OS Daily Tuesday 26th July

bramble1

Thanks Jackie - i am SO glad i can forget about that issue now, and focus on the rest of the crappy things going on right now!

Julie67

Bramble good news on the Credit Check, I know you were stressing:D

http://www.readyforten.com/users/EnglishMum/posts/21761-rhubarb-crumble-cake

RR it's well worth making, enjoy:)

Rowan9

Hugs to lots today, also strong good wishes for JG's b-in-law that the therapy goes ahead.
Tru - I am sighing as I sit here! I feel for you. I don't have any answers but am thinking of you. Goodness what a shock he'll get when he lives on his own/ with others who are NOT family.
Sun shining - makes such a difference doesn't it?
W

jackieglasgow

I am hiding from the sun for the moment, its too hot here!

Molly41

Tru - I left home a couple of years ago. It caused shock waves amongst my kids and has not been forgotten so might be worth planning a few days away for you (of course no one else need know that you plan to come back) xx

anniestar

Afternoon all. Hope this finds everyone well and happy.

Firstly I need to say a huge thank you to Jackie G:A for her lovely texts and kind supportive texts when she has more than enough on her plate.

TapLady for her great texts and fantastic photos(bet you coul'd have got him into the boot for me though!) of a heart melting Donkey. Thank you.

And to everyone that has sent messages (as yet unanswered) on FB Thank you.

I am finally taking my future into my own hands. This is NOT going to beat me anymore.

I have been back to my GP and things are moving, but slowly. She doesn't want me to take any tablets prior to my op(which thankfully is now a matter of sooner rather than later) and the referal to talking therapies is in the pipeline. I have been doing an awful lot of thinking and have decided that I need to make changes myself, there is only so much others can do.

I know without doubt the issue at the core of my being so messed up and finally have decided to tackle it head on. I have never spoken to a living soul about the following about what I am about to write and am going to get M to read this as I cannot(yet) speak about it but that will change

When I was very young something awful happened to me repeatidly I didn't tell anyone and I am fairly sure that everything has stemmed from that.

I have found a helpline number and have rung it twice once I called and didn't speak-it was just nice to know that there was someone at the end of a phone and I have phoned again and had a lovely, but non specific talk to a very nice lady.

Knowing the root cause has made things much clearer- I have always blamed myself for just about everything certainly all the numerious miscarrages etc. But it was not my fault.

I have also "known" that people don't like me. Once again, no real evidence just something I believed. I always felt different and like an outsider. I am just normal some people like me some don't(need to keep working on this one TBH:D)

I tend to think I mither or bother people-thats why I think i don't answer my PM's very quickly don't want to bother people. I have started to do so now.

I also think that not having much access to the net has helped me to face things- I have had to live in the real world and can't busy myself and put off things.

I know it will be harder than I am making it seem and I will have bad and good days. But it is a start.

I didn't ask for this to happen to me and by facing up to things finally they have not won.
I am having my hair cut tomorrow(after over three years:j:j) and am quite stressed by the thought of it. However it will make me feel better and just so that i can't bottle it and wimp out my (very long) hair will be going to the little Princess Trust who make wigs for child cancer patients.

Thank you for all your support you are all amazing.
I can do this and if I do its all down to having you here.

Thank you.

Ann xx

adelight

Kazzaw congratulations! Afternoon everyone! I had a lovely day off yesterday, me and OH went for a lovely looooong walk along the thames, round hampton court and richmond park- we were walking for six hours! Currently on my break checking on my ebay auctions and the supermarket offers.

anniestar

Sorry for the self indulgent post above:o

Tru go girl. I think you are amazing.

Bramble:beer:

KAZZAW CONGRATULATIONS and welcome Toby.

Hugs to everyone I've missed.
I will improve.

Have a good day.

Ann xx

jackieglasgow

Bless you anniestar, its fabulous to see you posting and sounding so affirmative, you know you have lots of good friends here who are behind you all the way. You've taken lots of big steps, you should be very very proud of yourself. xxxxx

(and for donating your hair too, what a fantastic gesture :A )

tru

anniestar wrote: »

Tru go girl. I think you are amazing.

No - that would be you