Stepping into 2014- walking in My Shoes with Mooloo

Savvy_sewing

Both of us believe that we do love each other, we do have longer periods of good times, but the issues are being raised. I am not packing my bags and moving in with him any time soon. But we are working through the reasons why we each have backed off, or taken things to heart, or too literally. Running away rather then facing the issues.
He has started to realise that the knee jerk reactions we both have are deep seated from issues in the past.
I am aware that DGD is my main Priority, and the Arguements are not in front of her etc. they are text based so she hasn't a clue. I don't discuss the fallouts etc with her. As she is with me wherever I go, she doesn't question why we are here or there at weekends. But we are aware changes will be picked up as she gets older.
He is very good with her, they have a good bond, and he had access to take her out while we have been apart and we have acted properly infront of her. She has never seem cross words between us.
But I do believe that both of us are trying to discuss all the avenues, are both wary, and are covering all of the problems to see if we can or cannot sort things out.
Talked this evening after she had gone to bed, and he has gone home now. He has listened to my thoughts, I have listened to those of his he managed to share( a huge step). He will think about everything I have said before he will come up with his opinion. He has not gone all quiet, but he is not giving knee jerk answers either.
There is no rush to change things.
I appreciate I am taking a huge risk if I take him back, but I also know that he is trying, and I am getting stronger, and less afraid to say anything. He has been shocked at my telling him some of the feelings I had bottled up, in fear of an outburst. He has slowly changed over the years which is why it threw me at New Year.
But if the talks do not come up with solutions I am quite able to survive without him.
I don't NEED him , I just love him, and am not blind to his faults, or mine.
I hope that we can sort out something, but if we exhaust all the options and it doesn't feel right then we will call it a day.
Now I am tired and its time to get some sleep.
I do appreciate everyone's concerns, and the care you have of me, and that some of you want to throttle me! I have to accept the rough with the smoothe as I choose to put my feelings down here.

Savvy_sewing

Evening, I am tired today. Enjoyed making at work but think the little jobs at home may have to wait. My neck and shoulders are aching like mad.
May have a hot bath and get tucked up under the sheets early
dGD needs to go to sleep earlier as she's not getting up in the mornings very easily
DS is out so I haven't had to feed him. Just as well as he didn't washup for me as he'd been asked. So if he wants to eat he will need to wash the dishes first. I am going to ignore them and let him do them.
There is a helicopter circling over head. Wonder what's going on out there as its not normal.
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Savvy_sewing

After my bath on Thursday I got a second wind and was able to catch up on a few of my jobs.
Friday was busy at work and several outfits were created. Had great fun.
Came up to Stratford last night. Spent today going around the market and the shops taking photos or looking at the things that inspire me to make.
It's time to step up my creating and kick myself into working harder.

Savvy_sewing

Ops slept in and missed breakfast!
Too relaxed.
Luckily have tea bags and milk brought in MrM yesterday, so still can have copious amounts before checking out.

Savvy_sewing

Home again. What a day. The weather is awful out there. Got to go out again at 2 to take DSs girlfriend back to her village and then on to another village to collect a table and chairs. One of those ones that store the chairs under the table. Hopefully that will make life easier in the kitchen and I can dispense of our older chairs that are always in the way.
Did some serious thinking and planning over the weekend. Now I need to focus on building my plans into a reality.
Someone please tell me how I can teach myself to stop procrastinating and get on!
Bit of housework first.

duchy

Mooloo wrote: »

Someone please tell me how I can teach myself to stop procrastinating and get on!
Bit of housework first.

If you find out-can you let me know too please

patanne

Me too please - I could win the olympics at it.

Savvy_sewing

What are we like?
Still searching for the illusive kick up the bahookie as mfin3 says.
Woke at 5.10 and tried desperately to go back to sleep. Still sitting up in bed when I should have been up at 7am I did wake with the alarm and make myself a cup of tea. Nipped downstairs for the loo and turn the heating on then came back in the warmth.
DGD has school today and is protesting that she doesn't want to learn. I have work at the recycling centre and then a wedding dress fitting before I come home so DS will have to do the school run this evening.
The free books from Homeschool freebies this week are all about time management! Mmmmm someone telling me something.?
The reminders on my phone are starting to ping in for the day and are telling me I have a lot to do today. Hoping that they will push me a bit more and I will start to achieve eventually if I am constantly reminded that stuff needs doing.
First bip is to change my hormone patch ! If I forget that I become really grumpy. So I suppose I better get up and get going as invoicing work for last week has also pinged at me.
Have a good day and keep as warm and dry as you all can.

Errata

The bald truth is that you don't procrastinate and get your DGD to school an hour late every morning. You don't procrastinate so you don't get to bed until 4 in the morning.
Look at all the events in your daily life you simply can't procrastinate over - why doesn't it happen then?
Procrastinating gives us pleasure, it's easier and self indulgent to procrastinate than to accept resonsibility and perform the tasks that should have primacy. It's easier to procrastinate, as many undergraduates know full well - it takes no effort.
Procrastination can be just another word for laziness.

Savvy_sewing

Don't feel am lazy parce but do feel lazier then I used to be! Energy levels being the main obstacle. But then when I remember what I have achieved over the last 6 years then I don't feel so bad. Just wish I was a bit more Superwoman and was organised or even just neat and tidy !
The clutter has over taken lately.
At work. They are going to upload my makes to Fleabay to try and generate a faster turnover.
Let's hope it works or I won't have an income soon!