Better half of 2014 - all about me

lulabelle

No wonder I didn't sleep - have a horrid sore throat, headache, sniffles and feeling cold! Stayed in work to get done what I needed to then came home and went to bed for a bit. So no training tonight and have been good apart from just eating one strip of dairy milk crunchie but they do say feed a cold!!!

And not spent today. We get paid thurs and I am going to be super frugal

lulabelle

So, gave training a miss this morning as still feel like been hit by a train but need to go into work. Going to focus this week on resting when I can and getting better then can really get back into fitness once recovered

lulabelle

Managed to work the rest of the week (by that I mean, sit at my desk for the entire day, not sure how much actual work I've managed!)

Feeling pretty rubbish today which is annoying. I had to go out for mates birthday dinner Thursday (couldn't miss it as close friends who has had a tough year and she'd be upset if I didn't go) but should not have drunk. And boy did we drink! Felt awful yesterday. And dinner was a whopping £105 each!!!!!

Given I was supposed to be being MSE this month I am not very proud of myself. I do have a feeling though that we perhaps split her share between us as well and I hadn't bought her a pressie (bit mean but she didn't get me one so I kind of figured I wasn't bothering - card only) so I suppose.....

So it was London boys birthday yesterday but I resisted urge to message him. I'm still a little upset over it as I do like him but I'll get over it

Stayed in last night as was just too tired and hungover to do anything else! Plus all my mates were busy so no choice anyway really!

Am supposed to be out tonight with the girl who's birthday it was thurs for a few drinks with her and some of her friends who I vaguely know. Tempting not to go as feel rotten and cos of the cash but I also think I need to be getting myself "out there" if you know what I mean

Today I need to do a grocery shop and nip into town to check a few things out. Need to try to be more MSE!

Yesterday though there was a bargain I could not resist - the whole series 1-8 of 24 for £24.99 on amazon! I could not pass up that deal as only seen about halfway through series 1 and loved it but hated watching it on my ipad and couldn't get netflix on my not so smart tv/DVD system

lulabelle

So, had a good night. Feel crap today and no idea what I spent as the toilet had no loo roll so had to use my receipts to wipe - ha ha!

I apparently also snogged a bloke on the dance floor of our local club - not cool or classy!!!! But hey ho, first since London boy and one step into getting over him (as I'm still not)

So frugality reigns for this next week. Other than perhaps some more milk there is NO EXCUSE for me spending. I have all the food I need in

Well, other than my training sessions which I start back tomorrow and am so motivated and excited about.

I really want to try and live a bit healthier in December - probably not the easiest!!!

greenval

Lulabelle, I tend to be a lurker rather than a poster. I do sympathise with your frustration over what you want from life as against what you have and that you haven't given up on training and trying to be healthier. The one thing that does come up though is going out, drinking heavily and feeling worse as a result.
Is this something that you may want to look at as it seems to be one thing that isn't helping make you healthy,happy or in control of your life and destiny. Please take this as a genuine comment and not a criticism.

lulabelle

No worries greenval and yes, this is something that's crossed my mind too. I do sometimes wonder if I have a problem with alcohol. Not in an alcoholic sense as don't crave it and mainly I go all week without drinking but from point of view of once I start I find it hard to stop and it has caused problems with both relationships and friendships in the past

lulabelle

So, i have not trained yesterday nor run today but that's because the cold I had last week now seems to be turning more into flu with aching muscles and just generally feeling awful. This is despite eating better, going to bed early and no booze. I've not been sleeping well at all. However, even though I am poorly I am determined to make training tomorrow morning - even if we have to do an easy session. I just think exercise helps with my mood so much so I need to get back into it at whatever level and pace I can

The doctor is being a bit incommunicado now so I'm kind of writing that off. If it ends up we do meet when I'm back at Xmas then so be it but for the moment I am trying to focus on myself. The aim is to try and do my job to the best of my ability (even if that means just getting through the days at the minute as I feel so rotten) and try just to get myself feeling good again. Tomorrow I am going to book a massage for the weekend at a spa I have a voucher for (so no spending).

I've been good on the no spends front and apart from getting money out for training (which I still have to pay for if I miss without 12 hours notice) I've not spent since Saturday. I am, however, going to need to buy some milk tomorrow. Really wasted a c*sta sticky toffee latte at lunchtime but talked self out of it

I'm also snacking less at work and taking my lunch in. Today at lunchtime I went to see a recruitment consultant to see if I can get out of the law (well, at least private practice). He seemed hopeful so he's going to see what he can do. I'm a strong candidate but a bit specialised. But I know if I get my foot through the door somewhere I can adapt and get as far as I want to get so it's just about getting the chance

Made me feel slightly more positive anyway, like I can at least start taking steps to investigate changing what I'm not happy with

Tonight I'm starting "the secret history" by Donna tartt (started already) and am then going to watch master chef (love that programme!) - I love reading and don't do it often enough so am going to start that again too instead of spending all night getting upset over some boy not messaging me - I'm not a flaming teenager anymore so time I started acting my age

Oh and I'm having baked sweet potato and feta cheese for tea - a fantastic combination and very healthy

supersaver1000

Dinner sounds fab Lu. Reading is a great idea. I'm getting so interested with my course work. Not sure why I don't read stuff that expands my mind. I'd love to be able to chat to people about all kinds of stuff.

Surely with law you can change without changing? I work with finance and data and I have worked in commercial organisations but prefer people focussed organisations. Initially because it fitted in with childcare, but then found it incredibly rewarding. I don't think I could go back to an organisation that wasn't involved with helping people - it gives meaning to the day even though I work in the dry finance and data part. I wonder if you could do something similar with your legs legal brain?

Glad to hear you're not getting bothered about the doc going incommunicado. You really sound like you're getting it together.

lulabelle

It's just difficult where I live SS as opportunities are limited. But I'll see what this chap can do for me and take it from there. At least I felt like he understood where I was coming from today!

Yeah, I wish I was a bit more "savvy" about general stuff. Sometimes I feel so thick!!!!

lulabelle

Still feeling bloody rotten! This has been over a week now. I'm wondering if coming down with flu or some sort of viral illness. Waking up in middle of night and not able to get back to sleep and really struggling at work but have to be there as so much to do. Have made appointment to see doctor Friday morning though as this isn't normal. Plus I'm bleeding constantly from where I shouldn't be and given I had an op a couple of months ago that's a little worrying. Phoned the specialists office today to see if should go in but they're not back until Friday anyway so have to wait

Not been a no spend day as needed milk (which I knew anyway) but also bought 12 cans of cloudy lemonade (sugar free obv!) - I like to have something to drink in the evenings other than water and it keeps me off the booze so I figure it's fine. Grand total £4.76 but I've saved today as turned down the cinema. Won't spend tomorrow as will take lunch in (as did today) and will have leftover carbonara I'm making tonight (from stores)