Just needed to be heard for a little while

lostinrates

I am having a pre going to bed nap, and kiwi has found a way through to get upstairs to me and the cats. So he had a pn extra supper of cat food and is now also having a very wriggly, excitable and proud of himself nap, before his last short walk about the property later.

Even more lazily, I think I am going to try to do the bed time walk early so I can sleep rather than nap early.

Pyxis

haybel19 wrote: »

Little one and Max are well thanks. Both up to their usual mischief!

Haha! What have they been up to?

(PS. If you haven't already done so, do read back 3 or 4 pages and see what WaS has been up to! So exciting!) :j

elsien

Ignoramus question coming up for WaS.
This may sound daft, but if no-one wants/is able to offer you any safe or sensible treatment, what are you still seeing psychiatrists for? I'll rephrase that - I know it's about maintenance and monitoring medications and side effects and tweaking things, but from a therapeutic point of view do you feel you get anything out of seeing them at this point?
(I must admit a bias at this point as my limited experience of psychiatrists is with learning disabilities where with the odd exception it was all about playing the the latest medication with minimal therapeutic value - all boys with their new toys.)

Lir - I do like the idea of a pre-bedtime nap. The downside of an early bed time walk of course is that in our house it means the morning wake up call from down below comes that bit earlier.

Haybel, good to see you back again. Glad the two mischief makers are well.

Waves_and_Smiles

Tbh, Elsien it is for monitoring medication and occasionally tweaking it, and that's all. He does ask me how I have been and we go through the motions of saying that it must be hard for me, etc but he like other professionals is reluctant to suggest anything that could rock the boat. I usually get a rather contradictory pep talk about not raising my expectations and realising that I am ill and therefore there will always be limitations and that's about it. The appointments never last for long because he has nothing to offer that isn't medication related and we don't even want to tweak that too much because I went through 10 years of Hell until we found what works. I have CBT forms to fill in from last time to look at ways we can adjust the medication that I am already on, but neither of us wants to risk anything new because I react so badly to many modern drugs. I don't know if you were reading at the time I posted about the woman on the bus incident but the last attempt made me incontinent in public!

For the most part a GP could do what he does but my GP won't take responsibility either in case it all goes wrong, plus the benefits system seem to be happier if I am seeing a consultant because they prefer proof from him. Unless there are some leaps in modern psychiatry as it is now is as it will always be and that is fine for me really, you wouldn't recognise me in the state I was before we got this balance, even I think I should have been hospitalised back then.

whitewing

As long as you're well enough to get your book finished, WaS....

lostinrates

elsien wrote: »

Lir - I do like the idea of a pre-bedtime nap. The downside of an early bed time walk of course is that in our house it means the morning wake up call from down below comes that bit earlier.

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I don't mind that, what I don't like so much is when they don't call. . Happening more and more with poor old big dog

Waves_and_Smiles

Hahahahaha, yes the book! My teacher friend brings it up every few weeks, he won't let me forget it. I really should write more, he has told me to just type randomly, forgetting grammar or punctuation (he forgets I have OCD) and just send it all to him and he will make it readable. It just seems like such a huge task because so much was packed into my teenage years. I do have my diaries which help a lot, really I just need a few background chapters to set the scene and then they can speak for themselves. Perhaps it needs to go on my goal list...

Waves_and_Smiles

Aw, LIR, we love big dog. Does Kiwi still look like a teddy? I think that's so cute!

haybel19

Pyxis wrote: »

Haha! What have they been up to?

(PS. If you haven't already done so, do read back 3 or 4 pages and see what WaS has been up to! So exciting!) :j

Yes I saw- very pleased and proud. :j

lostinrates

Waves_and_Smiles wrote: »

Aw, LIR, we love big dog. Does Kiwi still look like a teddy? I think that's so cute!

I don't want to talk much about big dog because I don't want you to feel bad later. She is very old.


Kiwi though there was a mouse or rate in a pole of bricks on Sunday so he made us help him move the bricks but he got impatient and went in on the other side, where there were a lot of dead cleavers. The sticky buds velcroed hips ears to the top of his head in symmetrical victory rolls, but there was no victory, no rodent was found.

It took ages to get all the biddybids put of him, they were in his legs , his chin, and thick around his nose, and had matted in, and I ended cutting some out. I thought. I'll do his face at the same time.

Bad idea,


I did it too quickly and now he has a sort of pointy top knot on the top of his head, like a pointy elf hat, or the tip of a flame.

Being groomed is the kiwi's WORST thing so he can stay like that a while. He is still shedding the occasional sticky bud.