The Buffy buys a House diary.......

chevalier

I am glad that you have done nothing. Can I make a suggestion. When, after DS2 I had post natal depression, it wasn't diagnosed for nearly 3 years. In the end I decided to do a test. I took st john's wort for 2 weeks. I figured if I felt even a tiny bit calmer and more me after that, then I had a problem and needed to see a dr. So i did and got onto anti depressants. And they worked BUT because it had been so long to get a diagnosis, it took another 3 and a half years to finally get back off the meds and approach normal again. And even now when the stress starts again, I am thinking about going back to the drs sometimes. At the moment things have come a bit to a head, so I am taking it again, just as a bit of help, I am nowhere near where I was before.

So maybe you might want to think about that as an idea, or ignore at will

hugs to you
chev

RosaBernicia

Buffythedebtslayer wrote: »

one of my friends asked today if I was catching up with stuff. I am not. Well I caught up with my washing, which has pleased me. I saw my friend tonight and I went for a drive. Now sitting here i do feel better then I did earlier and the nap helped too.

Good that you feel better... don't feel obliged to catch up on anything though, apart from being with yourself.

Buffythedebtslayer wrote: »

I do know I will get past this. It is odd tho, I have always been a make the plan execute the plan and even if the plan doesn't work you generally get further long than you were. so you know it is always worth doing something.

I do see what you mean... (says the woman who has to keep explaining to people that she has now handed in her Superwoman crown and does not want it back, thanks). Problem is it's very easy to get distracted with plans and forget overall strategies. I can't remember who gives the efficiency/ effectiveness analogy about how you can very efficiently climb a ladder but still be completely ineffective if it's against the wrong wall - but that's how I felt when I finally stopped. Like I'd run out of ladder and had no idea what I was doing all the way up here when I wanted to be over there. Woulda been easier if I'd kept stopping to check . Have a breather to look at the scenery.

Buffythedebtslayer wrote: »

however these last few days I cannot find it to be motivated. I suppose as you say it is normal. I only have four days left and so much to do. tomorrow the new cage comes for the guinea pigs.

at least I have clean knickers!!!

xxxx

You don't need to do anything petal. Just do stuff you like. Piggies will be happy with new cage and you can enjoy happy piggies

((hugs))

Rosa xx

Chocforever

Buffy

I am so pleased you have some time out. For what it's worth, I think it is self-defeating if you use it all to complete a check list of tasks to catch up with things. Though clean underwear is good!

You have achieved a lot of long term goals over the last few months. Once you start to feel a bit better maybe it is worth talking to a good friend or someone impartial to give some clarity to your thought process on what to do next.

We spend so much time at work that if things become difficult there, for whatever reason, it is very draining and demoralising if the situation persists. You seem to have a very busy work schedule and heavy workload during the week which must impact on how much energy you have left for your own time at the weekend. Only you know whether your recent work situation is likely to be a short term or long term problem or what your options are for alternative employment. If it is not feasible to change one of your jobs at the moment, could you reduce your hours to give yourself a free afternoon or day during the week?

Take care x

thevinternet

Buffythedebtslayer wrote: »

I do know I will get past this.

Hey Buffy, gosh do your last two posts sound familiar, it brought memories of my depression flooding back. I'm sorry you are feeling so poo - as the others have said, the tiredness, lack of motivation (it all seems pointless!) and the forgetfulness are all perfectly normal symptoms. I always really struggled to string together a coherent thought or argument. It was as though I couldn't think things through logically anymore.

You are right, you will get past this, but you might want to take this time to get things sorted properly, or it may rear its ugly head again in the future. You will get past it, but you might need some help. Have you considered discussing treatment options with a Dr?

As the others have said - please feel free to ignore this advice - just concerned about you.

Northern_Lassy

Morning Buffy x Just wondering how you are doing hun xx

hypno06

RosaBernicia wrote: »

I do see what you mean... (says the woman who has to keep explaining to people that she has now handed in her Superwoman crown and does not want it back, thanks). Problem is it's very easy to get distracted with plans and forget overall strategies. I can't remember who gives the efficiency/ effectiveness analogy about how you can very efficiently climb a ladder but still be completely ineffective if it's against the wrong wall - but that's how I felt when I finally stopped. Like I'd run out of ladder and had no idea what I was doing all the way up here when I wanted to be over there. Woulda been easier if I'd kept stopping to check . Have a breather to look at the scenery.
Rosa xx

Loving the ladder analogy - makes absolutely perfect sense!!

Buffy, I hope you are starting to come together x

Kepp

Just wanted to add my support. Take care of yourself Buffy x

Buffythedebtslayer

Thank you so much to all the people who have posted.

I am feeling ok today. I felt yesterday that everything I keep in boxes in my head had fallen apart and I was kinda shocked at my feelings.

I am going out to run a few Errands and stuff.

will report back later

ps are Jeward really that thick and weird? I have never seen them before and they are so freakish funny and well....innocent?!!!! its an act right?

(and is one of them gay?)

Buffythedebtslayer

Am back from the Errand run.

my arms hurt the coffee table was bloody heavy. Whenever there is heavy lifting involved I miss having a man about the place. I have that horrible post exercise feeling. poo.

Whilst driving about I was considering a plan.

Borrowing five grand to cover teeth and MA (odd combo I know)

I *think* I could borrow it on a 0% cc.......

and obviously challenge number one for 2012 would be to pay it off. I think I have mentioned it before......been considering it for while now. really not sure...don't really want to dance back down the slop of CC debt.

(you see if I was prepared to do that, then maybe I could get a loan for a deposit?? - big thinking not up to that now!)

It is already nearly four oclock and all I want to do is sleep. How the hell did I manage work ??????

The other day when I felt really rough and down I did need a nap, I kept putting it off tho and that just made it worse. So I think I might sleep for an hour, try and warm up and then feel better!

Northern_Lassy

I think this weather and time of year generally makes you want to sleep / hibernate, I must confess that after the children went to school this morning I conked on the sofa til half past eleven! Very bad indeed...We can't decide whether to take the plunge and buy a house or to wait and try to save a bit more deposit, things are so strange economically that it's hard to know what to do for the best. The house we are renting is freezing cold though and OH saw something 'big and furry' disappearing under the freezer last night:eek: hmmm...I think I might just have a peek at Rightmove after all!