Depression Support Thread

ilovegreatdanes

:bdaycake:....happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to you
happy bithday, dear KATIE :A
happy birthday to you

love ilgd xx

Hyder_2

Hi all, i'm relatively new here, I was diagnosed with clinical depression around the turn of the Millenium, after a physical and mental breakdown due to health and work related stresses. The following twelve months were very memorable, 1 due to my near death experiences when a lung collapse led to serious complications. 2 finally getting diagnosed regarding my health problems. A progressive Rheumatic condition. Quite a few years have passed, in what seems to be such a short time... I've tried to face my problems in a positive way and take each day as it comes, thankful each morning for waking up, but then realising with a crash what lies ahead can be testing on ones patience and resolve.

I won't go on now due to the rules of the thread. I will just say Thanks for allowing a thread where we can meet people in similar situations. There is more involved but thats for another place, not here. If I can help on here then great but being quite a shy poster I think you all will be giving the advice to me, even if you don't know it!

I don't really know what else to say..

Thanks

Hyder

feelinggood_2

Hi Hyder, nice to meet you! I think this is great thread, sometimes it helps just to know there is someone there to listen if you need it.

I hope you'll post here occasionally - the more the merrier!

I too take one day at a time - I don't think I could manage if I looked at the whole journey. I find it is easier to just focus on today - tomorrow will take care of itself.

I hope that since getting diagnosises, you've been able to get proper treatment to make things easier for you.

Thanks for your post

feelinggood_2

Just wanted to say Happy Birthday Katie, hope you enjoy your cake

ilovegreatdanes

hi all,
having a bit of a bad one today.suppose i knew it was coming as ive been quite "up" lately.
cant put my finger on why.
just feel so unsatisfied with my life.i hate it when you are trying to describe how you feel and its all cliques(cant even spell the bl**dy word) but hope you know what i mean.
like im stuck in a life thats not my own, and im constantly waiting to go back to where i should be.am so bored but have loads of stuff i could be doing ,if i could be bothered to get off my fat beam and do them.spend wasted hours after i have made really good intentions, then its too late to get stuff done, and i look at the time and wonder where its gone, then feel guilty cos its all my own doing, or not doing, iykwim.
friend(term used loosely!!)has just gone to ibiza for a week and prob some of the cr*p mood is jealousy.just lately, other peoples misfortune(especially if i know them and dont like them)makes me feel better....what kind of nasty piece of work does that make me ???
am talking to myself alot lately and feel pulled apart by good and bad voices in my head.i try to reason with myself and fight it out, think ive conquered it then go off in a different slant altogether.think im losing it.wonder if im just an awful person, put here to learn all the awful stuff, and i had the wonderful life previously in my past life.now im left here with all the horrid bits to sort out.
its frightening me the more i dwell on it and the deeper i delve, iykwim.does everyone feel like this sometimes....or am i hurtling towards losing it completely????
sorry if any comments offend,hope you bear with me til im together again.
think ill get off now.
god bless. xx

feelinggood_2

ILGD, just wanted to post a message saying that you don't have to go if you don't want to - you are very welcome here and I for one don't think you are a horrid person at all xxx

ilovegreatdanes

do you know...i stood in the kitchen last nite and silently screamed.thought it might have made me feel better...but it didnt....

ilovegreatdanes

fg....thank you, you made me cry xx

ilovegreatdanes

i really hate me today....im just so down and feel like nothing.worthless...

ilovegreatdanes

i feel awful when someones nice cos i dont deserve it