LittleBoots Big Dreams

LittleBoots

I started a diary on here a few weeks back with the intention of recording my journey to debt freedomness and beyond. I wasnt in a good writing mood then so have decided to start again. I want a diary for myself to help me get out of the rut I am in just now. Nothing terrible, more just that mylife is pretty boring at the moment and I have decided that this is the year I take action to do something about it. I guess I've always thought that happiness and good times would come to me but I now know they're thngs I have to seek out for myself.

A bit about me, I am a single 26 year old female. I have my own flat and a decentish job. Recently seperated from a guy I thought I would be with forever. I am slowly getting over this but it has made me take stock and realise I have to change things about my life. I have a small debt which should be paid off by the summer.

So this diary is to plan and keep track of my dreams and impending brilliant life.

MONEY MONEY MONEY

Lurked on MSE for a while now. I think I am generally OK with money, turn appliances off when not using, get what I need from the shops rather than be distracted by all the 'offers' and save up for things I want. I buy toiletries when I need them although cant do the cheap versions, have to be brand shampoo/conditioner/shower gel/make up etc. Have tried many times using shops own make and they just dont d it for me.

My debt at the beginning of last year was just over £6000. I made an effort to pay off as much as I could and as of today my debt is approx £1000. My aim is to get this paid off by summer, I am aware I could do it much sooner but I really want to use some cash for doing social things and getting out more, this is more important to me just now.

I dont have any savings as I transferred them to my debt although I am going to start a buffer fund. I have a money tin I put £10 into every Friday and random £1 coins whenever I am able, I hope to keep this going and not open until the end of the year. We will see!

My work hours dropped in October last year but have now picked up so I should have a decent income coming in to manage the bills, debts,savings and social life. I have a seperate account my bills come out of so when I get paid the plan is to transfer a set amount over which will cover them and a bit extra to save. Of whats remaining I have my travel costs (only £40/month), groceries and cat food/litter to buy. The rest is mine to do with as I wish!


FUN STUFF

I am lucky to have some very good friends I can always turn to for anything. However I dont have many of them and often find myself at a loss at the weekend with not much to do. Dont have any hobbies to occupy my time with either. So my new years resolution is to get out more, meet new people and try new things. I have joined some social groups in my area and they are looking good so far. Lots of different types activities going on. I have arranged to go to some so will keep you posted.


THE HEALTH BIT

Try find a girls diary that doesnt mention weight loss or fitness! I would like to lose about 1 stone in weight, however have been a bit lax in this. I am going to meal plan and choose filling foods so I dont feel the need for a mars bar an hour after having dinner. I have also discovered I am terribly unfit! Was kidding myself that because I have an active job, walk everywhere and carry the heavy shopping home that I was getting enough exercise. This is not the case! Been looking at signing up to a 5k in summer to give me a reason to exercise, again I will keep you posted.


RELATIONSHIPS

Lets not go there just now! A big part of me still wants the ex back. I am nowhere near ready to look for someone else although if someone comes along I guess it wouldnt be too bad to take my mind off things!


MY ABODE

No-one who knows me would describe me as a Domestic Goddess, more of a Domestic Disaster. Whilst my flat is usually tidy, its not all that clean...so I have to dedicate some time each week to do a big proper clean of the flat then I can just 'top-up' on other days. Also have to make use of the cookbooks my Mum keeps buying for me, I'm getting sick of pasta! This year I am going to grow some of my own veggies, have done this in the past and love it. Also keep up with the garden and get it all nice, luckily I enjoy gardening.


CAREER

Hmmm, I'll have a think about this bit.


There the first installment of my new diary. I have some big dreams, just not sure exactly what they are yet but hopefully this diary will help me to focus and do whatever I can to fulfil them.

LittleBoots

Hello diary, it's been a wee while, been bogged down with work this is the first chance I have had to come online. Feeling very tired as have been doing a lot of overtime but should make a good dent in the debts! Get paid on Friday so will have a look at the figures and see where my debts are standing and look at more area I can save.

Tonight I am going to a meet up of the social group thingy joined, its my first one and feels a bit odd but looks like there will be a fair few people my age there so hopefully it'll be good. Not been in the cheeriest of moods lately so this should help. Will update on how it goes later.

Looking back on my aims for January I havent done that great, just been too busy with work to do other stuff. I'll make up for this in February though.

Well better go.

Til next time x

LittleBoots

3hrs to payday :beer:. Looking forward to get a wee chunk of my debt paid off and be down to 3 figures:j.

Well as I said, some of my aims for January have been successful, some not so. Did well with work, not spending un-necessarily, seeing friends/family and arranging to get out and about more.

Not so well withthe diet/fitness part of things...so here we go again! Want to lose a stone, maybe by Easter but more importantly I NEED to work on my fitness levels. Hate the thought of going to the gym or a class, not a fan of walking in the park as I feel it too cold and lonely. Hmmm what other excuses can I come up with??? So I am going to pen some swimming and Zumba classes into my diary. If theyre scheduled then theres no reason for me not to go.

I hope it'll also help lift my mood, keep getting long bouts of feeling low, damn heartbreak:(.

On a more positive note I went to one of the social events last night, it was a pub night to get to meet people in the area. Lots of people my age there and it was very relaxed, not awkward at all. Met some (hopefully) potential friends and planning to go to a few more in the next week or two.

The house is clean, the garden is looking battered from the horrible weather...looking forward to sunny days when I can get it noce again. Cat is relaxing on the sofa purring away, think she knows I bought more cat food today:rotfl:.

LittleBoots

Payday today
Got this weeks food shopping in at a grand total of £12
Put £10 into my savings tin (do this every Friday)
Have managed to lose 3lb this month! Not sure how, wasnt really trying tho has given me the determination to follow my weight loss plan properly.

cakelover_2

Hi Littleboots

Just come across your diary. Sorry to hear about your breakup. I hope you are ok and if you ever need to vent, the diary is a good place to do so, everyone does it!
I'm the same age as you, 26, and my social life friends wise has got a bit boring too. I have a group of close friends and we meet up, but alot less often than I'd like. I want us girls to get out at the bars again and have a good dance but we are either busy or there are money issues. I'm happy going out with £10 in my pocket and driving, but some of the others like to take a bit more money. We tend to meet at each others houses or go to the pub, I love them but I feel a bit like some of them are getting old before their time, I'm so desperate for a dance! lol. I'm starting a cake decoration course next month so there may be some potential friends come from there (I hope that doesn't sound sad, lol). Hoping that in the future I will have my own cake making/decorating business.

I'm needing to get fit too, my friend and I are going to start a Zumba class, poss next week, so I'm looking forward to that. Need to lose my belly and get toned up!

Anyway that's enough about me, lots of luck with your diary, I will be keeping up with your progress.

CL

LittleBoots

Hi CL

Thanks for your message . I have to admit my friends have been brilliant at helping me through this breakup, just being there to listen to me, give advice and they dont say anything when I txt then at 2am in angst! The social thing I went to was found on www.meetup.com it was a relaxed pub night to meet people and was great. Lots of people looking to meet new friends for various reasons, some like me, a bit lost after a break up, people new to the area, people who find their friends and settling down and dont have time for them. Seems there is a lot of people in the same boat!

The cake decorating course sounds great! I think cakes are recession proof!! E.g, in work this Christmas instead of getting the usual £10 M&S voucher we got a cupcake . My friend and I were looking to join a sewing class this year, we were too skint to join the January one so hoping to start the April one. If I enjoy it and am any good at it, it'll lead to a dressmaking course then who knows!! These are just beginners classes tho in the evening, should be good for meeting new people.

little_h_2

Hi LittleBoots, had to read your diary as I am also a 'little' with big dreams (my diary has the same title )

sorry to hear about the break up. we are on a similar road at the moment, getting over things and trying to move on and meet up with new people. Thank you for posting the link to the website, I will definitely be checking that out! My closest friends are miles away, and while my family is a bit nearer by, I am itching for nearby friends - and also neeeeed to get out there and do some dancing on the cheap! :j

cake decorating and dressmaking courses sound fabulous! I have dipped my toe in both and find them very enjoyable. as you both say, a sociable thing to do and also some great skills to acquire which could lead to a lot more :T

good luck with your diary, I definitely use mine for venting and generally rabbiting on to myself

LittleBoots

Hiya little_h thank you for dropping by . I think I may have copied your title without realising! Thought it was too clever for me!
Yeah the meet up site is good and at very least worth a try! Just find the break up stuff soo hard to get over, trying hard to do new things but most of the time I feel its pointless as I just want to be with him. Aaaargh, I know thats nonsense and unhealthy but I cant seem to take my own advice.

Oh well.

Anyway, had a nice day today, went to see the Kings Speech with my Mum. I really liked it, wasnt at all expecting to.

Sleepy now though!

cakelover_2

Hi Littleboots/Little_h

I love anything to do with cake decorating and crafting. I'm so excited about my course. Haven't had anything else from them though about start up, so think I best give them a call next week to make sure it's all going ahead. Thanks for the site, might have a look into that.

I don't think it's unhealthy to want to be with your ex, it all goes with the process of getting over someone, but as they say time is a great healer. When my ex broke up with me 4 years ago I didn't think I was ever going to get over him, but now I am living with my man of 3 and a half years and I am so happy, I think in the end my ex actually done me a favour. You will get there. Meeting new people, starting new courses will keep you occupied, so you are likely to think of him less whilst getting yourself into doing some more fun stuff, so it will probably help.

LittleBoots

Happy February

So. time to get cracking on with my new years resolutions! Luckily this month focuses more on making the effort to get out with friends and having some papmpering days so shouldnt me too hard:rotfl:.

Sick of writing about the ex:mad:. Hate feeling like this and dont know why my brain is focusing on remembering the good/happy times (there were a lot of them tbh) but ignoring the times that werent so good and the things he done that really upset me. I'm coping with the shock and humiliation of him leaving (humiliated as our relationship was the best and most important thing in my life whereas to him it was over and not even worth trying to save) but miss him so much. He's moving on with his life easily and I'm still stuck wondering what the hell happened. Where did the love go? All our plans for the future, dismissed just like that when they meant the world to me.

Sorry, just felt the need to write that down, if anyone happens to be reading please dont quote what I've just written as I might go back and delete it.

I need a plan

I know that I could stay at home and wait for him, basically wait for something that probably wont happen. The sad thing is that I could happily do this as right now I dont like the idea of a future without him. But somewhere in me is that other voice telling me that its ridiculous and a complete waste of time and energy.

So I'm going to fake it! Pretend I'm happy and want to move on, pretend I'm confident and that I deserve a good life. Force myself to get out, make new friends, maybe even go on a few dates. Hopefully I will soon discover that there is life without him and the pretence will become real. I'd love for us to be friends and to be able to look back on our time together and be glad it happened.

It's all down to keeping busy I guess.

Suppose I'd better write some money stff down:rotfl:finances seem okay just now. Was supposed to be working Wednesday but my shift got cancelled, its okay though as it was an extra and I'll make it up later in the month. Also means I can join my friend on a trip to Laser Quest:o, never been before, and think I'm about 15yrs too old but why not? I think it'll be fun. :T.

Och its good to have a diary, feeling better already..:o

Baldybear

Hello,

Just saw your post about your ex and was in a very similar situation a few years ago, I thought everything was going well, week before he walked away he told my friends hubby how excited he was about getting a mortgage and getting our own house soon! He left in October and it took me till December/January to decide that he wasnt coming back and I needed to do something for myself to get me over it.

Thinking about it now pony trekking in Iceland for Charity (in the rain and gale force winds) was probably not the best thing to do but it gave me the spur to know that I could do anything on my own.

Am now with a lovely OH and my ex (who quickly moved on and is now married) is not happy at all and probably now regrets his decision (karma maybe) I dont know but I am much stronger than I was

It will take time and dont beat yourself up about feeling bad, but it sounds like you are already moving forward and the meet ups sound fab

All the best of luck for the future