Depression Support Thread

slowlyfading

dawnylou wrote: »

((HUGS)) are being sent your way, what's up? I'm here if you need to rant or whatever.
sf x x

feelinggood_2

slowlyfading wrote: »

For me, and this may not be true for feelinggood, but when i cut, something has happened, but most of the time nothing major. For example, last week when I did it, it was because I'd eaten two biscuits. I mean, how pathetic is that? Most of the time, its because i'm angry or disappointed in myself. Dont know how to stop that I think its different for every person.
sf x x

I think for me its to do with anger and punishment. I do get very angry at other people, but I'm not able to express that anger, so I turn it round on myself. Instead of shouting at someone who has upset me, I'll take it out on myself. I also use it as a way to punish myself for being 'bad'. I just feel like I deserve to be punished for feeling the way I do, or just for being 'me'.

slowlyfading

consnmattsmom wrote: »

SF hope that you are ok and on the up now. Sorry to hear you were down at the end of last week but hope you have had a good weekend with friends. XX

Thanks consnmattsmom I am having a good day today - I try and take each day as it comes because I'll have no idea what kind of mood I'll wake up in tomorrow, if you get me? I did have a good weekend - both at the cinema and at the library got loads of work to do now though and here i am sat on here :rolleyes: but never mind.
Hope you are having a nice day.
sf x x

ilovegreatdanes

hi all,
im like hello and goodbye just lately.its when dh is off.dont get much time.
tiff.....thanks for your post.x
have just read 8!!!!pages so hope some sticks.
hugs to ethel,fg, dawnylou and everyone who needs them.x
feel abit out of it with you all but will catch up in the next few days, i hope.
hi to katie, miro, gillette, bmf, sf,sazzy and all the new ones.am sorry if ive missed some.its the memory that goes when you are getting on, you know...............
now what was i saying??????
anyway, im thinking of you and ill be back.take care all.
love ilgd xx

slowlyfading

:hello: ilgd! I hope you're having a good day, and its nice to see you take care x x

Horasio

I would like to share something that has cheered me up

Cinnamon - it was all around me in the States and it is really elevating.

I have also had a smoothie with banana and blueberries which has helped me feel better.

I swear food is like a drug - some makes me feel good, some depresses me.

feelinggood_2

I know what you mean about food being a drug CCstar.

I've been on my 'diet' for about 17 weeks, and although I am still miserable, I am feeling a bit more stable and less guilty. Its hard to break any sort of habit isn't it? I went to a friends house, and they all gorged on Chinese and finished off with a huge chocolate cake. It was very hard, but I stuck with my chicken chow mein and fruit salad.

slowlyfading

CCStar wrote: »

I swear food is like a drug - some makes me feel good, some depresses me.

I totally agree with this statement.

Horasio

feelinggood wrote: »

I think for me its to do with anger and punishment. I do get very angry at other people, but I'm not able to express that anger, so I turn it round on myself. Instead of shouting at someone who has upset me, I'll take it out on myself. I also use it as a way to punish myself for being 'bad'. I just feel like I deserve to be punished for feeling the way I do, or just for being 'me'.

I am sorry you feel this way about yourself but it is great that you have identified that trait. What you now need to do is find a way of channelling the anger towards the others who do offend you. I have the opposite problem - I do calmly state my feelings but it's taken years of assertiveness training and counselling to get this way. I was a meek and mild character who was bullied at school, then turned into a mega aggressive person when I left school. These days I mostly get it balanced. I have learned some good put downs over the years.

Strangely enough my holiday bought a lot of anger issues to the surface, issues about my OH and other people that offend me, and why.

The main ones were feeling badly treated and feeling humiliated by people which is a throwback to my childhood and how I was treated. I felt very alone and no one was around to defend me so felt vulnerable.

Infidel

Does anyone suffer from SAD here (or at least something similar)?