go in. 6 more days of hell then I can hopefully enjoy the long weekend next weekend.

Yesterday I spent a bit which is annoying. I needed petrol so that was £20 but I use my car about Once a week, twice at most so was a while since I put any in and will be a while before I need to again. I know people will say get rid of car but it's all paid for, where I live we don't have road tax or mot and my insurance is only about 180 a year so it's not a big expense and I do need it for supermarket shopping and to take cat to cattery when I go away and things like that

I then spent just shy of £40 at supermarket but needed loo roll, 2 bottles prosseco and a card to take to friends housewarming and a few bits of food. Then my dress repair was 8.50 and I spent just over 20 in boots. Some stuff I didn't need (like a new gel eyeliner which doesn't appear to want to come off) and a mascara but they had decent eye make up remover at half price so got 4 of those as use it every day

Went to friends housewarming last night, just our close group of 5. Was really nice as they just ordered Chinese. We drank huge amounts though. I'm a little bit envious if I'm honest, it's a beautiful big townhouse and I wish that I could afford something like that but the wife (I'm friends with both of them) works like I'm doing now but all the time and they barely see one another. I guess that's the trade off. If I go to next stage I will be able to afford that sort of house but is it worth it - I don't think so

I finally applied for the 60 credit psychology course so hoping I get on that! It's about 2500 but at least I feel I'm doing something towards my passion. I will also have to buy a decent computer and probably a desk to set up in the spare room but I guess it's not that bad. If I need extra time to study I can take the odd day here and there as I still have 8 days holiday to take this year

Right. Guess I ought to think about getting to work!

lulabelle

Went to work and did about 4 hours. Should really have stayed and carried on but knackered so decided to can it. May mean pulling late ones tomorrow and Tuesday but only 5 more days now until freedom!!!!

I have been naughty and spent just over a tenner on a pork pie and big box of chocs for self and now on sofa under blanket (it's freezing today!) with a nice lamp and candles on with a can of diet cloudy lemonade and watching movies. This is my idea of bliss!