Miscarriage support

msb5262

Hello babyboysmommy
Just wanted to say you're in my thoughts too - what a nightmare.
It sounds as if you're going round and round with this whole situation.
I wish I could offer RL support...but virtual help and support is right here for you.
Come on here and moan or vent or whatever you want to do, whenever you want to do it.
Best wishes
MsB x

portsmouthali

Hi BBM, just popping in to say I'm thinking of you as well xxx

babyboysmommy

Thank you, your messages really do mean a lot, makes me feel less alone in it all. Very relieved that I'm seeing my GP this morning. I booked the appointment a few weeks ago as I need to schedule routine blood tests. I have to see her every 3 months so I know her really well so feel a lot more comfortable with her. Hopefully she will agree to a scan ASAP, at least she is someone I know is compassionate so I feel 95% sure she will. She is the one who referred us to the infertility clinic so she knows the whole story personally not just from a computer screen.

Took another test this morning, it will be my last one if I get a scan booked in the next day or so. It was still a very strong positive although I know in reality that means little. Having blood pressure issues this morning. I was bent down to get something out the cupboard in the kitchen, stood up & felt all the blood drain away & very nearly ended up on the floor. That was 20 minutes ago. I've been sat in the lounge ever since & am feeling more human now. The nausea isn't helping things & those boobs are making their presence known. If it hadn't been for the bleeding/clots etc I'd be so glad to be feeling this way as I'd get comfort in feeling pregnant, alas not today though, today it just feels cruel.

babyboysmommy

So pleased. My GP was wonderful. She said I sounded very pregnant to her, 'of course I could still be pregnant' even with all the clots etc but what we need is a clear answer. It is still possible I've lost the baby due to the clots etc, as most do end in mc if you go through that but clearly worsening pregnancy symptoms is very unusual if you have mc. She is going to phone sometime today with an appointment for a scan which she expects to be tomorrow.


She was all smiles, told me to hang in there just for 1 more day & I'll get my answer. I cried my way through the appointment, first tears in days. I so want to take every ounce of hope she has just given me & hold it tight but I still just don't see how it can be possible for any baby to have survived so much blood loss, clots etc.

Feeling utterly overwhelmed & so glad I will know tomorrow.

QQuaver

Glad it went well, fingers crossed you'll get your scan tomorrow!

babyboysmommy

QQuaver wrote: »

Glad it went well, fingers crossed you'll get your scan tomorrow!

Thank you, it was really nice to see someone who cared & knew how big a deal miscarriages are & the stress involved.

I'm booked in for a scan at 9.15 tomorrow morning (although from past experience you are stuck there at least all morning). I've arranged for someone to come over here & watch my son as I'll have to leave early, much easier than taking him somewhere first thing. By this time tomorrow...

msb5262

Hello babyboysmommy,
Thank you for keeping us updated.
Very glad your GP is so helpful, it sounds as if she's made you feel much better whatever the future may hold and I will keep everything crossed for you.
MsB x

portsmouthali

Hi BBM, all the best for to tomorrow. I'll keep everything crossed for you, I'm sure we all will xxxx

babyboysmommy

Thank you. I've had a very sleepless night so have admitted defeat & got up, going to be exhausted by this afternoon!

babyboysmommy

I had my scan this morning & I have my little miracle! I am officially pregnant, my records state it is a viable singleton pregnancy with fetal heartbeat present. I got to see it beating away!!!

Another surprise, I'm just 4 weeks 6 days. They said because I hadn't ovulated for many months my 'periods' were not real. I clearly ovulated as a one off & fell pregnant. Because my cycle was not normal I still had bleeding, clots etc. but our little bean hung on in there & is looking good.

Long way to go obviously, still a risk of miscarriage but as things stand today I have a healthy viable pregnancy...their words

To say I'm in shock is an understatement. I don't know if I should laugh or cry so I'm doing both. I'm off to cancel my appointment with the infertility clinic

Thank you for all the support, I'm going to need it over the next few months as I hope & pray this little bean is destined for this world. I don't want anymore of my babies in heaven, I want this one in my arms...