Macgirl's "I Can Do Anything....If I Put My Mind to it" Diary

macgirl

Testing... I tried to post on a few diaries this evening without success....see if this works

macgirl

Yay! I had another laborious day, working on something I'm not interested in, so it dragged. But still, it pays the mortgage so can't complain!

Thanks for your post KC. Today I was looking for some inspiration on the forums of my diet website. Someone recommended a book called "Overcoming Overeating". I checked out the reviews on Amazon and although I don't have an eating disorder, they talked about being "mouth hungry" as opposed to "stomach hungry". That is me. I think I might get the book.
As for spending (and I think they are linked) In order to get my spending under control - I had to stop completely. No window shopping, leaving cards at home, walking away and sleeping on it before I purchased etc etc. Then it became hard to actually spend. So I treated myself a little to often and to too many things.

BUT it's not a disaster and like my eating and weight, I'm too hard on myself and over-exaggerate. Anyway, went for a 3 mile run in 26.20 after work - the fear of the dark and what lurks, makes me run faster! and then 20 mins of BOBF. My tummy is getting flatter, so something's working :j

Oh and I had a NSD :T Hopefully I won't lose this post

taxi73

Well done on the exercising.
The spending is a hard one as when we're debtbusting we really think about what we spend but once DF it's hard to get the balance right.

Karmacat

Sounds good! As for the fear of what's out there - have you checked out that crime map thing that the beeb were on about the other day? In the whole of my town in the period covered (a month? two months?) there were two burglaries! Not bad.

gilligansyle

Stop beating yourself up. You slipped up, we all do, but you need to work out a way of allowing for treats without coming unstuck. Maybe have a 'treats' account, that you put money into, so only get treats on that card; or even cash in an envelope.

I appreciate what you say about running faster, although not a runner, and agree KC that its sometimes the perception of crime. But crime rates are low round here, but I wouldn't walk in some areas at night; just because crime isn't reported in an area doesn't mean it doesn't happen.

macgirl

Good Morning

Good idea Gill - I will set up a treats account when I close down my black horse account and move to FD.

Yes, KC I checked out that site yesterday and crime rates are low here thankfully. I never felt unduly worried until a Mum at school asked me to join their running group on a Sunday morning (I really like to run alone then, when everyone's in bed and I can be truly by myself), so I dithered and she said that a few women had been attacked in broad daylight I have to say I hadn't heard, but I don't get the local rag so maybe that's where it was reported....

Anyway, the brighter nights are coming :j So I can get out more. Pilates DVD this evening to stretch out the running muscles. I'm also going to buy some new hand weights and blow up my bouncy ball for a different abs workout.

Other than that, I'm taking little DD to the Doctor this morning. Her cough is getting worse and it's unfair on her to leave it until tomorrow when I'm off.
Fingers crossed it'll be another NSD. Have a good day to those reading

hypno06

I do most of my running at night, and have to say that I have never felt unsafe. It is a case of keeping things in perspective and using common sense as much as anything I reckon.

Hope DD is better soon, coughs can be exhausting for all concerned, not just for those who are doing the actual coughing.

As for the "spending balance" this is something that we just have to work on over a period of time. Learning from our mistakes is something that will continue for a while yet, but the fact is that if we recognise them, address them, and learn from them in the future, we are doing ok!

macgirl

I think all that's true Hypno. Little DD *is* ok in herself but the cough is now a bit tighter and chesty, I doubt they'll give her anything but I want her to be examined as calpol alone is not working.

I'm going to take advantage of an extra hour at home and fly round with the hoover

Karmacat

You sound like you've got your balance back, macgirl, thats nice to see .... I agree with the common sense thing about being out - I've never been attacked, but I've never had a car and always used public transport - and I've lived in some very high-rate attack areas - Brighton is always in the news, there was a rape/death there last week in a "nice" suburb, and I lived in Winson Green in Birmingham and Waltham Forest in London too. Enjoy your solo running!

yummymommy

macgirl wrote: »

Good Morning

I was too tired to post last night. Yesterday was a long day - which dragged like hell. Very unusual for me and certainly unwelcome.
The result was, I ate too much to relieve boredom (Why?!?! :wall:) but it's all been put into Nutracheck, so I can adjust my intake for the rest of the week to compensate.

Then arrived home to a letter from the bank, telling me I'd reached my OD limit - 2 weeks before payday I'm cross with myself, as I've allowed myself a few treats "Now that I'm debt free" But of course I'm not yet, so another :wall:

However, when I double checked, there were a few housey/joint things I'd paid for instead of using the card from our joint account, so it is rectifiable but still......
MUST STAY FOCUSED!!! Why do I need to "consume"?

Anyway, so much for my last post! No, I CAN do anything *if* I put my mind to it, and today is a new day, with renewed vigour. I put on my running gear, but saw the rain and thought twice - naughty. But this evening I will do some exercise, as I know the tiredness/not exercising is a vicious circle. I feel so good when I eat right and exercise so I'm determined not to let one slip up, totally derail me.

Right, off to shower and go to work. Have a good day to anyone reading

Hiyah Macgirl
I can relate to your overeating. I very much eat with my emotions. I then feel bad, eat more etc etc. One hell of a vicious circle. When I exercise I am able to break this cycle. But some times I am just tooooooooooo tired. (even though I know it will make me feel better). I am really good for weeks even months and then I self-sabbotage in a massive way. Spending is the same.

I think we have such high standards. Work, running a home, children and trying to be a yummymommy, (not sure why I chose this name in the first place:rotfl::rotfl:).

Anyway after my long ramble I have come to the conclusion that we have got to stop trying to be perfect and beating ourselves up. After each slip up, (and my god there are a few), I try to dust myself down and start again. I try not to chastise myself.

Hope your dd is improving. xx