Depression Support Thread

rose07

poppyjay wrote: »

morning everyone hope everyone well
had a bad night spent most of it crying.my uncle die on sat of a heart attack they took my dad into hostipal as it is a herdity condition only foundout because of postmortam on monday .
the thinng isno one rang to tell me only found out last night from speck to my sister.
going to sleep and cry today i do feel ok if that make sence

Hi PJ

firstly hun , soo sorry to hear about your loss

Its awful when we loose those we love, or watch someone we love slip away. I know when i lost my nana, it was like my world crumbled, she was dying, there was nothing i or anyone else could do, and even tho i went and seen her every day, i seen her get smaller, and weaker, to the point you could see the pain in her eyes. She was my best friend and my guardian

Let yourself grieve hun, and remember your uncle for his good points.

I hope you are ok, and keep talking

xxx

rose07

Maybe we could make it all right

We could make it better sometime

Maybe we could make better baby

We can keep trying

and hope for a better change

So I don't look back

Still I'm dying with every step I take

But I don't look back

Just a little, little bit better

Good enough to waste some time

Tell me would it make you happy baby

We could keep trying

and hope for a better change

So I don't look back

Still I'm dying with every step I take

But I don't look back

We can keep trying

and hope things will change

So I don't look back

Still I'm dying with every step I take

But I don't look back

And it hurts with every heartbeat

And it hurts with every heartbeat

And it hurts with every heartbeat

It hurts with every heartbeat

rose07

Hello everyone

Hope your as well as you can be

Just a quick note to say you are all in my thoughts and to hope your angels are watching over you. i do care bout alot of people here and dont want you thinking ive forgotten bout ya because im busy, but to know it because alot of awful *r@p is going on atm. a good friend of mine died recently in awful circumstances, there is alot else going on in rosie world as well atm, that im finding hard, but getting there. I know i am strong, and that i will get thru these things as i always do, but it doesnt mean it dont hurt. (so any spare hugs send em my way )

So if im not around you will know why, i have no words, and feel well... there are just no words atm.

take care everyone

xxxx

rose07

BigMummaF wrote: »

What's the difference between a geek & a nerd? No....seriously.....what is it that makes you one or tuther!
Hope you all have as good-as-is-possible day---can't stop now, cuz No2[yeah..him again lol!] has an appointment re: his back at 11.
Hello to everyone--the regulars will tell you I'm useless with remembering names, but I don't want to miss anyone!
Catchas L8R. Peaceful Minds folks. BMFx

Hi BMF

How r u?

Geek...Nerd...i dont think there is a difference..mind you i have never been one to stereotype, (dont mean to say you are before i put me foot in it). Just see people as they are. . My day been full of problems and queries and hecticness, plus we had the auditor in so i got the fsat intro into bomb alerts etc... from the team :rolleyes:. I really cant be doing with work atm tho, me minds just not in it , and i dont feel appreciated,
how the appointment go? and how are ya offspring doing?

k, im off have a rest

love and huggles

na nite xxx

*zippy*

ILGD & SF :grouphug:

Thinking of you both.

Hyder

juno

I'm kinda proud of myself. My sister offered to buy me a drink at the pub, and I refused

But other than that, I'm not having a great time atm. It's just hit me how hard living on your own actually is.

Tiff_2

petrichor!
Welcome to the clan hun. Sorry I haven't got to you before now. I'm trying to go back and find the ones I missed. I hope that you're still reading the thread angel and that the guardian angels on here have looked after you.:T :A

quote=petrichor;
Hi I've read this thread on and off for months having suffered with depression and all it's attendant companions for about 20 years. Not all of that time has been bad, indeed some times I felt that I'd cracked it completely and thought that it wouldn't return, but for the last 12-18 months I've slowly been declining back into the mire and these last few weeks have seen it return big time! So much so that I've been to my GP (I waited until my medication review before I saw him, silly I know, but by putting it off I was hoping that it would go away) and will be seeing the P tomorrow, but it's a new one that I've never seen before and I'm so scared.
Your post is very objective hun and you seem to have a good insight into your issues.
Even though you posted in distress pet, you were able to put a positive in just the second sentence.:T 'People' think that if you have a mental ill health problem, that every day is doom and gloom but as we've proved on this thread, nothing ever stays the same and there are ups, as well as downs.
You're right hun, you should have seen the dr many months ago, but I can also understand the hope that a lot of us feel, that it'll just go away on its own.
This is even truer I think, if you've had mental ill health for many years, because we think we know our gremlin called depression so well and have become so used to the ups and downs of mental ill health. It's a familiar hamster wheel for us and we don't deal with it because we've been on that ride so many times, we know it all too well and feel it's just more of the same.
The truth is, whether you've had mental ill health for 2 weeks or 20 years, you should go straight back to the dr and the team that help you when things start to decline.;)

It's always scary when you see a new professional angel. You worry about having to go through the whole story from the start, whether they will be as good as your last one, will they understand and it's yet another change we don't want.
As with any other field, people move for different reasons and it's hard for people with mental ill health because you've built a special bond with your dr.

The thought I offer here hun is that sometimes a fresh pair of eyes and a new perspective can also be positive and I hope this was the case for you. Remember that these peeps are specialists in this field and should do all they can to put your mind at ease.;) If it helps angel, take someone you trust with you and have them wait in reception area for you. That way you'll have a familiar face to come out to.

I find it so difficult at the moment to interact with people I don't know; at least with the one I knew for all the years I could say it's not just like before it's different this time in that there seem to be other elements as well now. It means that I'd have to explain it all again and I don't want to, but I know I need help.
A good dr will ask your opinion on how you're feeling hun & won't dismiss what you say. The easy option is to take this post or write another one explaining your problems and hand it over to the dr. That way you don't have to worry about forgetting everything. Try and look at this as the start of a relationship. The dr will expect people to be nervous angel and hopefully will make you feel at ease. And they will have read your file hun, so it's not like they're not going to know you or your history.;)

I'm finding it increasingly hard to get anything done during the day (I took ill-health retirement some years ago), I have absolutely no appetite and life is getting so difficult. I know I have nothing like the problems that some of you have as I have a very caring husband and daughter who help me, but I feel so guilty about them and that I'm letting them down. My daughter said that she'd never seen me as bad as this before (she's an adult now)and I feel so sad that she's had to, I really never thought I'd ever get this bad again and I thought I'd been putting on such a happy face.
You recognize you need help hun, so that makes it quite simple. Your issues are as important as anyone's here and I think that you must have done an amazing job to have been fighting for 20 years!:T Whether you know it or not pet, you're a survivor and your strength will come back to you.

We all feel guilty pet, and that we let down the people in our lives. But that's not the reality. They'd feel bad if they knew we felt like this - they wouldn't want us to.
If you shove your mental ill health aside hun, you're still a woman, a wife, a mother and a person with things to offer.

In reality angel, you've probably raised a girl who understands mental health issues and who has greater compassion and coping skills because of your experience - and these skills will help her in her own life. I think that's great!:T If they didn't love you or want to be around you pet, they'd have scarpered long ago.;)

Happy faces don't work and should be banned imho. You wouldn't just leave an infected cut under a plaster - you'd get it treated. Generally speaking, it hides the problem and delays your recovery when you put the mask on hun.

Sometimes I feel great and have a good laugh (sometimes perhaps a bit OT) but these are fleeting and just seem to make the rest of the time appear even bleaker because I can see how dark these phases are getting in comparison.
The hard times are more easy to remember hun. Imho, it's like a form of self-protection - we all remember the first time we got burned by an iron for example. And it's the nature of mental ill health to put events into the shadows. You'll always hear people complaining more than you will hear them praising pet.;)

I've tried posting here a couple of time lately but have deleted it at the last minute. I know you can't help, that it's down to me but I just have to put it somewhere and hope it helps me for tomorrow. I'm dreading walking through the door.
I wish all of you the best because I know what it's like to have to fight this on a daily basis.
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I'm glad you posted hun and that you didn't delete it.;) As you say, just having somewhere to share it all, is a great help. Thanks for your best wishes angel - many of us know what it's like in that daily struggle and can understand how you feel. I haven't read on so I don't know if you posted after seeing the p. but please feel free to let us know how it went. Be kind to yourself angel - I hope all is improving for you.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

dawnylou

Hi all.
Hope everyone is doing ok.

Am waiting for it to turn half 8 so I can call the doctors and try to get an appointment if I don't chicken out by then!
I am so scared.

*zippy*

Morning :hello:

Dawnylou hope you manages to get a quick appointment.

Juno :grouphug: Hope you feel a bit better today.

Think i'm going to have a busy day today, but then I have the weekend off :T I signed up to night school last night and i'm really hoping it will be a good way to make some new friends.

love to all
zippy x

dawnylou

Got an appointment at 3pm. Thats ages away Wish I could have had one earlier and got it over with. And it's not at my local docs but if I wanted to see a female doctor at my surgery I would hav had to wait til next week.