Just needed to be heard for a little while

dibuzz

I'm so tired I'm going to have a bath and go to bed but couldn't go until you had posted. Will catch up tomorrow, probably in the early hours.

whitewing

Hello everyone, LIR maybe doubling the dose will sort it out. When I started on anti d's, I slept for about 15 hours a night for the first week. Sounds great but if I wasn't in bed, DH would have a heck of a job to get me to bed. When I was awake I was wading through treacle. Doubled the dose and felt fine.

Enjoy your coffee, WaS.

dibuzz, mind you don't get addicted to the threads. I am half-joking, but I have found in the past that I have posted on threads where the user has been going through a rough time, and I have stayed up until the early hours just in case. There is usually someone kind awake and posting whatever the time of day or night, so make sure that you are as rested as you can be too within your lifestyle. You can ignore my comments, if you don't agree with it or tell me off if it has upset you. I mean it kindly but I know things don't always come across well online.

lostinrates

whitewing wrote: »

Hello everyone, LIR maybe doubling the dose will sort it out. When I started on anti d's, I slept for about 15 hours a night for the first week. Sounds great but if I wasn't in bed, DH would have a heck of a job to get me to bed. When I was awake I was wading through treacle. Doubled the dose and felt fine.

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It may well be the same, but this isn't an anti d. Its for a physical condition, but the depressive impact is considered worth it. Seems many pills seem to list depression as a side risk, but the suicide risk with this one was a bit of a giggle until recently. Of course how I feel and the medication might be totally unrelated too!

Waves_and_Smiles

Oh, dibuzz, how sweet of you to stay awake, you don't have to do that! You are exhausted yourself, I will worry about you if I don't think you are resting. I really hope you manage a few hours sleep tonight, if not no doubt I will be around in the wee hours.

Haybel, I hope the little one is feeling better today?

Duke, I suppose this is an autobiography in a way! The problem with writing is it is oh, so serious and official to finally sit down with a blank document in front of me, it makes me want to run screaming before I even start...

Hello JM! How is the seaside? I shell look forward to hearing about it (I did it again).

Well done LIR! That is more than I manage in a week! Good luck with the new medication, one of mine for a physical problem causes depression so we increased the anti-depressant at the same time as starting it. I am right with you on the interactions too, I take one medication purely to stop side effects of combining the others. Let us know how it goes for you during the next few weeks, I will be thinking of you.

Hello whitewing! Yes, I agree I don't expect anyone to check that I am ok (although it is a lovely feeling when people do), I can usually struggle through the bad bits and bounce back again afterwards.

Something triggered my reflux disease. At this point it could be anything but I spent the whole day with heartburn and vomiting acid and anything else I have tried to keep down. The heartburn was all the way through to my back and shoulders, stabbing pains every few seconds and absolutely horrid. If I hadn't experienced it before I would have thought heart attack. Unfortunately, this meant I couldn't keep down the lunch-time medication dose which was anti-psychotics, a steroid, pain medication and (oh, the irony) an anti-acid. I have quite a lot of arthritic pain now but I don't trust myself to try to take anything for it yet as the coffee didn't stay down either.

I have had almost no sleep again and must confess to feeling a little sorry for myself. If it isn't psychosis something physical messes up, the voices laughed at me all the way through it and chatted about how it was my heart and I would be dead soon which is what I deserved. Thanks, voices. But enough of that! Whining won't achieve anything and the worse seems to be over, really things can only improve from this point (famous last words).

lostinrates

Oh WaS you really haven't been lucky with health at all. I thought I was complicated, but you really don't have it easy.

Have you looked into eating to support your health at all? Things to eat more of, things to avoid?

haybel19

Big hugs or a warm handshake (I like this term).


Do you know what I noticed? Only after you had pointed it out- you normally edit your posts and you have not edited that post! Of course like all your posts it reads beautifully but the fact your had not edited it really made me smile. I wondered if maybe you feel more confident posting? but then I got worried in case your heartburn has flared up and that was the reason instead?


Do hope you ok. Heartburn is horrible I had a nasty reaction to a drug for my rheumatoid arthritis some years ago and got heartburn so bad that I could barely breath - thankfully it was quickly identified as a reaction and so never prescribed since. I found that having a warm shower really soothed me- but ive never asked anyone else if this would hep them so it might just be a quirk of mine! Perhaps if you ever try it you can let me know!


Little one is still a little off colour so I expect I will have a little visitor again. I really don't mind- she is the light of my life bless her. She is such a happy and contented little girl always giggling and smiling and such a joy. I am so incredibly blessed.


I am not sure if mentioned it but during her birth a number of errors were made I then had to have two surgeries where further errors were made and was eventually given drugs which could have killed me- as a result I suffered post traumatic stress disorder and have had treatment. Its taken me a long time to feel 'safe'. As I used to have a lot of panic attacks and flashbacks and with OH working nights I often used to wake in the middle of the night in such a panic but with no one to hold me. I used to sneak downstairs and cuddle my dog Max till I felt better. He loves a good snuggle.


I don't know why but feeling a little anxious today... no trigger other than being very over tired although for me that in itself can be a big trigger.


Ive read and re read my post and wondered about including bits of it... and hope no one minds my ramblings. (or the spelling errors! I type quicker than I think!

dibuzz

So much for my early night, I'm still awake.
Just lying in bed with my kindle having a quick browse, maybe I should find something boring to read.
I'm going to try again in a bit as I have to get my son up at 5.30

Waves_and_Smiles

I do try to eat as healthily as I can LIR, I was born with hypoglycaemia and have suffered with it ever since. It was a huge nuisance when I was younger and was one of the reasons I got bullied so much, I couldn't run around and take part in sports like the other children without being ill due to a blood sugar drop and then they would dislike me even more when I got to eat something sweet whilst they couldn't. Very little was understood about it back then and it was all put under one umbrella called diabetes rather than a malfunction in insulin levels which isn't the condition itself. Because of that I have to be very careful with food, although missing meals does more damage than eating the wrong foods. Certain foods increase the reflux although it developed due my stomach being unable to handle so many different medications for years, particularly steroids, the rheumatoid arthritis drugs and psychiatric medication. There is little that can be done as I have to stay on them so I have anti-acids and proton-pump inhibitors to slow down the production of stomach acid in the first place. The latter incidentally are contra-indicated to a whole heap of drugs including several that I take so have to be taken in an isolated spot inbetween everything else 3 times a day. Unless I otherwise mention it, presume I am always about to take a pill.

Sorry your little one is still feeling poorly haybel, hopefully you are both cuddled up asleep by now. I am also so sorry to hear what you have been through, that must have been horrid! I am not at all surprised it resulted in PTSD. I definitely feel worse when I am tired, it immediately increases the psychosis and anxiety. Anything less than 6 hours sleep a night isn't good so you can imagine the state of me right now with my broken sleep pattern over the last week. The slightest noise and I am practically cowering behind the sofa.

Aw, dibuzz, this no sleeping thing is terrible! I do hope you managed to get at least a couple of hours rest. Do consider going back to your GP, you can't carry on like this.

The heartburn seems to have lessened and I am keeping fluids down. I feel terrible because it has meant that my partner cannot go to stay with his mum tonight but it is too much of a risk as I haven't eaten and the aforementioned hypoglycaemia makes it unsafe for me to be alone. I am managing lots of tea though, with lots of sugar so that should help a bit.

I had a cry this evening because this past week has been horrid and it feels like one thing after another. I am just too scared to look to the future because the thought of another 30 plus years of this is so wearing. I made promises though so I am in it for the long haul, one day at a time. I am really missing the days when I was working and socialising and relatively healthy, I really was so very happy.

I am also back to thinking why did my parents have a child? They were clearly told by their doctors not to do so because both were so ill, there was always a risk of passing something along genetically. Nevermind the fact that my mother had 7 late miscarriages and a still born child before me, she was put on bed-rest immediately with me and I was delivered 8 weeks early as the risk was too high for a longer pregnancy. The most annoying thing is they didn't actually want children at all. My mothers twisted brand of religion (which deserves a whole post of its own, she threw together several different types and made up her own) meant she would not use contraception or be sterilised and my dad just went along with her so he didn't trigger her, so she just kept losing baby after baby. It turned out I got every condition that they had apart from heart disease, I am hoping to miss that one. Oh well, life is what you make it and I am glad I was born. I refuse to let everything get me down for too long but for tonight I am having a quiet sulk..

dibuzz

I see my GP every 4 weeks so will mention it next time.
I know what you mean about the slightest noise, I jump a mile if one of the kids gets a text or there's a sudden unexpected noise especially if I'm daydreaming at the time.

Pyxis

Hi WaS!

Just a quickie to say that I got back from holiday only to hit the busiest week of the whole year! Being pulled left right and centre by people and societies I belong to needing my input! Why is it that everything happens at once?

Anyway, just want to say that I am thinking of you, haven't gone away, and as soon as I can settle down and finish reading the thread I will, and then will post. Have some nice things to tell you about my holiday, but they can't be rushed!

Hope that's ok. It'll probably be a few more days.
Please give Pugliet a hug from me - hope he/she is house-trained! :rotfl: