The giving up/cutting down alcohol thread part VI

DecemberBaby_2

Thanks DC and JO. He's 18 and at college. Seems a bit brighter today. Will definitely get to GP this week.

Hey Jo and HB - hugs to both of you.

I think what we show on the outside is often quite different to what's going on inside. I feel the same - sometimes putting on a confident front when I'm anything but!

Jo - I'm sure you have the capability to be brilliant in the new job.

Must dash.

DBx

honeybear_2

Miss_Piggy wrote: »

On the way back was listening to Steve Wrights Love Songs with everyones dedications to their mums and I felt quite emotional! Silly moo.

If you're a piglet shouldn't you be a silly oink?

paybacktime2008

In answer to Bismark. Thanks for that.

There's a line in 'No big deal' (i think) that says something along the lines of..

Until you stop using (whatever drug) you can't see how bad you were.

I think thats whats hard about giving up. You have to face those demons without the safety net of getting slaughtered. Easier to block it all out with a drink and hope that in the morning it will all be different which of course it won't be.

My sister in law posted some old pics of my son on fb. It really upset me because I can't remember him then if that makes any sense. I exsisted for years, crisis management from day to day, running on empty.

Now, hopefully, I've turned that corner and can 'live' again. Baby steps. xx

Pippilongstocking

Waves chaps

Hello - just dashing on before dashing out to work - teaching veggie gardening today in about um 1/2 hour but need be there to set up

Thanks for the kind wishes yesterday - will catch up on you all properly later!

xx Hugs to all X and hope you're all OK...........

jo1972

Oh the bloomin bells....

'wouldnt it be fantastic to walk into that place 5 weeks and 2 days sober'

Arghh!!!

honeybear_2

It will be fantastic

I got mugged by some dark chocolate digestives when i went out - shall I send some over to help ward off the bells?

jo1972

HB, that sounds really traumatic, what naughty digestives, send em over here and ill sort em out for ya!

paybacktime2008

Hugs Jo.

Can you work out what has set it off?

honeybear_2

jo1972 wrote: »

HB, that sounds really traumatic, what naughty digestives, send em over here and ill sort em out for ya!

:rotfl::rotfl::rotfl:

I know it's early but I will be going MAD today so that's 9 for me

maman

jo1972 wrote: »

HB, I think what you are feeling is pretty common really, it's not till somebody, like you in this case, mentions it, that everyone says 'yeah I know what you mean'! I've been in a very similar frame of mind recently particularly over the NJ (new job :eek:), I am very worried that I won't be able to do it and am totally confused over why they even asked me in for an interview let alone (laughably) gave me the job (:eek:), I have very low self esteem and confidence in my abilities (on the inside, outwardly I'm as confident as you like!) and although I know that I am actually capable of doing it, I won't let myself believe it. This is why I'm terrified :eek:

Jo, I think what you're feeling is very common indeed.

I sometimes think that truly confident people are so full of themselves because they don't understand/care what's going on. They don't see the potential problems. The rest of us stay on top of the game (that's most of the time when we're not on here and sharing) because we're so determined not to get caught out that we work incredibly hard at coping and having all bases covered. It may seem like acting (or even bullshi**ing) but I'm sure it's that bit of stress/adrenaline that keeps most people going.

I'm sure you'll be fine. You're right to sort out your work clothes because that's like putting on your uniform/stage clothes. It all helps.

I'm rambling on a bit, sorry:o

Beautiful day here. Hope all mums are having a lovely day. DD1 has been round but DD2 said she had other things planned so gave me her card and flowers on Thursday. I'm a bit miffed but I'm not about to set off on another ramble.

Lovely atmosphere on here last day or so:T:T:T:A