Better half of 2014 - all about me

lulabelle

Thanks SS. So. We had an amazing weekend. He's lots of fun and I really fancy him. I cried when he went (not in front of him obv)

But now I don't know what to do as lots of mixed messages from him this weekend. Within half an hour of my picking him up whilst stood in my kitchen he was saying things like "you come and see me next then I'll come and see you" and a Freudian slip of "I can't believe I'm dating someone, 8 mean going on a date with someone who...". Then at dinner he was saying come over next weekend then goes "this is how I get myself into relationships"

Then he was saying maybe he'd bring his mates for his birthday weekend then getting jealous about my having another boy show me round bristol. But then (though I can't fully remember the context as was a bit drunk) I'm sure he said he wanted to date a few people.

Arghhhhhh

So now I really want to see him this weekend but I didn't want to message him straight away yesterday saying it. It's all so bloody complicated!!!

lulabelle

So am now going over to see him for the weekend!!!!

supersaver1000

Aww, I'm so pleased Lulabelle. Its nice to hear that you are happy.

Don't play games, but, well, keep a bit in reserve. What you can't have you want even more.... :rotfl:

lulabelle

So did a run tonight, ran 30 mins without stopping which, given that I've not run for a couple of weeks so went into week 4 of the programme I'm pretty pleased with. Feel great and hopefully means I'll sleep better tonight and have training in the morning then a night with the girls tomorrow

Am all booked to see London boy! Spending fri night - mon morning with him then will def see him again next fri and poss sat if he can move what he has on

Not sure if it will go anywhere but I like him so am just going to give it my all and if it doesn't work then at least I tried

giblet1979

Lula!

So sorry that you've been feeling sad, but glad that you're giving things with 'London boy' a try. You deserve some happiness, and you never know what might happen!

Also glad that work has calmed down a bit for you. I'm so far behind, having been AWOL myself for the last month, but am slowly catching up.

Really hope your week is going well? x

lulabelle

Thanks giblet. How's things with you? Was it your mum that was poorly? How's she?

Sorry to hear things manic, hope they improve soon x

So, despite having run last night, not drinking and going to bed at 930 I didn't sleep so didn't make training once again. Got a horrid day at work today as in court tomorrow then an annoying client meeting fri am but fri pm off to go see London boy

For some reason (feels like it might be my instinct) I'm having second thoughts and sort of don't want to go. But I've booked it now. Plus will be spending weds - sun (bar fri pm) on own as he has said he needs to be non committal due to work - trying to view it as a few days off and somewhere different since, if just stayed here, I'd prob just train and then sit at home so at least I can experience somewhere new but I'm worried by these nervous feelings. That said, the nervous feelings could be down to my worrying re court tomorrow

supersaver1000

Lulabelle, we all get that feeling sometimes, it's going out of your comfort zone I think. Sometimes you have to face it down. I hope that's what it is, if you feel that you really don't want to go then don't, but if it's a slight wobble then go, you'll be back home before you know it

Have a great time

lulabelle

Thanks SS. I think it might be down to court. And cos I was p1ssed off with him yesterday I'd put some cryptic message on fb which he obv thinks is about him as he asked what that was about and if all was ok with my mate I'd fallen out with so i just said yes

Think the nerves are down to court and I was right to feel unsettled since, as per usual, other side have filed late argument so I've been working most of the night and up early tomorrow to deal and prob won't sleep again. I do get a bit sick of it tbh

He's being kind of sweet today as he knows I'm stressed re tomorrow and I have to stop "fast forwarding" and thinking he owes me anything because were not yet together - though we've spent about 3 whole days together we are still early stages of figuring out if mileage in this and I have to remember that

lulabelle

Ha ha it know I shouldn't play games but he asked me again what I meant! It's obviously on his mind!

lulabelle

Today went awful and am back in tomorrow. Hating every minute of it and just feel am not cut out for it but don't know how to get out of profession without being financially screwed