My turn to be down ***happy update 16th Aug***

Emmzi

*sigh*

and to cap it all, someone evil has hacked my paypal account. I will get it all back when fraud team have investigated, (seller acknolwedges I didn't make the purchase) but it's money floating about the ether for now. 3 days from payday.

ARRGH!!!

Have spent morning applying for reasonably paid jobs in my old profession (financial services). Not my first choice, but beggars, and all that. I don't know if they'll take me after so long a break though...

This is driving me nuts. Loopy. I'm going from weeping to calm, but don't feel I'm getting anywhere. Grr!

lynzpower

Well, I know tihs is cold comfort, but your life just cannot be as bad as mine, and Im just about managing to function so Im sure you wil be able to as well.

Go on hun - give me a smile

ZTD

Emmzi wrote:

*sigh*

and to cap it all, someone evil has hacked my paypal account. I will get it all back when fraud team have investigated, (seller acknolwedges I didn't make the purchase) but it's money floating about the ether for now. 3 days from payday.

ARRGH!!!

Get your machine scanned. Look for viruses, trojans and keyloggers. Also run windows update and make sure you're up to date.

Reload the latest service pack, and then hit windows update again if you find nothing in the scan.

lil'H

Chocolate! solution to all evils if you ask me! Keep going hon, it'll all work out, if you don't get a job its bacuase there is a better one waiting for you. Some luck will come your way soon

lil'H
xx

Emmzi

Worst day yet.

11am, still in PJs and have been crying for 2 hours for no reason in particular. Torn between going to docs for happy pills and knowledge that most of the jobs I go for will require some kind of medical report asking what you last saw the doc for. Happy pills not a good answer.

Just wrote huge email breaking up with b/f. Not that he's done anything wrong, he just isn't doing anything right and I can't cope with not having full support. (LIKE I GIVE HIM!!) Half of me hopesd he'll call and apologise and promise to all sorts of nice things; half of me knows the promises will be made with good intentions and not come to anything. Am probably better off alone; pointless hope is worse than anything.

Agency called about evil job selling insurance for a thirsd fo current wage. I said I'd go for a bloody interview. I hate selling insurance. I hate selling anything. But if this is what it has to come to.... well, it has. No point crying but I can't bloody stop.

Well, that's my pity party for today. Going for bath. Surely I must cry myself out soon? And when I do, it's time to get chocolate. Sod the budget today.

jessicamb

:grouphug:

Hope youre feeling a bit better now hun.

ZTD

Emmzi wrote:

Worst day yet.

11am, still in PJs and have been crying for 2 hours for no reason in particular.

Perhaps the following is why you're crying?

Emmzi wrote:

Just wrote huge email breaking up with b/f.

This is not "no reason in particular"!

Emmzi wrote:

Torn between going to docs for happy pills and knowledge that most of the jobs I go for will require some kind of medical report asking what you last saw the doc for. Happy pills not a good answer.

Happy pills will help if you are irrationally depressed. You are not irrationally depressed. You've just broken up with someone - you can expect to be unhappy. At least for a while. Happy pills (barring hallucinagenics) are not going to change that.

Think about happy pills if you remain upset for an irrationally long period of time. But not before.

Emmzi wrote:

Well, that's my pity party for today. Going for bath. Surely I must cry myself out soon? And when I do, it's time to get chocolate. Sod the budget today.

Get the best chocolate you can. "Because you're worth it!"

Emmzi

ZTD, your sigs always give me a wry smile anyways :-)

Followed your advice re paypal stuff up, and it looks like I'm getting my money back soon-ish... and virus scans all updated.

Wish was dating Mr D'Arcy (bridget Jones version) who would be all heroic and just make things better.... still, if the film was like r/l it wouldn't be fiction, would it...

Mike_St_Helens

Aww Em, I know we havent chatted much on here, ive read a lot of your posts, you may have gaffawed at a lot of mine... However you are the strength sometimes on here... Its not nice to see you like this...

If you are in Manchester ish... way, I work for the Home odffice and they are recruiting big style for intelligent peeps.....

Hope your ok.

Mike x

BestFootForward_2

((((((((((Big hugs))))))))) Emmzi

I really feel for you.
Are you able to take a break for a couple days? Maybe stay with friends or even just go to the seaside for the day. You know, a change of scenery and to get away from all the stress, and recharge the batteries.

Take care and more hugs