The Trials & Tribulations of Trying to Conceive when its just not happening (12m+)

codemonkey

Ugh me too. Even at my skinniest, I've never had much of a waist. I keep my fat on my belly and hips.

Just got the weirdest look in Tesco. But then I did buy the following:
1 can of monster (for me, I know its bad but so tired this morning)
1 housewarming card
1 birthday card
1 teddy bear(for my friend's baby)
1 bottle of Prosecco (part of a present for a friend)
1 pack of flavoured condoms (a gag gift for my niece's 16th).

Also it looked weirder because the woman in the queue behind me had a kid who was old enough to read and she was getting sniffy about the condoms so I sat the teddy on top of them. :rotfl:

tea_lover

I nipped in tesco the other day and bought cat litter and toilet roll :rotfl:

pinkteapot

I got IDed in Morrisons at the age of 27. Probably because I was buying a bag of Haribo and a bottle of wine. :rotfl:

Embarrassingly I'd just popped in with some cash so had no ID on me, so they wouldn't sell me the wine!

picklekin

I often get IDd and i'm 36!!

Good to hear your off the starting blocks pink! I want the sniffy things too, I'm planning on smudging some mascara down my face and come out of the loo sniffing wide eyed. Screw drug chic, we have IVF chic! My appt is the 13th of August, all the way in Oxford too... I bet there are more delays so just gonna settle in for the long haul, who knows I might get preggers before then and save us 5K!

Still freaking out about my tummy, apparently I'm "Centrally obese"!! Who'd have thought that was possible at 9.5 stone and well inside my BMI range! :eek:

Part_Mouse

Pickle sorry to hear about your delay.

Fs called to see why I didn't go on Tuesday to take the tabs,I said I'm going to a different hosp through epau.she said the hearts likely to go by Friday as its worse than last week its unbearable waiting for life to end dh said he doesn't know if he ever wants to try again.no doubt once baby has gone its back to constant bleeding again

tea_lover

Oh PM, I have nothing useful to say at all but just want to send you a massive hug. Easier said than done but try not to think about trying again for now - you're probably not in the best frame of mind to make decisions like that. There's no rush, just focus on getting through each day for now. I'm so sorry things have turned out like this for you and am thinking of you and your DH. xx

Part_Mouse

Tea I now it's to early to think of trying again I just don't want this to be over even though I know its going to be this is the longest in years I haven't bleed for and not sure i can go through all that again

Oh and whilst I'm at it why do other people get to keep their babies and I don't.

Sorry for the moan

tea_lover

You moan all you like sweetheart, anytime at all. It is unfair, no two ways about it. There are people who don't deserve children who can pop them out without a second thought and there are a lot of us who would give anything for the chance and it's so hard to get there.

Rage against the world if you want to. Have a good scream, smash a plate (carefully!), punch a pillow, rip an old t shirt apart. You don't have to keep it all in (although of course you may just be better behaved than me which is also fine!)

So wish there was something helpful we could do/say.

Part_Mouse

Thanks tea all I want to do is sleep,nothing eases the pain.ive got no desire to do anything anymore,I'm so tired of life chucking it in my direction all the time.

I seriously thought about feeding the cats,leaving my keys at home and walking, no idea where or what to.my dh life is no better married to me

codemonkey

Oh PM, I'm so sorry. This must be torture. I wish there was something I could say or do to help. Take care of yourself and let your DH take care of you. His life is better off with you because he chose you and loves you. Massive hugs.