Breathing out, I smile – Bringing ZEN to the life of a DFW

Bitsy_Beans

Sorry to hear about your friend Marru, hope all those CVs will work their magic for you.

I like the idea of training your BD, now if you could just get it to roll over you might be onto a winner

Marru

Now the blimming mongrel is pulling on the lead and I feel completely out of control.

Anyhoo as a consequience my friend being sacked we have been thinking about why and what is going to happen. Unfortunately the most logical reason is very very bad news. If that is really going to happen I might end up handing in my notice even before I have a new job.

I have to decide how long I am going to wait to get a job back home until I start looking for a new job here.

I am going to contact a person that might be able to help me to bring clarity for this situation but I have to wait until I get paid. I know I shouldn't afford it but I am thinking it will be necessary investment.

Marru

Ok so the uncertainty what is going at work is eating me. I am even thinking of the possibility of moving to BF's narrow boat as not to have to pay for a rent, we would possibly manage then. Pretty drastic measure but just trying to keep my options open, doesn't make me feel so trapped.

And when it comes to start looking for work in this country I have already today sent three applications. One of them is very attractive, it is temp thou but possiblity for permanent. Don't know where it is so commute might get complicated, that is the only thing at the moment that is effortless.

And I have made the contact. She is running an Angel channeling event near me in couple of weeks time. I am going to make arrangements so that I can go. Cheaper than one to one and might be even better.

So feeling a bit better but oh so tired...

Marru

So far so good. Numerous job applications sent both in this country and to the other. Very hopeful. Also I had my friend from work here yesterday with her family so we were looking for jobs online. She found me a great job that I know I can do which would pay me 8-11k more :eek: So that was lesson in "start valuing yourself".

I know that I won' be feeling this hopeful when the rejections start coming in BUT. I won't be moving forward if I don't "put it out there" so one day something will come out from all this.

Can you tell it is Monday morning and I have had a good restful weekend.

Marru

OMG!! When did I start my UK job search? Friday? I have already met one agent, have a meeting with one on Wednesday and one more called me today. Woohoo!!

So I have decided to take the first job that ticks all the boxes. If that job is here then I stay here if not then I move. I just need to relax now and know that "it is on its way". I will keep sending CVs but when they are gone, they are gone. No point getting all worked up about what is going to happen.

Must go, DD driving me bonkers. She should be getting ready for bed...

Marru

I should have been named Nostradamus. What I suspected to happen has happened. Sorry details in MG's thread. I am not Zen tonight but I am not too despondent as I have been step ahead with all of this and started proactive action, however I am on the wine and I am not going to study tonight. At least my work load will lessen (after I have trained everybody else to do the part of the job that I don't need to do anymore). Now I just need to wait to hear where I will be going to sit. Please if there is a God let me stay where I am (so not likely).

boultdj

Enjoy the wine and it sound's like the universe is trying to meet you half way by sending you the agent's, just remember to very clear on what you you want/need.

Marru

Thank you Boultdj

And the gold start goes to...drumroll...BF :smileyhea
He is coming here Wednesday evening to pick up DD from beavers so that I can go to this free event about personal branding. Also he will drop her off on Saturday morning so that I can go to angel channeling course.

Yesterday and today he cooked for me lovely food, did most of my washing, left my kitchen spotless and left a piece of lemon drizzle cake in my pantry. And some stuff that I can make lunches for work.

We meant to go swimming today but got a late start so went for a walk with the dogs instead. It was lovely day but I had difficulty getting going all day so was struggling a bit. When we came back I completely crashed. I slept from half five to nine :eek:. BF sorted DD's tea and put her to bed. I am feeling much better now after my little nap :rotfl:.

Marru

Lost - Mojo, last time seen speeding up the M6 :eek: Founders please PM me for return address and reward.

I am not reading anything inspirational, I am not doing anything inspirational, I am not even studying. Work is a bit better and I am making some progress there but I am looking for jobs here and home all the time and applications to all directions have been sent.

I can't wait for my Angel channeling course on Saturday. I have a plan brewing but I need a kick up the backside, clarity and confidence to go for it. So I am now asking for a Universe to bring me a mentor. It is a big ask as I can't pay so it should be somone wanting to use me as their guinea pig to build up their portfolio. Someone who is a cross between careers and business adviser.

Marru

I have been to the Angel Channelling thingy and went for a private session today. You might think I am mad but to be honest both sessions were better than counceling. Especially today I was able to talk about things that she was able to really help me with as she had gone through similar situations.

I feel so much more at peace and hopefull at the moment. I have stopped feeling angry about the court decision. What I am going to do is every time ex does something out of order, I will write it down and close the book (or word document). Then I don't need to remember it or think about it or be part of it but I still have the info if I need it in the future.

When it comes to work it seems that I am not destined to go back home. Nothing is coming up there at the moment and the rejections keep coming for those jobs that I have applied for. However the change is in the air. I have started to meet with people that have managed to split their working life into two. One part is doing something "soft" like being a therapist or nutritionist and the other part is still keeping hand in what they used to do as a more "rational" job.

So I have now a plan forming where I will be putting those skills from my accountancy work in good use while creating a career working with animals. And I have already come across couple of websites helping me with the first and my Angel Channeler today said that she can recommend me to lots of people for the second.

All upwards and onwards. But now I am going to move myself upstairs with a cup of redbush and a good book (fiction for a change).