Miscarriage support

Greener_Grass

im so sorry i have left you all wondering about me!

Things are weird, Still no bleeding. My hcg levels are still rising albeit slowly. My first level was 783 second one 4 days later was 1350 third one two days after that was 1920. So basically my dr says its a wait and see situation. my levels are rising which is good but slowly which isn't so good. They are still quite low for what they should be (7 weeks) so i really don't know. I begged the nurse doing the 3rd blood test to also check my progesterone level which came back at 7.2 which is really low.

I basically had a fight and many phone calls with my dr about this. He tried to fob me off saying there was nothing they could give me to increase it which i obviously knew was total lies. he eventually phoned an obsteotrician for advice and they agreed i should be given progesterone suppositiories if even only for a placebo affect. This past week has been a complete nightmare and i've obviously been stressed out my heaad! The dose of progesterone hes given me is only 200mg a day which i know is a low dose, i personally think it should be higher but theres no way they will give me more. I am just thankful for each day that passes with no blood and praying to God that he keeps my baby safe, if this baby hangs in there it must be a fighter. I am swinging both ways from feeling positive that I may actually get a baby at the end of all this to feeling really down and thinking that theres no way my pregnancy will continue. Its so frustrating the battle i've had this past week and that i'm the one telling them i need my progesterone checked then begging for medication to treat it. If i loose this baby i will be very angry as it could just be as simple as a high dose of progesterone to save my baby. I really wish dr's were more keen to help people keep their pregnancies, it almost feels a bit like they don't care. to them i've ONLY had one miscarraige. I have tried for almost 3 years now so this baby means more than the world to me and i would give my right arm to save it.

Sorry for the long ramble. so many emotions and drama in my head just now

So sorry to all the lovely ladies with recent losses, it does get easier with time i promise. Hugs to the rest of you too, to be here at all is just horrible xxxx

My lost baby was due 1 month today and i am beyond dreading the day coming i have booked to go on a sun holiday that week to try and distract me but i can see it being a very hard time. I dread to think how i'll be if i loose this baby before then. if things go well it would obviously help ease the pain but i will obviously still feel extrememly sad for my lost child. I think i will release a balloon or something as a way of marking the day

msb5262

Hello Greener Grass,

Thank you for posting back...a few of us have been wondering how you were doing. Glad to hear there are some positives - hang in there and we will keep everything crossed for you.
It must be really hard to play the waiting game. Hopefully someone who has had similar experiences will be along shortly!
Meanwhile take very good care of yourself.

Best wishes

MsB

Greener_Grass

thank you for all your lovely well wishes, it really means alot, i feel terrible i didn't come back sooner and update you all, my heads been up my bum this past week

skintchick

You've had a lot to deal with GG, we understand. I am so angry for you! I am beginning to think I want to start a campaign for better treatment of women who ar potentially miscarrying or have had miscarriages.

Could you obtain progesterone privately? Is that an option?

I am so sorry this is such a nightmare for you. Am thinking of you xxxx

Greener_Grass

Thank you skint chick. It's pretty crap isn't it. Unfortunately there's no way we can afford to go private or I'd be there in a heartbeat

Tonight I have cramps and very slight bleeding. Like bloody cm. only thing is its bright red blood. There is very minimal amounts of it but this is what happened last time although last time it was dark brown. Not feeling too great. Why does this have to happen on a Friday night. The worst possible time of the whole week

Toooldforthis

claire16c wrote: »

toooldforthis - I am dreading July too (unless Im pregnant by then in which case it will be a lot easier). The due date was 4th July so now any
reference to Indepedance day on a film or something reminds me of it.

Yep I would have been due again on july 12th so I know what you mean ... lets hope we have some better news for then xx

Kitten_Pie

GG thinking of you and keeping my fingers and toes crossed that isn't as it looks.

skintchick

A few of mine happened on Fridays and its totally awful.

Greener_Grass

Well I've had no more blood over night which I'm glad about but at the same time feel really pants still as I know these things can stop start last time I had two days of stop start blood before I started to miscarry properly.

Hopefully it was my body just giving me a little bit of blood so I can actually get an early scan and not because anything is going wrong. Saying that the thought of another scan where everything isn't ok is not pleasant

Hope everyone else is ok xxx

claire16c

So sorry to hear your dr is being an idiot greener grass I still find it amazing hearing stories of them not knowing basic stuff.

Could you go to the early pregnancy unit at your nearest hospital instead?