fishface's diary

hypno06

Fingers crossed that Macey stays home now!

And as for the 7 year journey, well, you can keep me company - I will be here for the duration!!

In_Search_Of_Me

aww thanks hypno...yes guess we'll just have to stick it out eh! Shame you dont live closer as I'm going to sell my sewing machine & its only been used twice! I got it for scrapbooking and then never used it! Going to try & go to bed - trying to go at 10 instead of so late to catch up on last weeks sleep. Babysitting just rag & have postponed til thurs as the boys are poorly...

taxi73

glad macey is home and you managed to sort a remortgage out...what a relief..probably best as house prices are dropping a bit at the moment...get a good nights sleep

In_Search_Of_Me

I feel a bit drained...mort application completed so thats something. Macey is nibbling at food but I had a bit of a cry earlier when I didnt think she was eating. Bestest mate lovely and talked me through it and I was chuffed to be able to tell her a hour later that she has eaten a bit of whiskers! Have locked the others out so I know what she is eating & will have her on my own in my room (with food!) tonight...
I havent heard from my mum re my latest plan which is upsetting (I know it's hard when you're on the other side of the world & having fun..but still, there are times you NEED to hear from your old mum!) and also had an email from my bro who is also having a tough time so my heart going out to him. Feeling a bit exhausted with it all but am on call and have a quiet weekend planned this weekend so should be able to catch up (DFW style) a bit. Babysitting tomorrow night...Money wise was going to be a non spender but ended up giving £2 to a good cause! Made me wonder whether I should start a "pay the vet bill please" fund & swap it for jam - in the hope there is no cat hair in it!! OK, maybe not! Hope you're all ok debtbusters...

In_Search_Of_Me

Macey is not eating. Not good news...

hypno06

Oh hun, sorry to read that Macey is not eating again. Not sure what to suggest but sending over some "huggy" vibes to you both xx

Karmacat

Hi fishy
sorry macey isn't eating again. I guess all you can do is be with her and love her, and you're doing that. When I had to leave one of mine at the vet's, the expressions in their eyes when they saw me again was amazing. They *do* know that you're there and that you love them, and you're giving her that. Lots of good vibes, to you and to macey.

In_Search_Of_Me

Well the decision was made and it was the tougtest ever. Macey was ut to sleep at about 9.30 this morning. I just knew it was the right thing to do. Not just from the money point of view (bill was already £500) but also from hers. She was a sorry state and clearly feeling unwell and very weak plus going to & fro from the vet & being kept in was very stressful for her. I knew it could take weeks of intensive tube feeding to get her back on her feet and we hadnt even looked at the heart murmur whih wouldnt be covered by the insurance either so really the decsion was inevitable. The vet was lovely and she went quickly and without distress; unlike me wh was incoherant! Went out the back way as couldnt face walking through the surgery...all those people watching.
I've taken the day off work and been having a good cry while sorting out the mortgage application and tidying the flat (of course with Macey hair all over the place). She is being cremated & I'll get her ashes which I'll plant in a large pot to go to the allotment so she can be with me when I move. A friend of mine is giving me some money so that I can pay the largest & most expensive CC off. There are very few people I would accept this off but knowing the can afford it makes a difference and their kindness means so much to me generally, as they said - I would do the same for them (if I ever had the money!) which I would! I've had an email from my mum teling me what a fab time she is having and how I should just turn the heating down! Have emailed her back saying great that she is having a great time but a bit of symathy wouldnt go amis! Sometimes she is SO oblivious...I love her to bits but at times like this is really is a bit much!
Anyway, off to "do"; go to post office, hoover and have a bath

Karmacat

Oh, I'm so sorry to hear about Macey - we all need a bit of sympathy sometimes even over ordinary ups and downs, and on a day like today, which is uniquely awful, you need all the support you can get.

I'm glad the vet was supportive, especially letting you go out the back way. They didn't have a back way at my vet's, but both times I had to do what you've done today, the vet walked me to the door so that the receptionist wouldn't ask me any awkward questions. Its things like that that you remember.

I hope you're a bit on an even keel now - I found that I needed to cry for weeks on and off, but once I'd cried, I was okay. I found myself tearing up last week actually, when you were writing about Macey - and for me, its been two and three years.

I'm glad you've got today off - be kind to yourself the rest of today.

Karmacat
xx

Bagpuss741

I'm so sorry to hear about Macey, you can feel proud that you did everything you could for her and that she is now out of any pain/distress she was in. Good luck with the debt busting!!