Going to a women's refuge

3moggi3s

Thank you all for your perspective and kind replies, my self worth is so fragile right now. Any kind word means the world to me.

I don't know how someone can inflict pain and injury on someone and sleep at night.

I don't have children. My only daughter passed away from muscular dystrophy.

When I called Women's aide the lady I spoke to said her refuge was full atm, and I could call around to see who take me in. The call was spur of the moment that I actually didn't think I could have a place to go.
Monday, is just the day I felt I would be able to leave without any fear that he would be around to catch me out. I still have to find a place that will accept me. I was also advised by women's aide to scrape up enough money for a taxi to get to a women's shelter. I just want to make sure I collect the most important things that I will need, especially paperwork. I've got to fit everything in 1 suitcase.

The only regret is that I didn't seek help sooner, I just didn't know it was out there. It's just gotten to the point where I wanted to kill myself so I didn't have to suffer anymore. And when my husband started threatening to kill me, self preservation kicked in and I realised I didn't want to die, but live. This is not my destiny. Thank god there is help out there and I am going to embrace it like a newborn child.





If I'm not making any sense right now please forgive me. I can't concentrate of think straight right now.

Superbiatch

Good luck hun, I can't possibly begin to imagine what you've been through but please don't change your mind - go now, you deserve better xx

southoftheriver

You are making lots of sense. It takes a lot of courage to take these steps. Everyone here is rooting for you. I will have a quiet thought for you on monday to send you some strength just in case you need it.

Any person who uses violence as a form of communication will drive people away unfortunately. Luckily for you, he hasn't taken your spirit.

claire16c

You sound like a brave lady. The only person who should feel ashamed is your coward of a husband. I hope you can get a place at the refuge and later find the strength to report him so he is put away so he cant do this to someone else.

Alton_Towers

Didn't want to read and run. You have made the right decision. Have you no family that you can go to or is it a case that you need to be somewhere he can't find you? I hope you get something sorted, big hugs to you x

nat21luv

I did this last month. I didnt go to a refuge but I did leave an abusive partner. Im so so so proud of you, it is the hardest thing to do, they beat you down so much, not just physically but with words that you feel utterly useless, unworthy of any help and disgusting. I sincerely hope you do go, it was the best decision I have made and the turning point for me was when he involved my young daughter in the violence; smacking me around the head whilst he held my daughter in his arms whom he dropped to the floor because he lunged at me with such force. She was only 18months old at the time. I really hope you can see you are worth so much more than this, you are a respected human being who deserves to be happy and I promise you that this will be the best thing you ever did. xxxx

bigmomma051204

nat21luv wrote: »

I did this last month. I didnt go to a refuge but I did leave an abusive partner. Im so so so proud of you, it is the hardest thing to do, they beat you down so much, not just physically but with words that you feel utterly useless, unworthy of any help and disgusting. I sincerely hope you do go, it was the best decision I have made and the turning point for me was when he involved my young daughter in the violence; smacking me around the head whilst he held my daughter in his arms whom he dropped to the floor because he lunged at me with such force. She was only 18months old at the time. I really hope you can see you are worth so much more than this, you are a respected human being who deserves to be happy and I promise you that this will be the best thing you ever did. xxxx

And well done you xx

3moggi3s

I don't have any living family. Mum, dad and my daughter was all I had. I have been isolated from the world by caring for my elderly parents and disabled daughter who have all passed away now, then further isolated from the world by my husband.

I never really had a chance to make friends.

claire16c

3moggi3s wrote: »

I don't have any living family. Mum, dad and my daughter was all I had. I have been isolated from the world by caring for my elderly parents and disabled daughter who have all passed away now, then further isolated from the world by my husband.

I never really had a chance to make friends.

Maybe not but by taking this step you will now

busiscoming2

You have done nothing wrong. I admire women like you who have the courage to leave, you are very brave. I shall be thinking of you on Monday.