When I asked for luck I didn't mean the bad variety!!!

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Pretty quiet day. Managed to lose a pound and a half at fat club, not sure how but pleased anyway .

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I've lost the baby

*Robin*

Oh I am so sorry to read your latest post - wasn't expecting that at all and I do hope you are not too devastated..

Am in tears for you now; wish we were RL neighbours so I could give you a hug and look after you..

tunathe_cat

sorry to hear this news ...hugs

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Thank you both. I had a bit of spotting & shoulder tip pain so I was sent for a scan to rule out ectopic pregnancy. At the scan they discovered it wasn't ectopic but baby was only half the size it should've been and they warned that the spotting could be the first signs of miscarriage. Sure enough it then progressed. I'm gutted Xx

stripes

Lots of hugs xx

Fortune_Smiles

So sorry to hear your news. Take care of yourself.

Fortune x

grannyx2

Oh honey I am so sorry to hear this sad news, please take care of yourself. Lots of Granny hugs and well wishes buzzing across the net just for you x

*Robin*

please-let-me-be-lucky wrote: »

Thank you both. I had a bit of spotting & shoulder tip pain so I was sent for a scan to rule out ectopic pregnancy. At the scan they discovered it wasn't ectopic but baby was only half the size it should've been and they warned that the spotting could be the first signs of miscarriage. Sure enough it then progressed. I'm gutted Xx

Be Lucky, you are feeling desolate with loss right now, but you are not alone. Many, many of the MSEers reading your diary have been where you are, and all of us are sending you love and healing vibes.
Even though it may not feel like it at the moment, you will get through this - for the sake of your family who need you so much, and also for yourself. You will become stronger, you will appreciate the good times better for having endured the hard times, and you will never forget the dear babe who almost joined your earthly family.

This next bit is hard to write and will be hard to read, but in the long term may be helpful: From what you have written, it is clear that the babe had huge problems. Had he/she survived, you would have had to cope with a severely disabled child for the rest of your life. Maybe the all-knowing benevolent being who watches over our mortal progress knew that that would have been too much for your family to cope with, or maybe it was just your body that made the decision (depending on your beliefs)?

In the coming weeks you will have to cope with wildly swinging moods due to your hormones; it may get so bad that you think you're going mad.
Get help. Make sure the adults close to you understand that whatever you say or do, it's your body adjusting - not *you* being nasty - and don't be afraid to talk; about the baby or anything else that you need to..

We'll be here to listen to the things you feel you cannot burden your RL family and friends with.
((((lots of hugs))))

please-let-me-be-lucky

Thank you *Robin* For your lovely heartfelt post. Yes, I'm clinging to the idea that it would have been worse for the baby to survive if there was something wrong with it. Xx