2014: a selfish year

lulabelle

Thank you JAT. It seems to have solved the recording prob although the pause still giving jip so suspect it may be time for an upgrade or something. Think sky keep calling my home number anyway so maybe I can get a deal on an upgrade as would love to have on demand too and ATM all I have is the record function and no package as then it's only £10 per month

I look more alive than yesterday thank god so going to get self out to shop now for the bits I need but try to go as cheap as poss!!!

lulabelle

So I've just almost troughed a whole box of maltesers. It was a fingers up to the !!!!!!!! before Xmas who had bought 2 boxes for cinema and I'd had one in my bag and he made some cheeky comment about my not giving them back when I'd bloody well paid for the tickets (and he dumped me a couple of days later) but now all I've done is made myself feel like a fat cow!!!! I might not have supper to make up for all the calories I've just put away

lulabelle

Sorry to whinge on but I just feel so depressed. This seems to happen on a Sunday and particularly if I've had a lot of booze on a Friday night. Maybe I need to give up alcohol completely. Think my mood is not helped this week by fact have had cold and been too sick to train

I'm depressed as I'm petrified of being a spinster. Then I start thinking about how I should up sticks and move to a big city like London or Bristol but then on the other hand I ave a career and great friends here

Just feel !!!! and stuck

lulabelle

Worked out this morning. Was so hard as barely slept last night and still got remnants of a cold so I was almost sick and now feel physically sick. Glad I went though and think I may have to have a sustained alcohol free period for a while as I think I have made so many mistakes through booze and I'm scared it might ruin my life if I continue to binge the way I have been

EmilyTee

Lulabelle I gave up alcohol for Jan.. This weekend I had a party so I went 3 drinks in and that was enough! I was hammered! LOL still cheap night! :rotfl:

Well done for giving a run a go but be careful give yourself time to recover otherwise the cold with run on and on

lulabelle

God!!! Am thinking I might give up until 8 march when have a boozy celebratory lunch with friends. Might mean I then drink less at that lunch too!

So, I moved the cats check up (vet said it's ok) to next sat so today has been a NSD.

Was v difficult to motivate self at work today and I must be better tomorrow but there's a lot going on there right now which is v unsettling

I'm planning a really early night tonight as exhausted and really want to catch up on some sleep

I've also cancelled all my social plans at the weekend too to save money, not drink and try to get rested and sort stuff at home

Buffythedebtslayer

hello, I think resting is good, the post drink depression is fairly normal, it is crap tho cos it can ruin a weekend and they so precious when we don't like our jobs.


I have a rule that don't drink during the week and try to have every second weekend alcohol free, it is kinda boring but I do find that getting drunk makes me SO happy and excited and the come down is bloody awful!


Mind you the down side to this is that next weekend am out and am already looking forward to it!


don't exercise when you are ill, it's terrible for you, rest is the way forward ok?


Have a lovely sleep XXXX

lulabelle

Ok so ran this evening. Was raining lightly and was bombing along thinking ah, so nice to run in the rain after about 10 days off it then the heavens opened and it bucketed down then worse, hail!!! Was running along and could barely see and was soaked through!!!!

Got back to office to change (pleased though as did the run 3 mins walk 1 x 6 even though not run for 10 days!) and had no towel so had to dry self on a jumper I had in office and then change top but walk home in my soaked trackies and even more soaked trainers!!

Then got home and was looking forward to a chicken breast was going to spice up with Cajun and some asparagus but the cat had got to the chicken breast!!!! So now having to improvise rather than getting a takeout and having a small handful of pasta with some asparagus and a bit of ham and perhaps with some cream cheese melted down or maybe just a sprinkle of Parmesan

Have however had a nice hot shower and washed hair

Been fairly MSE today: 3.20 on a sandwich and that was only cos bread was mouldy when I went to make a sandwich this morning and I didn't have time to get any out of freezer plus I found 50p in my sports bag obv from years ago!!!

JustAboutThere

lulabelle wrote: »

Then got home and was looking forward to a chicken breast was going to spice up with Cajun and some asparagus but the cat had got to the chicken breast!!!!

Beats the non-pet mouse of mine that has (once again) gotten to my chocolate!

And yes, I do have mouse poison and have had for years. It's unopened. I'm too scared I'll eat the contents.

lulabelle

Ha ha! You need to borrow my cat! He'll catch your mouse and we'll eat your chocolate!!!

Just having a cup of coffee before I head off to see my trainer - I must be mad but keeping going as can see the results already and it gives me a focus on something in place of a man (and instead of boozing)

After my run I gave my weekly therapy session. Doc referred me for CAT a while ago. Not sure i really like my therapist as he doesn't listen properly but I'll persevere. Then work plus a working lunch with someone I used to work with to get inside scoop on a case then more work and have to try to finish some marketing material for a new client this evening. Pretty long day! Still, 3 days until weekend!

On man front another !!!!! Chatting to a guy on,one who seemed normal and nice and he said keys meet up mid week and nothing further (that was sat). I really just don't get it!!!