The Trials & Tribulations of Trying to Conceive when its just not happening (12m+)

Floaty

If your house is seriously hot, leave them on a low shelf of a floor level cupboard, shouldn't be 25 degrees in there!

vesper

Found a random test in my basket of stuff this morning, so thought I would brave it and test. Sure enough 1 single line starring back at me. So having just filled out the forms for the fertility questionnaire when it says are you regular I fibbed.

Thank you so kindly body for messing me about.

Still no signs of AF though so wish that would hurry up now.

tea_lover

I am seriously bored with being infertile now. The novelty has utterly worn off.

ETA: I'm getting unhealthily obsessed with the list on the pg thread. I should be number 11 now, and with two of them in there might well have been getting ready for some queue-jumping. I can't stop looking at it :(.

angeltreats

So sorry Vesper.

Tea, I know exactly what you mean. DH had a go at me last night for being pessimistic. I was like, are you serious? We have been trying for a baby for well over a year, and NTNP for ages and ages before that. My cycles are weird. You have basically no sperm. The only hope is probably IVF which means invasive procedures and drugs that will really screw with my sanity, and even then the odds aren't great. And I shouldn't be pessimistic? GO AWAY AND LEAVE ME ALONE.

We were watching the latest episode of our favourite TV series last night and out of absolutely nowhere, the lead character discovered she is pregnant. I don't care that it's season 3 and brilliant and the story is getting really good. I turned it off mid-episode and am never watching it again.

Also DH has been tasked with buying some sort of present for his sister's soon to be born baby boy. I am having nothing to do with it. This means the poor child will probably end up with a voucher for a spray tan or something equally inappropriate, but I just don't care.

Blimey. Bit doom and gloom today... sorry. Must try to cheer up.

tea_lover

angeltreats, I shoudn't laugh but the thought of a newborm with a spray tan voucher has definitely cheered me up!

Part_Mouse

Vesper so sorry it was a bfn.

Angel I to laughed, sorry. I to am very bored with this now.

time2deal

Vesper - sorry to hear. I find sitting in the bathroom looking at a single line, and berating yourself for being foolish enough to believe, is one of the most depressing activities in the world.

Sending hugs.

Re TV shows - they really do spring it on you don't they! I love a bit of random telly, and I was watching 'Deadliest catch' recently. If ever you thought you were safe, watching a show about men on a boat catching crab in the near constant darkness should be safe. But no.. suddenly big excitement that one of their wives is pregnant - cue lots of discussion on all their wonderful kids and babies. Sigh..

SewIt_2

I hear y'all! I am sooooo over not being able to have a baby! I am fed up of going to things and being the only ones there without kids that I am avoiding some situations now. I am tired of being expected to be the flexible ones cause we don't have kids so its 'easier for us.'

T2D - berating yourself for being foolish enough to believe

^^ this is exactly how I feel. Stupid and silly for allowing myself to hope this will happen for us. I have felt like an idiot for most of the past two years! Now whenever I get a tiny bit hopeful I try to squash it back down to the stupid place it came from in a bid to protect myself. I am getting better at being numb to disappointment now though as I am so used to it.

Vesper - big hugs. It totally sucks and I know your sheer frustration.

WW - well done on your first injection!

lilmissmup - welcome!

off to look at this app now!

hugs ladies, looks like we need them today xxxx

vesper

Thanks guys. Not sure what on earth I would do with out you.

I knew what the result was going to be anyway. It's not like my body is going to suddenly play ball and go ahaaaa you may have the thing that you want.
It hasn't hit me as hard this month as I expected, but I think that's to do with getting the appointment. At least I am doing something about it.

I'm not sure how the appointment will actually help though. In the end it may tell us if we are fertile or not. But I pretty much know I am not going to eligible for IVF help, most of it for small reasons, but some fairly big, so know it won't most probably be an option. We could never afford IVF privately. So getting the answers could make things worse really, at least at the moment I have slight hope. If they say we are not fertile, and no NHS help, that will be the end of our journey completely.

time2deal

IVF/ICSI/FET cycles currently ongoing.

Rowingirl: started stimulation on 23/10/13 (short protocol IVF cycle). EC 5 November. Collected 5 eggs. 1 embie on board. 7/11/13.
Derby2: Started down-regging on 28th October. Long protocol. Scan 6 Nov. Increasing dosage - next scan 9 Nov. EC 14 Nov.
Time2deal: Downreg 2.11.2013. Stimms started 6 Nov. Doing long (antagonist) protocol. Next scan 15 Nov. EC (est) 22 Nov.
Wonder Woman: Started down regulation on 24.10.13. Long protocol. Stim started 12.11.13 EC (est) w/c 25 Nov.

lucyloo77: FET planned for late Nov/Dec
Tea Lover: Starting down reg in the coming weeks. (Delayed to Jan)
Sewit: Looking to start over Christmas or early in new year.
Peonie: Starting IVF in 23 November
Whattodonow: due to start IVF late Nov/Early Dec
Star02: ICSI planned for Jan/Feb

Ovulation induction (Clomid unless otherwise stated)
cwtw (insolitol)
FrozenPenguin
Part Mouse (Menopur)
Littleme82
Picklekin

Awaiting FS or other appointment.
Danielley (MRI)
Floaty
lisawood78 (surrogacy)
onestep (adoption)
MrsDavo
codemonkey
vesper
goodvibes (Dec IVF referral)
angeltreats. First FS appointment 28 November & DH urology appointment 29 November
Slinky_selina

ttc limbo
Purcy81