Buffy takes babysteps.

Wol2

Lost a piggie this week so been out of sorts and not on much!

Stay cool Hun.....baby steps! Have had a similar few days....so please "PUT THE WHIPS AWAY"

Oh my word!!!.......Really lovely to see you George :j...how are you doing?

Hmmmm......T'would appear the "clan" is gathering to your thread Buffy

(I'm half expecting Sean Connery to appear wielding a sword :rotfl::rotfl:)

xxx

Buffythedebtslayer

So sorry about the piggie xxxx

oooof.........well work was awful. just felt terribly tense the whole time.

must take a tablet before I go to bed.

Good things - went to charity shop got rid of stuff!

spoke to boyfriend

one of the piggies let me stroke his head and actually liked 0
it he ignored food to have me carry on!

However the gerbils need cleaning out and my room is a mess and then of course ALL this just disappears when watching the news the terrible terrible things people do to each other. I mean. Oh I don't know.

was meant to mark a set of books tonight but got caught up in the news and bf.

must go to bed now. mark books in the morning.

Hope there are no more bombs.

Night all xxx

Buffythedebtslayer

Evening all,

am shattered, bloody guinea pigs!!!!!! One is on heat and the boy my lovely boy will keep chasing her (he has been done) and he is a persistent !!!!!!.

4-30 till 7 so loud I didn't realise the time keep dozing off and overslept.

day went down hill from there.

Just had a wholly unsatisfactory conversation with the Man. I don't think it is going to work really. He gets so serious about everything. And I just don't have the energy. I do like him. ALOT tho. SO I hope it doesn't end.

I think really if I wasn't so afraid of being hurt I would accept that the reason why he is on "there" is because he likes me rather a lot. And sad as it is to admit I have never had that before. he wants me to eat better, sleep more! I feel quite hemmed in - not a bad way, when I am with him it is wonderful. I just think in my "real" life here I am too busy and stressed to appreciate his care and instead see as something else to do and some one else to please.

This obviously needs to be thought about more and I need to be careful I don't drive him away.


In other news money wise I am doing okish. mess wise not great, did tidy up about tonight tho. should go to bed early so I can get in to mark...................*yawns*

Sun_Addict

Good evening Buffy

Your comment about the guinea pigs just brought a smile to my face! Hang on to that caring man of yours - someone who cares so much for you is surely worth their weight in gold! My dear mum used to say to me "always look for someone who loves you just that little bit more than you love them". Didn't always heed her words though!! She also used to say "never leave a job or a man until you've got a replacement".


Hope tonight is a better night for you.

Buffythedebtslayer

Hello Sun Addict, very glad to read about OH xxxx

Here things are flat - which I guess is ok - much better than highly stressful and anxious but in the stillness my brain is running off with me again.

or without me.

Am putting off doing things. ignoring the piles of work. not taking the tablets the doc gave me, am worried they will make me sleepy. just being back at work it so hard.

And on Thatcher's funeral. I doubt it cost 8 million. I have heard lots of interesting views on her. I think like all politicians she did some good and some bad, really no prime minister has had overwhelming support of the public. I am glad people went to show their respects and it went off ok without any trouble and that those who wanted to protest did so. pretty good living in a democracy.

Mind you don't get me started on Tony Blair and his gang.

suddenly very tired. need to wrap e bay stuff. just realised you can print postage labels, WOW>

I did not know that!!

of course I haven't got scales! how annoying!!


need to make lunch and feed piggies and wrap two parcels.

best get on with it.

Buffythedebtslayer

Haven't moved! bend it like Beckham is on. really like that film!

Buffythedebtslayer

Hello folks,

Was really ill this morning. Delicate readers look away now but action at both ends shall we say.

This resulted in me not going to work (will be in trouble but honestly there was no chance. AT ALL.)

So after sleeping for sometime I had a long conversation with my best friend.

I really don't want to eat but am hungry. dilemma. and acid reflux. What is that about.

You know how talking to someone who has know you for a long time and remembers who you really are when all the !!!!!! things are well I was going to say scraped away but that sounds gross!!

Any how talking to her has made me remember a few things.

So I am going to take the tablets the doctor gave me. And sort out the finances so that I have an emergency fund.

and few others things.

be back later

xxxx

beanielou

Take care dearest Buffy xxx

Sun_Addict

Buffy you are lucky to have such a caring friend to talk to - another one to hang on to!!!

You sound as though you've just had a "light bulb moment". You need to look after yourself more you know!

Buffythedebtslayer

Sun_Addict wrote: »

Buffy you are lucky to have such a caring friend to talk to - another one to hang on to!!!

You sound as though you've just had a "light bulb moment". You need to look after yourself more you know!

You know I really am, she is so good.

I cleared two boxes of crap tonight - to be truthful I condensed it into one but it is filing to be done and stuff to sell on e bay as opposed to random crap. lots in the recycling and to be shredded.

so that is good.

I also moved some money around to have an emergency fund - £750. Am a bit screwed moneywise really - now I have had a proper look.

also my fab mechanic has maybe found me a car. I LOVE my car. LOVE HIM. however he is very expensive. and getting a little unreliable.

and I have to pay for my MA. which actually I need to enrol on.

OH MY GOD.

I really do.

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Some time later

I have sent two mails hopefully they will save my bacon.

*spends a few minutes swearing at her own stupidity*


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so the gps are fed lunch is ready.

am going away for the weekend so will see you all on Sunday night when I will so depressed cos I am not with the man and I will have work.

ooooooffff. feel all anxious about work tomorrow.

xx
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