My Dignity Diary

justanopinion

Hi Marshmallow!

Hugs. Posting here today has helped me so much and I hope it helps you too. Xx

bagpussbear

Sorry to hear you feel so low Mashmellow.

Life can suck sometimes can't it. And people have let you down. Let them go.

But you know you can draw a line under it now, past is past and what's done is done. You are not a failure, and your kiddies need you - remember there won't be a better person for your kids than you :-)

I hope your diary here helps you get through each day. I would pay a visit to the docs, maybe a different brand of medication, or dose would be better, anything that helps you get through each day. And never forget the Samaritans are there if you need them.

I know you can't see it now, but life will get better, it always does as life always goes up and down, so you are next due an 'up' now!

take care

lavandergirl_2

http://www.samaritans.org/how-we-can-help-you/different-ways-you-can-get-touch/most-people-phone-us

Samaritans now. For the sake of your children.

08457 90 90 90

nearlyrich

I don't know what to say to make you feel better but I have been where you are, a long time ago...Believe you can get to the other side of the chasm and be the Mum your children deserve and one day you will wonder why you let him make you sad...you deserve better. xx

pennypusher

Hi Marshmallow. you can be strong again. Get rid of these men in your life they are no good for you. Your ex is not helping you at all. Enjoy being with your daughter and take time for yourself. We are all routing for you and hope you feel better soon.

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tea_lover

Morning mm. Your post last night sounded much more positive, read it again... go on! Yes you sound angry in it but right now that's probably a good thing. Get angry, because that shows you know you deserve to be treated better.

Access arrangements can be finalised later, what matters now is getting through this to a place where you can deal with all of that. Is there someone else he can speak to about seeing the kids, rather than having to arrange it directly with you for the time being?

Really hope today's a better day... remember, we're all here and we're all rooting for you x.

FatBird

Hi Marshmallow,

Firstly, I think you're very brave for being able to start your own post. As much as I wanted to, I couldn't do it.

I'm 4 days into my relationship breakdown and the absolute crushing despair I feel is something I can't even begin to explain. The swinging emotions are something I'm not dealing with very well.

Everyone says it takes time and time is a great healer, but when every hour seems longer than a day, those phrases provide little comfort. I have no friends nearby and no family I even speak to. My eldest son won't be home until 11pm tonight and so today I will spend most of the day in silence. It's not unusual and normally I'm content with my own company, but right now, it's like staring into a big black hole and wondering if that's all my life will be.

I've decided I need to make an appointment to see my GP as my thoughts and behaviour are simply unhealthy right now and something my children don't need.

I hope you can find at least one positive for today. I'm going to try my hardest to do the same.

slightlyconfused1

Hi Marshmallow.

Just wanted to add my support. Depression can be a crushing weight to carry.

I also wanted to point out that your decision panto v trainers was a really positive one. You have the strength to look long term and make sensible positive decisions for your family. That is to be applauded. At the end of today you can look back and say I did that right.

When I struggle I try and find just one thing a day that I did right. It may be a tiny thing but no one can take it away from me. It gives me the motivation and strength to face the next day.

Thinking of you.