Mooloo's New Home, New Year and New Start part 3

icelandic_queen

Mooloo, stay syrong, you're an inspiration to us!! I wish my mother was like you!!!

Savvy_sewing

icelandic_queen wrote: »

Mooloo, stay syrong, you're an inspiration to us!! I wish my mother was like you!!!

Better ask Biggest of Mooloo about that one!

I couldnt lift my mood, or pass the pain yesterday and retired to my room at 7. Only popping in and out to deal with DGD1 and her shouts for a drink, or the potty or her video.
I sat reading in the relative dark/quiet of my room. But the pain I am struggling with is beating me at the moment.
Alas I continued to have bad dreams through out the night, continually waking and looking at the clock! Part of me wishing the night was over, and another part of me not really wanting to face the day.
DGD is in my room as I type watching TV up there. She came in this morning and played with my teddies and when i came down to the washing up.(not done any since the day before!), She sat up there watching the TV.
Says she doesnt want to come down, and has gone back up.
I will go and check that she is not destroying things. But its a novelty for her to see my TV on. I have missed a couple of parcels being delivered, so should really go to the post office as its sewing related things. But really not sure I want to open the front room curtains never really mind going out there.
I did wash up, so at least the kitchen is back to some semblance of order, and I have very lazily put the tumble dryer part of the washing machine on, as the washing is bedding and I cannot get my arm up to the washing line. Its been in the bowl wet waiting since the day before yesterday so its urgent I get it dry. Or will have to wash it all over again.
My Sewing magazine arrived, and I was hoping that that might spark some enthusiasm in me, but the first thing I noticed was that they have sent the incorrect pattern out with it, so I have instructions etc to make one pattern, and the actual one they supplied is for augusts sewing! So I have rattled off an email to the Editor to see if she can get me one posted out.
(It should have been a maxi dress, and instead its a mini dress that has arrived. Well dont know about you but I dont think I want the mini one!).
I am trying to lift my mood. At least the curtains are bright orange so its sending a warm glow through the sitting room. But I suppose for DGD's sake I have to get them opened soon as she comes down.
My BF is not coming this weekend, and I am not going there as the traffic for the Silverstone would be a bit much to negotiate, and to be honest its not my turn too.
He doesnt understand my situation much, and its the same old same. Here we go again in my mind. So I must just destract from the fact that its a weekend, and ignore it. He is supposed to be coming here next weekend to see DGD in the carnival though. Lets hope his daughter gets a lift to work, so he doesnt have to take her at 7.30 or he wont stay here. (Or even come, thats why he hasnt come so often.). mmm and the rest..
Right I am going to have another cup of tea, and get dressed see how I feel then. Wish my left arm would pick up, and I could do something to keep my mind busy and not wander into the dark spaces of it!.

MatyMoo

Sorry you are having a bad week Mooloo, sending hugs, lots of them

Keeping_Motivated

Why just ask Biggest of Moloo you're a mum to all your children and a good one?

rolo-polo1965

Sending you love and hugs Mooloo!

Take care

crutches

thinking of you Mooloo x

Eager_Elephant

((((Mooloo))))

You have been coping so well for so long with all the problems it is inevitable that some times you are going to feel very down.

As long as you do the main things, keeping yourself and DGD fed and watered and clean then everything else can wait - do not put pressure on yourself.

If you want to mope about today then that is fine.

You do not need to go to the Post Office today, that can wait til next week.

If you think this is the depression returning then it is probably best to make an appt with the Dr sooner rather than later.

Could you make a list of things you would like to get sorted and concentrate on one thing at a time? Maybe you could post on here in the morning for encouragement - I am sure we are all happy to chip in with encouragement or any other help you need.

((Mooloo))

EE

Savvy_sewing

I have been burying my head in books to try and switch off! Good for the reading but not much else!
DGD is in the bath, here beside me playing with her many ducks, and the shampoo bottles. I am dressed, had breakfast and even got as far as emptying the rubbish bin outside. So have had a lung full of fresh air.
The sun is trying to shine, but the wind is up. Would have been ideal for drying the washing if I had got my arm up!

Molly came round with my weedkiller last night, and a lovely bunch of flowers for me, as she was worried about me.
You mustnt worry, I always bounce back. I just have times when i am a bit low. As mentioned, with all I have to deal with I suppose its not surprising.
I didnt deliberately single Biggest of Mooloo out, its just that she is a registered one on here, not the others. Thats the name she used to post under a few threads back. Hence why she is Biggest and not DD1.!
I put a jumper on as I was really cold earlier, but I must go and change now, I am over heating.
Maybe I will take a stroll around the garden when DGD is out of the bath, and see if I can clear a bit of the fog away.

Skint_Lynne

Hope you are feeling better soon Mooloo. xx

Peanuckle

Think of it this way Mooloo, not only are you having to cope with the chaos of your normal life, you're also grieving for the loss of the boys. I know you still have access now but you know that isn't for ever and it's a bit like the grieving we did for my father in law when we knew his cancer was terminal. Even though he was still with us we still starting grieving for the loss to come.

Hope that makes sense?

Take care xx