Depression Support Thread

feelinggood_2

ilovegreatdanes wrote: »

dh never takes me seriously,thinks its all a joke.prob thinks im a joke...good old wife..cant have a likfe of her own..alright in the house..have to be there for ds and the dog...my lifes not my own..markin time...god, im wallowing in the self pity now!!!no money to do anything or get out,or would it be worse if i went.im in such a dark place atm
fg ..appreciate you xx bear wiyh me

My partner hasn't quite accepted that I'm ill - he is struggling to come to terms with it. I think he is in denial - easier to assume that I'm just over reacting than accepting that I do have a serious illness. Could it be the same for your OH? When someone hasn't suffered from something like depression, its so hard to understand. I always used to say "Oh, i've got a migrane". Once I had a real migrane, I finally understood why people were so incapcitated by them - much more than just a headache!

Do you have someone you can call to sit with you or talk to you to make sure you are safe?

poppyjay

ilgd your family loves you and care for you you will come out of this .its easy for me to say but you will .
is there anyone that you could ring to come and see you you really sound like you need some help

feelinggood_2

ilovegreatdanes wrote: »

forgive me.....im goin now.will post when i can
gosd bless xx

I'm going to have to go and have some lunch soon, but I'll try to get back on later. Let us know if you need anything, we are happy to help.

I'll be thinking of you xxx

Tiff_2

Hi ilgd hun!:hello:
Sorry you're so low angel.
I'm glad fg is here for you.:T See how people care for you hun?;)

quote=ilovegreatdanes;
hi all,
having a bit of a bad one today.suppose i knew it was coming as ive been quite "up" lately.
cant put my finger on why.
just feel so unsatisfied with my life.i hate it when you are trying to describe how you feel and its all cliques(cant even spell the bl**dy word) but hope you know what i mean.
like im stuck in a life thats not my own, and im constantly waiting to go back to where i should be.am so bored but have loads of stuff i could be doing ,if i could be bothered to get off my fat beam and do them.spend wasted hours after i have made really good intentions, then its too late to get stuff done, and i look at the time and wonder where its gone, then feel guilty cos its all my own doing, or not doing, iykwim.
Absolutely hun. Your body is telling you imho, that it needs to rest stress-wise. There's no guilt required angel. What needs doing will be there another day, ok hun? Because of how mental ill health works, guilt will only make you feel worse as you know. So hun, I declare you exempt from it. :A

Have you felt like this before ilgd? I think a visit to the dr is a good move to make hun.

friend(term used loosely!!)has just gone to ibiza for a week and prob some of the cr*p mood is jealousy.just lately, other peoples misfortune(especially if i know them and dont like them)makes me feel better....what kind of nasty piece of work does that make me ???
STOP!
No more of that angel - you are not a nasty piece of work!
I can't think of anyone here who would agree with you hun. I know we're all only connected by wires hunnie, but if you were that awful, it would have shone through in your posts. You're only ever kind and helpful hun & right now, that's exactly what you need to be to yourself!

I can hear your low mood and even some fear, and I can also hear anger. Anger and fear are quite similar in some ways hunnie. You're sounding very low angel and this is all part of the illness - be kind to yourself sweetheart and don't talk to yourself like that.

am talking to myself alot lately and feel pulled apart by good and bad voices in my head.i try to reason with myself and fight it out, think ive conquered it then go off in a different slant altogether.think im losing it.wonder if im just an awful person, put here to learn all the awful stuff, and i had the wonderful life previously in my past life.now im left here with all the horrid bits to sort out.
Ilgd, you are more than the sum of your experiences angel. Sometimes the worst thing we can do is try to reason and think and look for answers. We turn ourselves inside out doing this - and from personal experience hun, I can tell you that you won't find any answers like this.

You can't be held responsible for other people's actions ilgd. And even if our own actions produce the wrong effect, we're allowed to forgive ourselves. We're only human hun. And I'm sure that you're being way too hard on yourself. If living The Tiff Chronicles has taught me anything angel, it's that the past has to stay where it belongs. Don't lose the present drift away by fighting the past all the time.

You must be feeling awful and not knowing what to do next sweetie. I'm glad this thread has given you a place to vent hun, but you really should go and see your dr as soon as you can. This will help you put any fears to rest and it will also get you any extra help and support that you might need. You've been struggling along with your burdens angel, and you don't have to do that any more - don't delay your recovery hun.

its frightening me the more i dwell on it and the deeper i delve, iykwim.does everyone feel like this sometimes....or am i hurtling towards losing it completely????
sorry if any comments offend,hope you bear with me til im together again.
think ill get off now.
god bless. xx/quote

Of course it's frightening you hun! We all have different ways of suffering angel, like yourself and in other ways. The result is the same. The only danger of you losing it sweetheart is if you let this go on and on and on. You deserve some relief from this angst hun.
So, for all the people here who care about you, and for Tiffy, go and make yourself that cup of tea or coffee angel, take some deep breaths to gather yourself, and then phone the dr, ok? You know you want help to feel better or you wouldn't have posted angel. You may be surprised at just how much better you'll feel after seeing your dr.
You know where we are if you need a hug hunnie.;)
I know you deserve to feel better - let the professionals do what they can to help.
I'm thinking of you ilgd.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

feelinggood_2

The meeting is at 8pm, and I'm starting to get really nervous now

The house is spotless, so I can't do my usual thing of cleaning to relax, and can't really have a bath. I suppose I'll just sit here stressing till its time to go.

Hope you are okya ILGD

slowlyfading

hey guys,
i'm not in a good way. we had a phone call last night and my uncle is really ill - the likelihood is that he'll die soon i cut last night. i've been upset all day. why does this have to happen now?

feelinggood_2

Slowlyfading,

I'm really sorry to hear about your uncle. It must really be hard for you. Wish I could say something to help xx

rose07

Katie



hope you are doing ok hun

and that your time in hospital have done you well

xxx

rose07

slowlyfading wrote: »

hey guys,
i'm not in a good way. we had a phone call last night and my uncle is really ill - the likelihood is that he'll die soon i cut last night. i've been upset all day. why does this have to happen now?

Hi hun

I was thinking of you

How is your uncle hun? I guess all you can do is be there, and tell him how much he means to you.

I understand what it must be like hun, but you will get thru it

Things have the worst timing, but hopefully in time wounds will heal

im here anytime hun

take care

xxx

rose07

ilovegreatdanes wrote: »

just so hard to keep the mask on sometimes....cant see the keys now cos i cant stop crying!!!

hi hun

how you feeling?

It is good to have a cry, let it out,

I know what you mean tho, sometimes it is easier to keep the mask on than let it off. But you know...it is ok to let the mask off and to let it out.

And im sure your family do care hun, you have a DS and a oh, so you have people in your life that care bout you.

I know when i was seriously ill, i couldnt see any good, i couldnt see that people were trying to help me, and that people were there for me, i pushed alot of people away, but those that are true hun, stay with you.

and your not pathetic hun, or weak for that matter, it takes alot to say how your really feeling and how things really are. This is my problem atm . Your a good person with alot to give. Everyone here is special in there own way hun, dont forget how special you are.

There is good support here hun, and i am here if you need a chat or a shoulder to cry on

take care xxxx