anxious MicheH's undischarged diary.. trying to rebuild in every sense of the word

MicheH

What can I say you guys, thank you. Your stories are so important here, not only is it helping me it will be in the archives here to repeatedly help others. It's so important to share I feel, especially where emotions are ceiling high.

Through PM and your words on here I have been thinking so deeply as to why i've been the way I have been. I am a happy person. I am. I feel more at home in my rental than in my shoe box new build. I am truelly thankful for every thing I have. Infact I am extremely lucky to have all that I want. Which considering the past few posts on here sounds a little silly to say.

I have two regrets in my life:
1) Working fulltime and missing out on my girls' early years
2) Never going to university.

I no longer work and i'm a stay at home mam, working hard to get into university to qualify as a midwife. I too have plans which are a house, my home, somewhere where I want to be, a forever my home. That's all. Which leads me to think my family happiness is the bee all and end all.

Today, I'm actually in top spirits, i'm in a festive mood, doing my housework ready for family coming to stay for a few days. I am worried about the cars MOT on Monday, hope it passes because money is very quickly dwindling, so many things around this time of year that you really can't avoid paying for. We'll be fine - at least the bills are paid. Right i'm off because i'm letting myself get down with thinking about money.

I love how you post your thoughts on here too, don't feel like you're hijacking at all as it helps me see the wider picture.

Have a good day everyone x

MicheH

Mr's M.. I did garlic and cheesy pasta with bacon yesterday! A bit basil in there - was lovely!

Mrs_Malaprop

Glad you enloyed it. Will try it with basil in as well.

I was always afraid to cook and get it wrong so bought ready meals. But since trying to get us in on a budget and sometimes actually make it undr budget I have taught myself not to be afraid of getting it wrong. We have survived and the kids are lonving helping me, so they are learning to. I have learnt not to be afraid of chopping and changing what goes in things and if it's a sucess then it is noted down and if it isn't we have a laugh and get the bread and butter out to fill us up.

I have just discovered the Old Style board whoopie!

In_a_Mess_3

Glad you are feeling more positive today Miche, it truly is a rollercoaster of emotions at the moment isn't it?

And as for food, last night I fried 2 chicken breasts, with a chopped onion, mushrooms and carrots, used 2 chicken stock cubes and a bit of cornflour to thicken it up, served with frozen roasties (half price in the local supermarket)! It was really tasty, usually I try and do all these fancy things and yet we enjoyed it more than other meals, and it didn't cost anything as all the ingredients were already bought!

That meal was just for me and dh by the way, the boys had chicken nuggets! :b

MicheH

Grrrrr.. DH just told me Lloyds are still calling him nearly daily over the old account. I hadn't a clue and i'm very annoyed by it. We've been BR for 4 months now and surely should not be still getting calls about the account. Anyway, there's a post on the board asking for help about how to stop this.

Family still here, having fun. My mood is chipper at least.

Still no word from Moon Beever about that grand of tax money, having that sitting there at Christmas time and when the car needs an MOT is , well it's frankly disgusting, we have resolve and wouldn't touch it but i'm furious it's still there.

I'm also really annoyed at what I have found out bout Northern Rock. DH's dads' wife's granddaughter has taken a year out of university to save for the experience. She has only ever worked as a Saturday girl in a freezer shop, 18 year old just out of doing her A levels, has no life experience and maybe no common sense. Northern Rock have employed her (no customer experience - shelf stacker) No empathy or sympathy with the world and she know works on the phones for NOrthern Rock Debt Management. I think that just says it all - she's a lovely girl and really don't want her to spend her days doing that job but i'm really annoyed that she has been given that job.. it's a position that needs so much more than what she has. Just Northern Rock for you I suppose.

MOT still in my mind - I hope nothing goes wrong! We've gone over our gas this month by £30 - at least it's just for the next few months I guess. 1 present left to get then we're done Christmas food shopping to do still but the sad news is I can't take Amy ice skating, just can't afford it now. Hopefully it will still be there after new year when DH is paid again.

Sorry not contributing to the boards much, like I say family is here and i'm enjoying the company

Till the next time

sizzler

Thanks for update.

Enjoy the familly it is important.

Regards sizzler:j

philnicandamy

Hey mich glad to hear you....as others have said family 1st the place will still be here when you come back x

dojoman

Hi Miche, nice to know you are still feeling OK, good luck with your MOT...

kerrypn

MicheH wrote: »

Grrrrr.. DH just told me Lloyds are still calling him nearly daily over the old account. I hadn't a clue and i'm very annoyed by it. We've been BR for 4 months now and surely should not be still getting calls about the account. Anyway, there's a post on the board asking for help about how to stop this. There is a great thread on winding up DCAS-maybe OH should have a read x

Family still here, having fun. My mood is chipper at least.

Still no word from Moon Beever about that grand of tax money, having that sitting there at Christmas time and when the car needs an MOT is , well it's frankly disgusting, we have resolve and wouldn't touch it but i'm furious it's still there.
How annoying. You have a lot of self restraint! Itll be worth it when they do ask for it though
I'm also really annoyed at what I have found out bout Northern Rock. DH's dads' wife's granddaughter has taken a year out of university to save for the experience. She has only ever worked as a Saturday girl in a freezer shop, 18 year old just out of doing her A levels, has no life experience and maybe no common sense. Northern Rock have employed her (no customer experience - shelf stacker) No empathy or sympathy with the world and she know works on the phones for NOrthern Rock Debt Management. I think that just says it all - she's a lovely girl and really don't want her to spend her days doing that job but i'm really annoyed that she has been given that job.. it's a position that needs so much more than what she has. Just Northern Rock for you I suppose. Oh god, Mich I hope she doesnt call me...or when I phone I get her....she really will get a rude awakening to the job....Im getting quite addicted to wiping the floor with them now..:o

MOT still in my mind - I hope nothing goes wrong! We've gone over our gas this month by £30 - at least it's just for the next few months I guess. 1 present left to get then we're done Christmas food shopping to do still but the sad news is I can't take Amy ice skating, just can't afford it now. Hopefully it will still be there after new year when DH is paid again. Dont worry about the gas too much...do you pay monthly, you can always catch up in summer Its a shame about the ice skating, could a grandparent not come along and pay as a treat for her? I know that sounds really cheeky, but I know my family have been trying to force help on me in all sorts of ways, theyre just happy to help. If its anything like ice skating near us itll be pricey-maybe itll be a bit cheaper after xmas

Sorry not contributing to the boards much, like I say family is here and i'm enjoying the company We miss you, but enjoy your family-thats what christmas should be about anyway

Till the next time

Just caught this thread Mich. Its a great idea logging your BR experience, Im sure many people in the future will be able to relate to and draw comfort from it, as well as people now going....thats me!

Im not very outgoing or confident either, Im ok on a forum but I take criticism badly. I think you realise after BR what really matters-just as you have done-and now I realise that although my children wont have as much on xmas day, they will be happy with what they have got. They get to see their dad more and mummy is happier and spends more time playing with them. Im ashamed to say before the BR, I was so stressed I didnt want to play, just wanted to curl up in a dark corner..but now the BR has freed me of that fear of debt, and although we havent got a lot, we still have each other. Thanks for sharing Mich, I can really relate to it

alastairq

re-cooking....a few years back, I made a sausage 'n mash tea for all.....big bowl of mash on the table.....and because I had seen this on telly, i made a hollow in the centre of the mash, and left a big pool of melted butter in it.....

No-one was really interested in the mash...for some reason...