Nearly 30, in debt, lost and nervous! I need to change.

Rupinder_Khurana

Hi,

I agree that obstacles come up in life, that's with everybody, but one should keep going with hard work and determination. It's not that hurdles are a part of only few, specially, we may feel that we are the only chosen ones who are facing problems in life. But that untrue. Problems crops up in everybody's life but he wins who keeps faith in himself and struggles with positive determinations. It's very obvious that at times we may feel drown out, but that's ok. We are all human and we are ought to feel so.

Thanks

ebayqueen_2

Lost_and_nervous wrote: »

Well DD has not been her happy self this morning. I get so stressed, is it cause there is so much I need/want to do to get the pennies rolling in and I just need her to behave? I feel so bad!

I have managed to do washing up, wipe sides down, put washing out, prepare lunch ready, get chicken out for dinner which I hope I will get to freeze some that is left over.

Going out for a cuppa later with mums so DD will get to play with her friends. i have started writing a list of bits to do over the weekend.

Suppose I should go and get dressed, how awful is that, I am still in my pjamas!

Lets see what PAD I can find today!!

Have a good day! xx

Morning Lost

Don't be too hard on yourself. You are a brilliant mother. You cannot I REPEAT CANNOT BE IN PERFECT MOOD ALL THE TIME.

You are under alot of stress. I think you will feel so much more under control when your DMP starts .

Try and allow one day a week that you forget about the debt...not easy but it will help you get into a routine. Say that day you get up check your balances etc...do your PAD. Then you close the laptop and forget for the rest of the day.

Hope this sounds helpful I mean well Lost :):):A

Free listing this weekend for items over £1. So if you have something thats worth quite a bit get it listed. I need to get these jammies of and sort myself out Lost

Take care of yourself. God bless
E

Lost_and_nervous

Rupinder_Khurana wrote: »

Hi,

I agree that obstacles come up in life, that's with everybody, but one should keep going with hard work and determination. It's not that hurdles are a part of only few, specially, we may feel that we are the only chosen ones who are facing problems in life. But that untrue. Problems crops up in everybody's life but he wins who keeps faith in himself and struggles with positive determinations. It's very obvious that at times we may feel drown out, but that's ok. We are all human and we are ought to feel so.

Thanks

Welcome to MSE and thank you so much for posting in my diary and posting such wonderful words! xx

Lost_and_nervous

ebayqueen wrote: »

Morning Lost

Don't be too hard on yourself. You are a brilliant mother. You cannot I REPEAT CANNOT BE IN PERFECT MOOD ALL THE TIME.

You are under alot of stress. I think you will feel so much more under control when your DMP starts .

Try and allow one day a week that you forget about the debt...not easy but it will help you get into a routine. Say that day you get up check your balances etc...do your PAD. Then you close the laptop and forget for the rest of the day.

Hope this sounds helpful I mean well Lost :):):A

Free listing this weekend for items over £1. So if you have something thats worth quite a bit get it listed. I need to get these jammies of and sort myself out Lost

Take care of yourself. God bless
E

Good morning E,

Thank you for your kind words as always. Everyday I look at my signature and I look in my diary and the day is getting closer! I just feel bad for DD sometimes, but its all part of the recovery process. I am so looking forward to my DMP starting, I just hope they leave me alone. One payday loan company are really hassleing me, I just hope they dont send a debt collector round, when OH is here I find myself looking out the window continuously and saying to him that we have had sales people come round and not to open the door as they have been getting on my nerves, thats not healthy is it.

I do need one day away from it but I do think until the DMP starts I will be on edge. I just need to relax. well try to

I a glad I am not the only one in her jammies at an unreasonable hour (I am still in mine)

Thank you for the listing tip but because of my below standard performance even though I have 100% feedback they wont allow me to list for free. So out of order.

Have a lovely day xxx

Lost_and_nervous

Just a quick post - 2 items ended on ebay last night - didnt sell!

I have managed to freeze some more food in small portions for DD - I will build a freezer stock of home made food!

I have made a PAD yesterday - just thinking how will make one today!!

Its sunny and breezy - going to go down town, I have found some items with no receipts but am going to try to take back and swap for some things for DD as she needs new winter clothes, wish me luck that I get a sympathetic cashier!!!

Have a lovely day!! xx

Lost_and_nervous

Its strange when you think you have things all sussed out then something changes, its strange when you know what you want and need to do yet something is holding you back. You know who you want to be, how you want to be and everything in between yet that person is still screaming on the inside.

I am struggling with myself tonight, I got some me time to do exercise yet I feel guilty for other things which i havent done.

I have sold one item on ebay, 99p before fees. its so hard. I just so need to get into the mindset of when one item finishes get another on there, keep changing them so its not always the same item being relisted.

Its such a competitive market out there with everything so I need to be different.

We have been invited to a halloween get together, its amazing what you can find in the £ shop, ok so I have got to do some sewing but the outfit will be unique and cost only £2 to make.

my head is all jambled. xxx

I really like my signature, the PAD is building up. xx

Lost_and_nervous

I am so frustrated! I really am, I have so much to do yet I seem to spend most of my time moaning about my debts, moaning about not doing anything and moaning about the house. Will it ever get any better? Spent far too much money on a family members birthday today cause they are fussy, I am so angry! Well frustrated!

OH has said we can open up an ebay account in his name, but I can list all the bits on there just so I can start listing more. I thought that was rather nice of him! He actually listened to my frustration for once.... we may be making progress!!!

Anyway enough moaning, DD has nearly finished lunch so it will be time to crack on!! xx

*Twizzle*

Hi Lost x

Hope you are feeing better in yourself Remember tomorrow is another day x

good that OH said you can open fleabay account in his name will you be able to list on both accounts at the same time therefore selling (hopefully!!) double the amount of items

Oh and i'm fine thanks.....much the same place as you at the mo but mine is anger (at myself)

Enjoy whats left of the weekend hun x

Lost_and_nervous

*Twizzle* wrote: »

Hi Lost x

Hope you are feeing better in yourself Remember tomorrow is another day x

good that OH said you can open fleabay account in his name will you be able to list on both accounts at the same time therefore selling (hopefully!!) double the amount of items

Oh and i'm fine thanks.....much the same place as you at the mo but mine is anger (at myself)

Enjoy whats left of the weekend hun x

Thank you xx am feeling a little better, have been at work so not much I can do really round the house, except for clock up any overtime I can.

Love the fleabay name!! very appropriate! Yes thats the plan! It would be ok if I could list on my account properly but the retsriction isnt letting me and the most frustrating thing is that i am only 0.25 over the seller standard rate to put me below the standard rate.

Dont be angry at yourself (says she who always puts herself down). You are doing something about it! Do you have a diary?

xxx

Lost_and_nervous

Out goes the diet again, got a bad headache today so a packet of biscuits was a must! I must start to loose weight, I cant afford to go buy any new clothes so I need to get in the ones I have already got!

I have sold 2 items on ebay, steady on both sold for 99p but BUT I have sold 2 items! :j there is hope for me yet!

PAD - I think I am getting addicted! Already thinking of how I will make tomorrows!! I like how I can see on my signature the amount going up!

I have been looking on ebay at things that I may be able to sell, dont neccessarilly want to but if I can make a good amount then I am all for it! Doesnt look that good though! But theres no harm in researching.

One PDL company have finally excepted to speak to me via email! I was a little whats the word - Angry - in an email the other day! Roll on the 1st November!

Not much else to report at the moment! I have found a way of coming on here without worrying about OH looking, I am sitting the other way ensuring he is engrossed in the tv! Hopefully will give me more free time during the non work days to crack on with my other tasks!!

Hope you are all ok! xxx