Don't know what to do!

alpha2005

My nearest gingerbread is northampton, i am in Spalding.

whitewing

It does say on their website that if you don't want to walk in alone take a friend or contact them, so it does seem logical that you could drop in my yourself. Looks like a very good idea to me and probably better than Gingerbread at the moment on the basis that the children are mainly with your ex.

alpha2005

Thanks for listening to me tonight everyone, it has been really appreciated, shame you cant give a virtual hug too, thats what i could do with right now.

You have calmed me down and for the first time in 7 hours i have stopped crying.

whitewing

I think if you are crying for more than three quarters of an hour, then you should phone the crisis team and speak to someone. It is easy to 'talk' on line but that stops you connecting as well because you don't have to react straight away and if it gets too much you can switch off.

Obviously you can't open your heart at work.

Try and get into a good routine with your medication. When I first went on anti-d's if I was an hour late taking them (because I was online) I dipped very quickly. Tiredness makes me 10 times worse.

whitewing

:grouphug::grouphug: We do dodgy hugs on here. I am off to bed now. Try and have some good rest if you can't get to sleep.

alpha2005

i have always found it hard to express my emotions and how i feel, more than likely the reason why i am where i am right now. I am so glad i found these forums today, dont know what might have been.

itsmecathy

Night alpha, hope you get some rest and respite, and that things look a bit more manageable in the morning.
:grouphug::grouphug:

whitewing

I really am going to bed now; hope you are sound asleep or at least feeling much better.

esmf73

Alpha,

Have a hug initially. Then when you have woken up, showered etc breakfasted and dressed, make a list of the positives in your life. It might only be your kids, BUT they are a huge positive. Slowly you need to start pulling yourself back together. First thing, do your kids come to stay wih you at all? If they do, (or if it is something you can work towards them doing) give them a nice place to come to. I don't mean go shopping, but clean your house til it sparkles and shines. Another milestone could be that you investigate places where you could take them. So if you think you could take them swimming go to the pool and check it out yourself, getting a bit of exercise might help. If you want to take them on a country walk then goand walk the route first. When you go with them take fruit, drinks and sweets to make it into more of an adventure.

My point is that by focussing on the positives in your life, and doing everything you can to increase these positives you will start to feel it rubbing off on you. Xx

Very sorry to hear what happened on Xmas day. Living with someone who is depressed is incredibly hard. I have managed with my husband, but only cos I stopped looking further than one day at a time. Very hard when I was bringing up young children too. At the moment he is having a good time, how long it will last I don't know. I wanted to leave several times, but we were living in Cyprus at the time and I didn't know how.

You will manage to pull yourself through this.

thunderbird

You have only been on your own for a few days - so accept that you are going to feel bad. Anyone would, regardless of whether they were already suffering from depression or not. Know that those feelings will come, but be prepared to let them come and go.

I cannot understand why your gp and psychiatrist suggested that you move away from your children - that doesn't make any sense, unless there are some other issues you haven't mentioned.

You say that you have a job - that is usually the easiest way to start making friends. Don't expect to be able to become best buddies right from the start, just a quick chat with someone about what they did at the weekend or something like that is a start. See each little step as being one step closer to where you want to be. Online forums can also make you feel less lonely, but be careful to limit the time you spend on them.

You say your GP is good, but it doesn't appear that the treatment you are receiving is giving the results you need. Make sure you are always honest in your appointments about how you are feeling and get a second opinion if you don't feel you are improving or ask if you can be referred for counselling. Alternatively there are online self-help sites for depression and anxiety - your GP should be able to give you details.

Good luck to you -