Breathing out, I smile – Bringing ZEN to the life of a DFW

Marru

Bitsy, it is all revealed in the Matrix "other side" :cool:

Marru

That is it, all xmas stuff done (apart from DD's pressie) and exams are over for now. BF has stocked the pantry and has promised to do the cooking. I am allowing myself a lazy day tomorrow but then on Monday I really need to start sorting some stuff out.

I know it is cliche (sp?) but I am already thinking about New Year resolutions. How could I make my life better. The key at the moment is to really finally to start keeping track of my finances. So over xmas hols I need to go through my paper work and set up my files.

Also I need to get DD organised better. I can't keep nagging her in the mornings about finding her school clothes and packing her stuff for beavers and swimming. It all has to be done the evening before. So I am not allowed to log on to the computer in the evenings until DD has been fed, organised and put to bed.

I think those two things would make the biggest difference. I need to travel for work the second week of January so the new routine should kick in when I am back.

But now I need to have some breakfast and take DD to see her dad. It gives me then time to get her present and do a bliz in here room.

Marru

Woohoo - I have a budget. And I think it is rather generous as well (except I haven't factored in any treats i.e. magazines, books etc). I should be able to pay off debt at least 3,660.- next year (tenner per day ).

For household, food, toiletries, cat food and clothes my budget is 60.- per week, I know this seems high but I really don't want to get demotivated from the start by not being able to achieve it. So my plan is to take this money out in cash (on Tuesdays = child tax credit day) and when it is gone, it is gone.

Also I have joined the make 12k in 2012 challenge. I don't know how much I can make but I shall give it my best shot. Should motivate me to get rid of my stuff and also it seems that I have not been on track on what is happening with my direct debits, I don't think my broadband and landline should be as much as I spotted on my bank statement when I have now been through stuff.

This year I lost 20 pounds, I think some of it has come back as I have not stucked to the rules and have been scoffing biccies, cake and choccies. After all the xmas goodies are gone I will get back to the regime I had in June when I started the diet. Aim is to get back where I was and further down to fit size 12 comfortably (work trousers now size 14, Mr S jeans size 14 but falling off ).

Anyway, I have DD squaking so better go and sort her out.

Kick ups the backside gratefully received if I don't keep my spreadsheets updated. I really need to get out of the mess I am in. Thank you mucho!

Marru

I have been sitting here reflecting year 2011. It hasn't been the best one but definitely not the worst one. The worst things have been having to go back to antidepressants and also all this battle in family court.The best things are finding acupuncture, moving house, finding my cat and changing teams at work.

What is it then that I am aiming for? I will continue my quest for that peace of mind and also start making progress to make my dreams come a little bit closer. I was in a bath today with a note book writing down tasks that will help with that.

I am very proud of BF. He has enrolled to a course that will be beneficial if we move out of UK and also even if we stay. Also he has taken the first steps to start his internet business.

So Happy New Year everyone - I am making sure that mine will be better than 2011.

budget_babe

Happy New Year Marru too

Nice to hear you sounding positive and looking forward, New Year always makes one look back and reflect.

As Gc says: "Look back but don't stare too long" I have been reflecting over things, I had a health scare 2 weeks ago, but luckily it turned out ok

One of my presents from my Ds was a kindle, I am hooked and am downloading new age/spiritual books.

I am currently reading Desire and its given, its about the law of attraction etc.

I too need to lose weight as I am at my heaviest, when I first joined the other thread I was going to the gym 4 times a week, now I feel a blob

Sorry to waffle

But basically I too want to make 2012 a better year too

Happy New Year Marru, here is to the good things coming into our lives in 2012. Lets look forward and embrace what is still yet to be :A

Much Love Budgie xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Bitsy_Beans

happy new year Marru xxx

Marru

I have been browsing the net about the spiritual meaning of 2012. THIS is a summary what I found. The solstice in 2012 is the end of the Mayan calendar so what does this mean to us? Lots of people seem to think that our life as we know it will end and something else will replace it. That change can be either good or bad depending on your view point (bad if you resist it).

Only thing I know at the moment is that I have huge need to get rid of physical stuff and instead accumulate knowledge, skills and experiences. Trying to make my life as intangible as possible.

For me personally I have set up August as a month when a big change will happen. Either it is move to another country or just change in jobs here. In the end of August I have all the work experience required for my qualification so if I can get my PER done by then I have no strings to hold me back.

I better start going through my boxes then, I might be awhile....

Marru

Did I say that I need to start going through my boxes? I managed to kill my home PC last night so I really have no excuses left as I can't get distracted with the net.

I can only get online from work on lunch break and next week I am travelling again with patchy wifi in the hotel. So there might be a bit of a radio silence for awhile.

However I am reading some very inspiring stuff, keep filling my notebook with plans, tasks and ideas and yes - also going to go through some boxes. So I hope there will be lots to report in couple of weeks time.

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Marru

What a night!! And not in a good way. Dreams were coming thick and fast and they weren't the best ones in the world. So in the whole it has been OMG and WOW.

I fell of the top of two floor building, was lost in the Swiss department store and then on the way back from Switzerland I managed to lose DD, forget to check out of the hotel and get robbed by man running a foreign currency exchange.

That was the OMG part of it. The WOW part was the fact that after I fell off the building and thinking that shlt, I am bugg3red I didn't do crash landing but started flying. When I woke up part of me was awake and the other part was still flying. It felt like what I think out of body experience might feel like. Pretty weird. I then tried to fly downstairs but that was too much active thinking and I was completely out of the dream.

Other WOW moment was in the end of the second part of the dream (wondering what to do first, go and check out from the hotel, try find DD or go and challenge the fx guy) someone called me. It was nobody in the dream and it was nobody in the real life. So who the heck was it. Yet again I can only think that part of me that was not in the dream knew that alarm has already gone off, knew that I have overslept and called me by name to wake me up. Very very spooky.

What am I reading now? I am reading THIS and finding it absolutely facinating. I have two more books from this guy and hoping to get time in the hotel next week to read them. Lets just say that I am truly inspired. I will write more here when I get a moment.

Marru

I have survived Switzerland but am suffering from it. Very very tired. Nothing much planned for today thou. Going to take that infected PC to BF's cousin to get fixed, on the way back visiting BF's aunt (she is so cool and she has dogs) and then stopping for lunch before coming back home to vegetate.

Work is going to be really mad for awhile yet. Tomorrow especially. However I am reading a book by the guy mentioned in my previous post. This one is called Beyond Happiness. Haven't got very far thou as I don't seem to be able to concentrate.

Talking about happiness - I knitted myself socks and I don't think anything has given me as much pleasure lately. I have enough wool left to make child size socks (unfortunately too small for DD) so can extend this thrill a bit longer. One of my Finnish friends is going to Finland in February so I am composing a shopping list for her. Unless I find a way to order straight from the manufacturer or some other supplier.

So the Zen of knitting is really working for me. I have few projects needing the last tidy to finish them so will start doing that after the sock project and before I get my new supply. :j

I am way too tired for todo lists and goal settings and stuff. Also my budgets are on the infected PC . I am hence concentrating on getting through next few weeks and what ever energy I have left I really need to use to sort through my stuff. Please give me kick up the back side if no progress is reported here. Thank you mucho.