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savingwannabe

Enjoy today Mr W. A huge achievement. We are all chuffed with you. Have a good day with kiddies in museum. You are like the dad in Danny Champion of the World. Hooray.

Wordsmith

A great achievement, WilliamD. Whatever happens, remember that nothing can take that year away from you. Here's to the next year ... and beyond.

debbiedeejay

Hello William

Whether it was fate or not, that today was the day that I read your diary right from the start and to find out that today is "your day" I feel truly amazed at your spirit and strength - absolutely brilliant!

Well done - I tend to be a lurker (tend to lurk around FW's diary - again it keeps me going ) but I have had to subscribe to yours too because I want to watch you on your successful journey - and hopefully it will give me a boot up to sort myself out a little more -

Good luck in reaching your year target - and I do hope the work situation sorts out soon.

williamD1964

evening all. After a restless night on the sofa again, with all sorts of horrors going through my mind, I took the kids to the Natural history and the science museums. Then swimming lessons tonight for the kids then another half hour lesson and splash around with me. The are exhausted and so am I but I dout of I will sleep soundly. I really miss the council of my brother.
I hate myself at the moment, I hate not being strong enough to have the balls to front this out. I also hate the fact that I don't have a trade or a way of earning a career that might mean another job on the horizon if I lose the one job I know I am reasonably good at.
Not for the first time this week I feel physically sick.

Stay safe people.

satchmo1

One day at a time... 166 days clean, what's to hate? hugs.

williamD1964

And in the words of Annie Lennox:

Dying is easy, it's living that scares me to death

satchmo1

Being scared but carrying on - that is the definition of bravery.

savingwannabe

Your kids will value their childhoods so much when they are older. Think of that you are a success in so many ways. Any thoughts of telling your OH about work? is there a good friend you can talk to? sharing makes it easier. You are nearly there William. Hang in there. I will keep praying.Goodnight petal.

williamD1964

Have no choice but to carry on. I can do nothing else until I know what is happening, and that won't happen until thuesday at the earliest. Until then I have to put up with this knot in my stomach that is making me sick, and this nausea is threatening to overwhelm me. Oh happy happy joy joy.

savingwannabe

Is there any chance you can go to dr and get any emergency pills to help you sleep? I am so sorry this is happening. I will pray a lot i promise.

I wish life wasn't like this. It is so hard sometimes. Do you pray? Do you know Psalm 23? When they said i was going blind i kept praying and i defied all the odds and got my sight back. I am so sorry William. You will get through this.