Depression Support Thread

Horasio

slowlyfading wrote: »

feelinggood, I'm sorry to hear that you cut on friday. is it a lot? Make sure you've cleaned them all properly. Did something happen on friday that make you tip over the edge?
Sending you huge ((HUGS))
sf x x

Yes I wondered about that - is there a common theme that triggers it?

consnmattsmom

FG your welcome.

Have they not given you even an indication as to when your appointment will be? It seems that I am in a good area where they have said mine will be through in about 10-14 weeks and they have given me the phone number so that I can call if I need to so that I can see where I am on the list. Is that something that you are able to get if you ask the doctor?

Even though you feel so alone it is a small consolation to know that you/we arent really alone as there are so many people in our situation otherwise there would not be a waiting list. HTH.

Remember that there are always people around here for a chat if you need to. Big hugs ((((hugs))))

dawnylou

slowlyfading wrote: »

dawnylou, I'm so sorry that you're feeling so down and miserable today.When you dont get enough sleep, everything in the day seems so much harder. Have you got any time today just to try and have a nap? Even half an hour's kip might do you the world of good.
Sending you ((HUGS)) and I hope you're feeling slightly better soon.
sf x x

Thanks. I am determined to not nap through the day in case it makes it even harder to sleep through the night.
Besides I have to get out of the routine of napping because I have to go back to work as soon as I can and I can't exactly nap there when I get tired!

I hope everyone else here gets through their day x

Miroslav

CCStar wrote: »

Hey guys

Been away to New England USA and still on their time 9pm there just now.

Had great time, but rats I can't stand it here nor my husband. Had a right row with him and blame him for all the things that bother me. I want to scream at every chore and it's so bloody boring here. I should be thankful it's not the other place where I was bullied by the neighbours.

Some issues did crop up on the holiday, I CAN'T STAND BAD SERVICE!!! and I go into a major rage with the culprits. I feel humiliated by them and my OH for not sorting them out and when I do he undermines me. Some other issues with my OH cropped up too, at the moment I want to leave this place and him. It's not a winter house and the lease is up for renewal, can do shorter ones now but can't think where to go. I don't want to be near my mother, I feel humiliated by her too.

Most people were lovely btw but there are so many extremes, either they are brilliant or absolutely dreadful:eek:

I presume it is post holiday blues and jetlag but I'm so blooming miserable just now.

Hope despite the bad bits, the rest of it was okay!

Hopefully it is post holiday blues and reality is better than the thought of coming back to it!

I have no experience of Americans, apart from the ones I meet over here and it's been a mixed experience, although I guess it's the same anywhere.

Where is New England? Southern Americans are meant to be more friendly on the whole.

Miroslav

[quote=CCStar_I am sure the doctor has dealt with your problem before and it might help to talk about how it happened.


I seem to have about 73 doctors all of which put most things down to my depression. I remember going in once and after I had explained my stomach problem the GP replied "You suffer from depression, yes?"


I know what you mean about dentists - I just dumped ours after letting us down in an emergency. Have you thought of joining a plan and paying in instalments? They charge enough, so look until you find one you like.

I'd love to be able to pay, problem is I get £80 a week and barely survive as it is Once I get a job, getting a payment plan is one of the 1st things i'dd do

With anything large, you need to break it down into manageable lumps, no matter how small, it is in the right direction. Have you thought of relocating to a different place, there might be better jobs and nicer people.


I always say to people 'small steps', but as we all know we get impatient and want it sorted straight away Re-location is not really an option at the moment

Nice to see you posting again :T

Miroslav

CCStar wrote: »

Work is blooming exhausting even without depression. I have a terrible problem with boredom after a short time. I get really manic then wear out and need to sleep more and the job gets too much which then makes me sensitive and intolerant towards others.

I also despise injustice such as bullying and have to do something.

I have concentration loss and like yourself extreme boredom. I also then get intolerant, mostly with colleagues and when I see bullying etc, I wade in and get myself in trouble

Miroslav

CCStar wrote: »

Is this the face area you are talking about?:eek:

Yes!!!! :rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl:

Miroslav

CCStar wrote: »

I have times of day that I feel fatigued, it is worse after dark and too early to goto bed. It is part of the day cycle.

Have you taken time to fantasise about anything that makes you happy even if you can't do it?

Oh yes, i've definitely done that :rotfl: :rotfl: Maybe one day :rotfl: :rotfl:

However, I do always think of what I would like, but sadly coming back to reality isn't nice

Miroslav

impy78 wrote: »

Oh !!!!.

I just read Miro's post.

I'm so sorry, My post is trivial and petty and I feel ashamed and self absorbed for posting it.

I give you all my love.

No-one's post is trivial. There are many things you don't know about my life (unless you've read the previous threads) and i'm sure many things I don't know about yours.

Regardless of that, we all have important issues which affect us all similarly and have equal value to life and this thread.

Keep on posting. I sometimes feel like I am posting rubbish and feel like I am being self absorbed, and delete my posts or part of them, when it's probably not the case and the depression takes over.

Miroslav

dawnylou wrote: »

Well despite getting really excited about everything I aimed to do today....

I am just a complete and utter failure for a human being.

I woke up around 4am and tosed and turned ages, and then got up at half six. So worn out that all I could do was cry. If only I could have a couple of decent nights sleep I am sure I would feel a little better. I did think I was starting to se an improvement on my new 'happypill' even my sister-in-law (to be) had commented on how they seemed to be working as although I wasn't happy, my mood had lifted enough for me to be like a normal person almost.

I am dressed, but not properly and I haven't been able to wash or brush my teeth. I did put all the rubbish off the kitchen benches into a bag and I washed half the dishes so I really have tried.
But I feel so exhausted that I am now already sitting on my big fat !!!! crying to myself like a stupid !!!!!!! baby.
I hate myself so much. I hate that I feel this way. I hate that all the people I love and care about the most have to suffer all because of me!!
I can't take it anymore!

If it makes you feel any better, I got up at Midday and am partially dressed (sorry ladies :rotfl: ) and have done nothing else but put on the TV to tape a Britney program on MTV! I really don't feel like doing anything at all.

It's good we made plans and set goals, even if we don't reach them today, there will be tomorrow. The goals were not something we had to achieve or else, but something to try and do.

You have done some things, which is great and we can't legislate for tiredness and lack of sleep.