Lose Weight 31

Eric_Pisch

vixarooni wrote: »

I had flu two christmasses back. It lasted forever, i felt the worsed i've ever felt in my life and i tried my sodding hardest to enjoy christmas and it failed. Never want that again thank you very much!!

Hope you get over your cold-thats-almost-manflu soon eric

seams ok at the moment, i trained hard on it this morning and i think i scared it off lol

it actually bothers me for different reasons to most people, if my temp goes over 37.5 i cant exercise and that's a disaster

fredsnail

Fellpony - I wish for you a peaceful Christmas for your family, as happy as it possibly can be and memorable for all the right reasons. I also wish for you all the strength for the future for when you need it and you know where we are if you want an ear to bend (use the private message system if you want it kept private) or a shoulder to lean on.

Alliwant - I wish you the same. You should be very proud of yourself too - it's a brilliant achievement - and one that many of us hope to achieve.

Very wise words Victory and Sary - I tend to eat more rubbish when I'm tired - and then the demon deprivation syndrome kicks in too for a double whammy :mad:.

victory

I suppose all the wrong food choices, the bingeing, out of control, not being able to portion control, not making the healthy foods fun etc are a way of life for a lot of us, I know I have learnt a lot, I am fully aware when a binge is coming on, that boredom = food, that not being able to see the plates design around it's rim means that it may be too heavily laden with food:rotfl: but all the knowledge does not stop the devil taking over sometimes.

I think I sometimes have an incredible bad relationship with food and see it as an enemy that is trying to destroy me but then I see that all the good stuff I actually like and enjoy eating (I do get obsessive with fads and will eat that until I am fed up with it, at the moment it is meatballs!) it is just I don't want it always, I want it to be my choice and the weight gain if I veer off proves to me it is not my choice.

victory

sarymclary wrote: »

. Eating in secret was something I started doing as a child, and it's continued throughout my life. I remember your advice earlier this year Victory, to not eat food when my OH leaves the house, and that hit a real nerve with me, because it was definitely something I did.... to the point of planning for it. y.

Yes I remember, I do that rarely now (seems to be with bread at the moment) I know that what I am doing is wrong. OH and I have discussed it and he knows I feel terrible about it and would never judge me for it and had no idea I was hiding away, wolfing stuff down, he just kept saying is it not better to eat together and have maybe just a slice or 2 of what you fancy rather than turning it into a secret that no pleasure is gained out of it?

Sometimes, I think to myself what is the point to all this? To have been so dedicated and lost over 7 stone to then put one back on , what I will do is give up and let it all back on because I am fighting a loosing battle but... I am not fighting a loosing battle because I Have gained so much insight, so much knowledge, so much more aware of the danger trigger points and what to do to avoid them or combat them or keep them in check that knowledge is priceless.

Sure has taken a long time but I could sit here and beat myself up every time I go mad on the bread or scoff a whole pig to myself or I can take comfort from the fact that I am never ever going to be perfect and sometimes whatever I say or do or have learnt is not going to 'save me', is not going to make a jot of difference and I will eat it anyway.

For every negative there is a positive, that is the negative but the positive is looking at it another way, that xmas was 10 days of massive eating and a massive gain, this xmas will be controlled, have not even started on the xmas foods and will have 5 days to enjoy and enjoy I will:D

It is not a great positive but when a binge comes on I go crazy and then realise that before it would go on for a few days, now it lasts that day and I can go back to it, it doesn't take over, well it does for then but lasts less than it did which means less guilt, less recriminations, less hatred of oneself and less weight gain so less damage.

Strange way of looking at things but you have to reach out to find a positive, a lesson learnt.

Eric_Pisch

just had a massive pooh and lost 1.5lbs

puddings_2

fellpony, I cant really add anything extra to the comments already written, except to say that wherever and however you manage it, I hope you have a very special Christmas indeed with some happy moments that you can remember forever. x

puddings_2

wanti - well done, 7 stone is amazing :-)

Eric - dont believe what anybody else says, you can never have too much information :-)
"information is power"... and think how powerful must you be in order to lose 1.5lbs in just five minutes!

Victory & Sarah - what wise words you both speak on secret eating

Eric_Pisch

puddings wrote: »

Eric - dont believe what anybody else says, you can never have too much information :-)
"information is power"... and think how powerful must you be in order to lose 1.5lbs in just five minutes!

i have pictures

puddings_2

theres a biryani somewhere calling my name, and i'm doing all i can at the moment to not answer back. I so need something to distract me from the argument going on inside my head. clean the house? a walk in the park? no, i think i'd better superglue my lips together: just to be on the safe side!

Work usually goes quiet in December (i sell printer ink) but its not usually this bad, my last customer was two days ago. The boredoms definitely not helping the willpower problem! :mad:

Brighton_belle

Fellpony - thank you so much for letting us now what is happening with your wee family. I can't imagine what you are going through: you have always writen so beautifully about you little girl and how she is such a delight and how much she is loved and cherished shines through.
I hope her suffering is minimal and you get to be with her in your own home.