Just needed to be heard for a little while

System

Waves_and_Smiles wrote: »

What a wonderful idea, MU! Do snuggle up with Disney and your loom bands! I am quite jealous of you being able to use those, I want a loom band bracelet! I think they are so cute and pretty, I am just not sure that the arthritis in my fingers would allow me to make one.

If the numbness is helping right now it isn't a bad thing, as long as you are safe there isn't a bad approach to coping right now. Whatever gives a little peace is fine.

I will quite happily make you a loom band bracelet! I have made several for friends if you tell me what colours you like I will make you one then I can always send it to someone to send to you

Waves_and_Smiles

In other news I refuse to make myself feel guilty (feel guiltier) for the fact that poor Robin William's died and that if I perhaps had met him I could have talked to him and been there for him so he wouldn't have wanted to end his life. This is not my fault! It is so sad and should never have happened and I feel sad for him but I didn't cause it to happen. I think. (Must I do this everytime someone dies?)

Waves_and_Smiles

Awwww, MU! that is so sweet of you! I would love one! Surprise me with the colours, there isn't a colour I don't like! I am excited like a small child now! I have always wanted one but no rush! It is kind enough of you to think of me.

jobbingmusician

Really struggling to log on at all, let alone keep up, but commiserations to MU and love to all xxx

Edit - WaS - you had NOTHING to do with RW's death!
And if you don't want to give your address out again, I am happy to give out my address and will forward it (altho not till I get home, obv )

System

Waves_and_Smiles wrote: »

In other news I refuse to make myself feel guilty (feel guiltier) for the fact that poor Robin William's died and that if I perhaps had met him I could have talked to him and been there for him so he wouldn't have wanted to end his life. This is not my fault! It is so sad and should never have happened and I feel sad for him but I didn't cause it to happen. I think. (Must I do this everytime someone dies?)

You're right, it's not your fault and you shouldn't feel bad about it. His death hit me quite hard too, I felt overwhelmingly sad that he felt it was his only option and I wished I or anyone could have taken away that pain, don't feel bad for how you feel, being aware of and sympathetic to others suffering is not a bad thing, just don't let it get you too upset.

System

jobbingmusician wrote: »

Really struggling to log on at all, let alone keep up, but commiserations to MU and love to all xxx

Edit - WaS - you had NOTHING to do with RW's death!
And if you don't want to give your address out again, I am happy to give out my address and will forward it (altho not till I get home, obv )

Bless you for thinking of me and us when you're struggling

I hope it passes soon, here if you need us

Edit: thanks for the offer of forwarding it for me, shall get on making it now!

DUKE

This is the problem that Harry has WaS, being a man & staring at both men & women, people think he's very odd. In reality you could never meet a more kinder, loving person, he loves kids & animals too. But I'm never sure whether people have actually said things to him or it's the voices.

It's very sad about Robin Williams Was, but it wasn't your fault. I'll always remember him as Mork from Ork nanu nanu.

That's a lovely thing to do for WaS MU

Hi JM, hope the weather's dry where ever you are.

Waves_and_Smiles

Hello JM, we miss you!

I do understand, Duke. As WaSp says it is lucky that I am female because sometimes I just freeze in panic the street and stare someone's face as they walk towards me. I absolutely hate it but when I am anxious I don't really think logically. Mine is a combination of the voices and the fact people have laughed and giggled about me. I understand why, I look odd with my panicked staring and when confronted with the unknown many people react with nervous giggles to deal with their own awkwardness. But I find it then cycles and makes me even more nervous next time so I react even more strangely.

Waves_and_Smiles

The problems with me and death is sadness is all wrapped up with guilt. As everyone knows I was told that I killed my mother and father so my grief was all caught up with feelings of self-blame and self-hatred. So now when I feel grief I automatically feel guilt too, it is very hard for me to separate the emotions. This is isn't even a mental illness, it is conditioning from being told for years that I hurt and murder things. If you tell someone something enough they will believe it and even when they can rationalise it a tiny doubt remains.

It doesn't help that I really liked Robin Williams, too so I am extra sad. The fact he took his own life really hurts me because I know how it feels to be that hopeless, I just wish something could have helped him.

DUKE

I just got this from Twitter WaS - His wife Susan Schneider asked that he be remembered for the joy he brought to the world.
He did bring us such joy!

It's thrashing it down here, magnificent!