Nearly 30, in debt, lost and nervous! I need to change.

beverleyhills

Lost

I'm glad that you are getting professional help. Keep to your plan of taking life one step at a time. Any thing that overwhelms you, break it down into smaller tasks.

I hope that you are able to go out and enjoy the sunshine.

Lost_and_nervous

Thank you so much for your kind words and support, it's wonderful to feel such feelings. Haven't been able to get on as oh has had annual leave from work so he has been around all the time something which hasn't helped me.

But onwards and upwards and moving forward. I have finally distanced myself from possessions and I want to make the most of trying to make as much as I can.

How am I feeling - awful still but I'm getting dressed everyday! Back to see the dr tomorrow to see how I am doing.

Thank you so much xx

girlatplay

Hi Lost

Remember that it can take some time to get the correct medicine and dosage for your needs. Work with your Dr and be completely honest about how your are feeling. If he/she suggests that you up your dose, just do it. Don't suddenly stop taking them either, do what your Dr says. I'm glad you are getting dressed every day. I know that can be tough but you are doing it and you will notice a difference soon.

((((hugs)))) and chin up!

xxx

kelpie35

Hi Lost :wave:

Hope your visit to the Drs was beneficial. Have to agree 100% with the last comment about taking your medication.

Try to get out in this beautiful sunshine as it helps to lift spirits.

Enjoy the weekend and I will be thinking of you :A:A

Lost_and_nervous

My treatment continues and the trip to the drs has given me even more hope as have you all. I am to continue with all treatment and going regularly and she said it will take months to get it right but I am happy one day I will be ok!

Me and dd went for a walk in the sun shine today which was lovely.

You have all given me faith that I will be ok.

Thank you all do much for being here for me. I couldn't do it without you all xx

Lost_and_nervous

Another day in paradise! Ok so its not quiet paradise but Im lucky to have what I have even with the challenges, that's how I am going to refer to everything, a challenge.

I have achieved nothing today, feel awful for it and panicky about it but I am human and depression has controlled me. Depression being a challenge like debt is a challenge. What do I need to do, work hard to combat the challenges ensuring enough mummy and dd time! Set time everyday to give her quality time with me.

Nothing is in a set routine in my world, silly as I react well to routine. I need to really focus on a routine as a way oof life to give me the best chance of doing my best without making my depression any worst.

I've been walking around the house looking at everything that I can sell, even down to empty purfume bottles, everything has potential. I am still stuck with my keeping hold of everything ways but what I plan to do is rationalise everything and list things I truly don't really need but if they don't sell I will keep. I need to try to make what I can.

I'm not sure when I need to start sowing my little veg seeds, something I am worried about doing but something I want to do. Think dd will enjoy it.

I know you are all going to say no don't do it yet but I am looking for part time evening work again, something I need to do. Something I want to do even if is on a temp basis I want to be able totry my best to get rid of the debt.

Well I better go for now oh is due back any minute. Xx

Lost_and_nervous

The sun is shining, I had a lay in (8am) and a shower, dried my hair whilst oh had dd, can you believe it? Ok so he did it without moaning but he has moaned since , I told him this is why I don't want his help!

He wasn't very impressed but maybe he will realise he needs to give me a break! I am only human!

Back to work tomorrow after a few days off, I am so worried as am behind with some bits but then again I am only human! I will keep my head down and get up to speed with things.

As for everything else, I need to prioritise again, starting again with the one room at a time, the home folder both which I started but stopped as my challenging depression kicked in, I am going to pick up where I left off.

I need to exercise also, I may start brisk walking round the block a couple of times a week.

Thank you all for supporting me. Xx

Lost_and_nervous

Change - I am changing my ways, I am changing my views and I am changing my routine!

Challenge - my depression challenge, the debt challenge, my home challenge - all challenges I am facing and working to achieving!

New start as of tomorrow - I have had enough of feeling down, one day at a time and one step at a time. I need to make everything achievable so I need to do things daily instead of one huge list. It's not going to work otherwise and I will get bogged down. One day at a time xxx

girlatplay

Hi Lost

Just do a little bit each day towards each of your challenges. You have 3 main challenges and I think if you try to do loads for each you will bog yourself down again.

Getting up, washed and dressed will make you feel good too. I love the clean feeling I get when my hair is freshly washed.

Even just do one or two little things a day towards the house. Each little bit adds up.

Work-wise, yes, you are only human, like you say, get your head down and do what you can. The more time you spend worrying about it, the less time you spend working and the more you worry about it :eek:

Remember, as you keep taking your medication you will start to feel better. When you feel better things are easier to do.

You are a lovely person Lost. You deserve happiness. You are working towards that and you will get there.

PM me if you need or want to chat.

Love and hugs
xxx

Lost_and_nervous

I am being really bad, I have come out in my lunch break to mc ds to have a coffee. I am really feeling fuzzy headed today and can't seem to get motivated, I think the lack of sleep hasn't helped but it's something I can work on.

I really need some wardrobe tips, I have so many clothes which I love, many I can't get into but many I can, the problem is I can't seem to let go and I am thinking I don't want to let go without a decent amount of money. I need to work out my wardrobe so I have different outfits that I can mix and match but I also make some money. I hold onto things and don't let go but I need to and deep down I really want to. I haven't got a clue though. I am hoping for a free listing weekend this weekend. What do I do?

There are so many things I want to do and achieve, I can't believe how much stronger I feel being back on here!

I need to change and work on my challenges! Xx