Breathing out, I smile – Bringing ZEN to the life of a DFW

Marru

Nothing much to say today. Need to go and do some study before having some chill time in front of telly with knitting. I am doing a secret santa thingy for the charity knitting forum. I am rather excited about what I might be getting.

Today I found out that I need to go to Switzerland for the week before xmas and then for the second week of January. Very excited about that as well. The first of the weeks I am going on my own and then the second one there are three of us going (same three that went last time). And that is after my exams so I don't need to stress, just have quiet evenings. Bliss.

Also got a standard reply from my possible new job i.e. we have received your application and will let you know blah blah. But in the signature of the email was following: If you think you have reached your potential, think again. I think I would really enjoy working for them.

boultdj

Lot's of good vib's being sent for job, and loved the zen knitting.

Marru

I am soooo excited.

My plan was that if I get a job in my home land I will try and get part ownership place to live in (as mentioned earlier). I used to be on the waiting list before I moved here and I thought that as at the time I cancelled my applications I would now have to apply for a new number. But I don't :j. This means that I already have a number and a very low one so getting part ownership place for us should be pretty quick. :j

I am now off to browse the net to look what is available...:j

Oh also I have decided to put DD into breakfast club for next couple of weeks so that I can come to work early to study.

Aesop

It's all being very positive for your Marru

you need to declutter before you go then.... free listing on ebay this weekend.

Marru

Fab Aesop, thank you for that. :T

I am on hols today and Monday to properly kick start my studies and also hopefully sort out some of my personal paper work. Funny thing is that the study is more appealing than the paper work and has kept me very much tied to the books. Good incentive that. :rotfl:

Today I am going to finish going through the lecture notes, over the weekend and Monday I am going to do the course exams to be sent off for marking. Next week in the mornings I will read through the chapter round ups and go through the end of chapter questions, on lunch breaks I will go through the exercises that are available online and in the evenings I will be creating mind maps. Following week is then dedicated to question practice.

But I have just had a nice nap so no excuses, better get back to it. Coffee...

Marru

Update:

- Work: busy, which is good.
- New job: haven't heard a thing
- Finances: (must find out what the situation is)
- Study: Not going well, I should have had all my mind maps done by now. I have only 3 prepared and none finished
- Ex: has emailed me proposal of taking DD out and going to mediation, I haven't read it. I want to believe him BUT!!! we have been there before.
- Comfort shopping: three books, THIS, THIS and one fiction
- State of mental and physical being: Exhausted
- Tomorrow: Finish the mind maps
- Tonight: Eat, read for pleasure, knit and early bed

Marru

Oh where is the resident monk to help me when I have exams coming up and DD is having a mega tantrum.

It all started because I made her to bring her stuff in from the car. So she had a tantrum and threw all the stuff in her room on the floor. Now she has 5 minutes to tidy it up or there will be no tea and it is straight to bed. She now wants her dad. Oh dear.

It is late because it was a swimming night. She really enjoys them but it does make it difficult. Sigh.

I am yet to implement any kind of meditation routine to my day. I really need a kick up the backside to do that. One thing I can do is to set the daylight lamp BF gave me on the bed side table and use the timer socket I have to come on in the morning before the alarm goes off. That might help.

Laters...

ETA: Did I say that we can learn lot from cats? How about THIS exercise programme?

Marru

I am getting very stressed about my exams next week also other stuff is happening. Yesterday the heating packed up. It is all now sorted thank goodness.

And to make things worse a DCA has started to chase a loan that I have paid almost a year aago as FF. I have been meaning to contact the ombudsman about the bailiff action I had earlier, might make a case about this as well. Goes on to the todo list over xmas hols.

I am tired of being cold and paying extortionate amounts of money to try stay warm, I am tired of all of the inefficiency. I am tired of being tired. I am tired of this mess, physical and all the other stuff.

I am tired of my ex being a pain. He has booked tickets to take DD to panto without asking me first. I said I will think about it, I didn't say yes. It sounds petty from my side but is an indicator how he jumps the gun and ignores everybody else, especially all and any agreements made.

But now I need to get dressed, breakfasted and take DD for a haircut. The look she has at the moment puts shetland ponies to shame.

I am sure I will bounce back after Wednesday so bare with me...

Oh, I meant to talk about my dream last night. I had a dream where I was driving a bus and crashed on the car in front of me. This is what I found:

Car Crash
To dream that you are in a car crash indicates that your beliefs, lifestyle, or goals are clashing with another's. It may also represent a shocking situation or painful experience. Alternatively, car crashes may forewarn of your dangerous or careless driving habits.

To dream that you are in a bus accident suggests that it is time for you to move away from a group setting and venture out on your own. You need to be more independent.

To dream that you are a bus driver suggests that you are moving forward quickly. You need to show more patience and less force.

Any ideas????

Marru

And breath!!!

Ok first exam done and I think it went well. So should be a pass. Thank goodness. That was the one that I worried more.

Second exam on Wednesday. Tomorrow I have something very exciting on that I can't talk about on a public forum. However I should be able to do some serious studying tomorrow as well.

Aims for today:
- Finish secret santa gift and package it ready for sending
- Pack pressies to send for my friend down South
- Read pass cards for Wednsday's exam and draw mind maps and graphs if necessary
- Learn some guitar chords
- Iron xstitch bird

Tomorrow:
- Take parcels to post office
- Take bird to framers
- Go and do this exciting thing
- Read through revision kit as much as possible

Wednesday
- Exam
- Take DD to beaver xmas party
- FREEDOM!!!

BF has been my housekeeper/nanny, bless him, so that I have been able to concentrate on revision. Hopefully one day I can afford to have him as my stay at home dad for DD.

Off to revise... laters...

Bitsy_Beans

Exciting news???? Don't keep me in suspenders LOL