Just feel like i want to end it all

sotonsue

miggy wrote: »

Hello Sue... I'm supposed to be getting some sleep soon but I thought I'd pop in and say hi, and keep you company for a bit.
I would ask you over to help with my bedroom - it's in dire need of a clear out - but Dh is asleep and I think he might object if a couple of women started turfing stuff out around him!
When's the next car boot?

are u sure your hubby would obect to two women in his bedroom ;-)

Ive not unloaded my car from last week so hoping to do another one this week, ive got afew more bits to add to it too.sorry i missed you i just logged on and straight out again as my son was hovering right behind me ( as usual ) wanting to get on facebook !!

sotonsue

snookey wrote: »

Hi Sue come onto my home is a mess on the old style thread. Its been really helpfull and you wont feel alone with struggling to do housework.

Id join the freecycle if I were you as Iv had some fantastic stuff and Iv got rid of stuff on there. Also look on gumtree as there is a section for giving and receiving free goods.

Have you looked into free classes at your local college it would be a great way of meeting people and give your confidence a boost.

i'm gonna look on theses sites
i'd love to meet people just not got the confidence to go and not sure what i would do..catch 22 really

sotonsue

Growurown wrote: »

Hi Sue,

So glad things are picking up for you. Well done on the boot sale!

You're right, mums love their kids and want the best for them but as you say you need a life too. My friend put up with her son's behaviour for years before she threw him out, but she reached a point where enough was enough. She still loves him and misses him, and still buys him birthday and Christmas presents. The last present she gave him was some money in a card and he had a go at her because it was less than the amount she gave to her other children. When she pointed out that she was still paying to replace the stuff he'd stolen and for the repairs to the damage he caused in her rented house he didn't have an answer. She said if the money wasn't good enough for him she would have it back but he had already spent it of course.

I think you have done so incredibly well, getting away from your violent partner and setting up a new safe home for your family, and dealing with your debts and your son. You should feel really proud of yourself, you are a strong person.

Hope next week is miles better than last week!

Its comforting to know i'm not the only one
my son too has caused so much damage to this house and stuff i own , i hate the 3 monthly check up vists from the agents...the carpets are a mess in this house there thread bare and theres other stuff that needs putting right but i dearn't ask the landlord as i feel cheeky cos of stuff my son as done..mostly dints in walls etc

sotonsue

ive not really done much today, ive just been to work.i look after a lady that has liver failure on mon, wed and fri.Shes alovely woman and lives in a HUGE house and even got a villa in spain.I do some housework and give her a shower etc.shes only 51 but she looks 71 , her hair has fallen out and she must weigh about 6 stone.her liver trouble his through heavy drinking when she was younger , she stopped when she had the kids and then started again when she was older she use to have alot of dinner partys..she reminds me of my mum as my mum was an alcoholic ( this is why i grew up in care )..its horrible but even though she has evertything i always leave feeling very fortunate..its true you've got nothing if you havn't got your health.

My son started his gym last night he was there for 3 hours and he's gone today too after school, really hoping this will help him change his ways abit..ive looked on his facebook today as i ususaly do ( he doesn't know i do this) and appartenty theres gonna be a fight friday night with some lads from another area and my lad has been recruiting a POSSE...we'll soon see about that because guess where i will be on friday night ...yes parked up on the street where its all gonna be taking place...i was just accidently driving by of course

gonna do another carboot this sunday ( weather permitting) ive not unloaded stuff that didn't sell from last week so just gonna add afew bits to it
Having pasta for tea,who ever invented this stuff is a genius..giant bag for 89p enough to last me a week ..what does meat taste like ?? ive forgotten

shazzzzza

hi Sue,

i have a daughter just like ur son, she has severe mental health problems which are now diagnosed and i know how lonely them nights are, trust me it gets better in the end and he will make his own choices, he will go one way or the other, theres only so much u can do u need to live as well.

sotonsue

i'm gonna do my nails aswell tonight(now that my toes are on show all the time) and WASH MY HAIR...want to start taking pride in myself again

rdchick

sotonsue wrote: »

i'm gonna do my nails aswell tonight(now that my toes are on show all the time) and WASH MY HAIR...want to start taking pride in myself again

Well done!! I'm going to do the same, hair is a mess today and nails need some love - by doing it we feel better about ourselves so it's a good thing!! Glad you're feeling better - you have come so far! xx

ghostmadlittlemiss

sotonsue wrote: »

ive not really done much today, ive just been to work.i look after a lady that has liver failure on mon, wed and fri.Shes alovely woman and lives in a HUGE house and even got a villa in spain.I do some housework and give her a shower etc.shes only 51 but she looks 71 , her hair has fallen out and she must weigh about 6 stone.her liver trouble his through heavy drinking when she was younger , she stopped when she had the kids and then started again when she was older she use to have alot of dinner partys..she reminds me of my mum as my mum was an alcoholic ( this is why i grew up in care )..its horrible but even though she has evertything i always leave feeling very fortunate..its true you've got nothing if you havn't got your health.

My son started his gym last night he was there for 3 hours and he's gone today too after school, really hoping this will help him change his ways abit..ive looked on his facebook today as i ususaly do ( he doesn't know i do this) and appartenty theres gonna be a fight friday night with some lads from another area and my lad has been recruiting a POSSE...we'll soon see about that because guess where i will be on friday night ...yes parked up on the street where its all gonna be taking place...i was just accidently driving by of course

gonna do another carboot this sunday ( weather permitting) ive not unloaded stuff that didn't sell from last week so just gonna add afew bits to it
Having pasta for tea,who ever invented this stuff is a genius..giant bag for 89p enough to last me a week ..what does meat taste like ?? ive forgotten

Don't go getting yourself too close to the fight, you don't want to get hurt on top of everything else. Like you said, you need your health. Personally, I'd print off the page where he's talking about it and send it to the police. Oh, and maybe have a mess around with his 'Interests' section while you're in there.

It's great to see you're feeling better and I'm glad I could help on that first night. And yes, I don't know what I'd do without pasta either.
Kayleigh

snookey

Im glad your feeling better Sue and Im sure your on the right path. Im lucky with my eldest who is sixteen on sat but Iv got support from my oh and it makes a lot of difference. At the end of the day you can only do your best with him and its up to him if he takes the right path or not.

lovebooks_2

Hi sotonsue, just sending a virtual hug to you. It isn't easy being a single parent sometimes.