Buffy takes babysteps.

Sun_Addict

I like it when you have a plan Buffy! Glad you have some real friends to see you through - stuff the work friend!

Buffythedebtslayer

hello diary readers, long time no see,

well I was trying to do a plan and got someway to sorting it out but then this week at work has been tough. Being so hot everyone has been short tempered and fractious not pleasant.

the guinea pigs haven't been out much too hot and also the dogs can jump on the new run which is a bit scary for them and me!

turns out the idea I had for my dissertation is a bust, am in serious trouble there.

Been on two dates this week both pointless, one guy who is getting divorced and was v keen but I don't think it will go anywhere and the other one today was just plain creepy and weird.... Left me quite unsettled.

really missing the man. STILL. I have to stay strong. Someone will be decent. Dear dating website, Send me a decent honest healthy single man who will love me and who I will love.

I'm debating whether to take down my profile on the dating website. It just depresses me.

Mind you I do have a couple of friends on there. hmm.

Feels safer at home. going to watch the Hobbit with Mum.

Cannot wait to be done with school

I do have a plan but need to go do my surveys.

xx

Sun_Addict

Hi Buffy

I think you need to give the dating a rest. You are trying to replace your ex too soon - just my opinion. Have some time to yourself, go out with your mates and Mr Right (or Mr OK for now) will come along in time. You might have to wait a while but he'll be worth the wait.


Virtual hugs from SA xxx

Buffythedebtslayer

Sun_Addict wrote: »

Hi Buffy

I think you need to give the dating a rest. You are trying to replace your ex too soon - just my opinion. Have some time to yourself, go out with your mates and Mr Right (or Mr OK for now) will come along in time. You might have to wait a while but he'll be worth the wait.


Virtual hugs from SA xxx

I was thinking about that on the way home - am sure you said it somewhere before too and it came to me on the train.

I think you are correct. Apart from anything else I have 47 days to write my dissertation.

so yeah. bit busy.

and still heart broken if I am honest. It will go I know but I think with all the low level annoying crap that has been going on I am tired of having to make the effort!
thanks for taking the time SA xxx you are great to bother xx
xx

Bad_Weather

Ohhh my what a month June was for you, I am so sorry about your wee GP - I literally shed a wee tear for them as it brought back the heartbreak of losing my wee dog who was only 2 in February. So so sad. They are not just animals they are part of the family

Once you love being yourself, someone else will want to love being with you!

I think you need to focus on yourself at the minute Buffy. Get your dissertation, emotions and finances sorted.

Things were a bit mental for me for a while, so i stopped the red wine for a few weeks and said no to the nights out. Got myself sorted. Not quite the same and not as much going on as you but I had to step away from everything just for a bit. Focus on you and only you.

xxx

boredofbeingathome

GeorgeUK wrote: »

Hi Buffy, Wol, Numpy, Taxi, Beannie, Bob - where's Bob?

What has the doctor said about you being unwell, Buffy - have you had any blood tests or anything? I totally understand what you mean about the procrastination and sortof wanting to be left alone. That's the stress and anxiety making itself felt - almost like you're adding something else to a list rather than being able to appreciate it at face value and enjoy the sharing.

I really wish teaching was a stress free environment - bad enough that teachers get stressed dealing with the little angels, but they have piles of manure to deal with on top of that.

One of the reasons i don't post now is my stress went on to anxiety then panic attacks. I worry too much and when i posted here, i was worrying about everyone i posted to and even the ones i only read about but couldn't help. Getting better - slowly. I don't know how you're supposed to take the stress out of your situation though.

Don't forget you're only human - you can't do everything. About the only thing that's in order for me right now is my sock drawer, so as Wol says, stop beating yourself up. I'm still in awe at how much you do manage to achieve and am left scratching my head when you say you've got nothing done. Just make sure you have some 'you' time - not for working out what you need to do, lists or things you've forgotten - just 10 minutes where you know you're not going to get anything done, don't need to do anything (other than breathe) and try to relax. The world isn't going to stop in those 10 minutes but the time can do you a power of good.

Take care
(I'll be looking in from time to time even if i'm not posting)

Bob is here-sorry it took me a while Hope you are feeling better young George. I needed a wee break from the forums but am testing the water so to speak.:D Take care :beer::A