Oh come on! Stake through the heart. A little sunlight. It's like falling off a log"

beanielou

My two favourite quotes ( & no prizes for guessing!!)
Keep plodding & fall down 7 times, stand up eight

Buffythedebtslayer

Snagggles wrote: »

:rotfl: Beanie, your bark blew away? You must be in a windy spot! Sorry for giggling.

Buffy, I've just rewatched the whole of, er, Buffy and there are so many quotes that hit home. This is a particular favourite at the moment:

Life's not a song.
Life isn't bliss, life is just this, it's living.
You'll get along,
The pain that you feel, you only can heal by living.


They're not the most beautifully-written lyrics in the world, but I've been hearing it my head a lot lately.

Not the most beautifully written lyrics......Oh how could you !;)


yes. the pain that you feel you can heal by living......Oh how I LOVE Spike. Might have to break out the Buffy DVDs

beanielou wrote: »

I keep hearing 'Make it count' the quote from Stephen Sutton.
Seem to be failing on that one at the mo though.

I am finding it hard today. Something on the news upset me. Then tonight I had some bad news about a friend.


Why do we fight so hard for security when it clearly doesn't exist. I mean so many horrible things happen. And maybe good things happen too but invariably they seem to end up causing pain.


Really don't mean to be negative. just lonely and a bit hurt. worried for my friend. Tired. have to build a future. Don't know what I want.


I will snap out of it.


Oh Debt stands at 3950.

beanielou

Good news on debt being under 4k Buffy :j :j :j :j

Buffythedebtslayer

beanielou wrote: »

Good news on debt being under 4k Buffy :j :j :j :j

that is true. I should be positive.


I think I am a bit scared. freaked out by ex appearance and now disappearance. I had forgotten how much of a future I had/we had planned. so much work to do blah blah blah. God I am annoying the absolute !!!! out of myself.


I need my list. This too will pass. I bet if I sat and worked it out I am mid cycle and this !!!! is hormone related.


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in_need_of_direction

If a man said that, you could kill him and no jury "of your peers" would convict you.

Buffythedebtslayer

Having just sat and worked it out, it is true so a man would be quite within reason to say it!


I went back to the dating website.


that was amusing! oh dear oh dear.


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Buffythedebtslayer

I am a control freak.


I decided I can't be friends with the ex. The thing is, if I am honest I love him. There is simply no point in kidding myself that I can be friends with him. I was moving on and he turns up and implodes into my life and sends me a bit nuts frankly. I can't handle it, I have many, many lovely friends and I do have a future.


I can still have a future with someone else. I just can't do it with him hanging around reminding me of what could have been.


So I wrote him a letter - a message explaining this and blocked him on fb. It feels cleaner this way. I feel relief, I am not waiting.


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Buffythedebtslayer

Since doing the deed this morning I feel a thousand times better! tired now, with relief.


The dogs, it turns out also like eating gravel. And the bin liners I so carefully laid down the other day. Garden is a bit of a mess! went and sorted it as much as I could.


I need to do some school work and then get ready for tonight - out with Mother!


I think I need a nap


xx

Buffythedebtslayer

Just dropping in to say I had a fab time tonight, we went to the theatre and it was great.


off to bed. Big day tomorrow. moving furniture AGAIN.


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in_need_of_direction

That's brilliant Buffy. Glad things went well