The Trials and Tribulations of Trying to Conceive when its just not happening (12m+)

onestep

Well done BZ!!!
Have a lovely holiday chickpea

AFM.. Waiting for ovulation. Not that it'll do any good
I'm not down about it, just more accepting these days I think. But then it goes in cycles, aptly enough.. By the time I'm at the end of the 2ww I'll be SS'ing with the best of them

Whattodonow

Hello ladies.

How are Primmer and Legacy doing? not long til testing dates...

AFM CBFM is showing its egg, and weve been DTD after work, which is a lot nicer than last thing at night on a weekday

Haven't built up the courage to ring the hospital and enquire about the tube tests yet, I don't know why but medical people intimidate me! Plus its hard to do in the day at work, there's nowhere for privacy. Might try to do first thing tomorrow.

Thoughts with those who have gone through treatments with no success. I don't know how I would feel at that point. It's something I can't think about right now. You have my utmost respect. It must be hard because you don't necessarily share what you've been through with people, so although it's like grieving in a way, you don't have the understanding and support you would do with a death. Much love x

EverTheOptimist

Evening all

Just checking in to see how you ladies are doing?

And also wanting to wish Primmer luck for this week. Fingers crossed.

And good luck to Legacy, not sure when you will be testing. just re read it, the 27th.

Thinking of you both.

xxxx

Primmer

Thanks for all your good wishes but I have started bleeding today and so came straight home from work tonight and straight to bed. Feel awful and so disappointed. Dh has gone out so all on my own and feeling very miserable

Metranil_Vavin

Massive hugs Primmer xx

EverTheOptimist

I'm so sorry Primmer, do you think that is definitely it though?

Thinking of you. (((Hugs))).
xxxx

onestep

So sorry Primmer.. ((hugs))

Legacy

I'm really sorry primmer i can really empathise with your disappointment.. I hope your OH is back now.. My hospital said if I started bleeding to keep using the pessaries just incase until test day, but no-one knows you, better than yourself.

I haven't had a bleed but tested today and it was negative. Which, deep down I already knew because of a total lack of symptoms. I'm not entirely sure where we go from here.. We did absolutely everything by the book this time (lost weight, ate the right food, avoided the bad food, cut out caffeine entirely, exercised, took all the supplements..I even gave up my job (breaking in young horses) due to it being dangerous) and got fab quality embies, and even though you know the odds aren't great, for it still not to work is just absolutely devastating. I feel so let down by my own body and somehow unattached (this sounds a bit strange) from the area below my ribs to the tops of my thighs.. it's as though that part of my body is nothing to do with me anymore - it doesn't do what the rest of me wants it so desperately to do.

I had hoped this Christmas we'd be breaking the happy news to our relatives and friends but it seems like it's just going to be a difficult time of year again.

On the plus side, we do have some frozen embies now.. (6) but I'm not sure how much longer we can keep putting our lives on hold and how many more goes on the emotional rollercoaster we can take. Anyways, that's more than enough of me being depressing and dismal.. and ranting!

Primmer, I'm so sorry hun.. take care all xx

QQuaver

Primmer, have you tested? (((hugs))).
Is it a proper AF type bleed?

QQuaver

Legacy, I'm so sorry (((hugs))).
Glad you have some frozen embies.